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                               LURE of LOVE

                 At first I was not really sure
                            If I had bitten into the lure
                 But now... I'll say without a doubt
                        That lure destroyed my ugly snout

                 However now that I'm used to it
                         It's sweeter than a smashing hit
                 I find my mind is fully booked
                      I think I'm lost because I'm hooked

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                                   AGE

             Nobody has ever seen my enemy
                        For it is deafness that grew into me

             It has become my dear old foe
                          For that's the way old age does go
             But yet my dear old friends
                          I do not show the slightest trends
             For it certainly is not known
                             That everyone just speaks alone

             It is the same with the rest of life
                       I take the whole thing just in strife
             I try to compensate some way
                        And contemplate and pray... and pray
             That for the moments still to come
                         The rewards are many more than some

             I've realized that when I grow older
                         Life just becomes a bit more colder
             But not to worry dearest friend
                           I live my life to the fullest end
             For I take a smaller step each time
                              To keep me happy and just fine

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                              BROWNOUT DREAMS

                 In this office... with the lights so dim
                Among the girls... some stout... some slim
                      We try to work and do our share
                   But sometimes lose our when and where

                      We try to keep the light on low
                  For again we suffer this brownout glow
                       It has become our daily grind
                     We peer and smile and do not mind

                  Oh yes... the work... the work's a lark
                    We can do that blind or in the dark
             It's the girls... the girls... we just can't see
                    And I'll be damned who's on my knee

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                                   TOY

                I am a toy and just picked up
                          When life presents a needing cup
                To her I love... so full of fun
                        I am just a toy... of play and run

                I must detach and struggle free
                          I must just live and quickly flee
                Her lovely spiel that paints my mind
                            I do not need her bloody grind?

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                                BARBEDO'S

           There is this nurse I call B-B-Barbedo's
               With tight fitting clothes and a beautiful pose
           A lovely tan and a ready smile
                      I wish I could just hold her for a while

           More than likely for an old fart like me
                           All we could do is drink strong tea
           For even if I knew her doos and donts
                      I'm just too old for her wants and wonts

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                              BEAUTIFUL BARB

               Here she is... Beautiful Barb
                      Always friendly and happy as a lark
               And for sure it's a dreary day
                            When she is home or gone away

           In any hospital corridor... stairway or hall
                 You cannot miss her... although she is small
           And even if you meet her a hundred times
                You will look again for she rings your chimes

        For her radiant smile and her solid look
                          She's marked and circled in many a book
        And whether you're sick... or on your way
                          She'll make you better... or just delay

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                             BLINKING BRAINS

              In this clumsy brain of mine
                       The solution is just bloody brine
              It never works the way it should
                        I think it's dying slow but good

              There was a time my friend and foe
                       My thoughts were always on the go
              But since some time maybe too late
                       I try to work with an empty slate

              I do not know how to coordinate
                        And I've lost how to concentrate
              I've ask myself agin and agin
                           Maybe the cause is bloody gin

              It works sometimes completely averse
                             Maybe it rambles in reverse
              Yes I need help right now and here
                         To get the damn thing into gear

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                                  BRIAN

               Doctor O'Brien so tall and thin
                         Has got a mind real sharp within
               He has this gentle resolute persuasion
                      That must be obeyed on any occasion

               Every day and night... and in between
                         He is a gent well liked and seen
               I just hope... for my body's sake
                          He finds a cure that I can take

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                              BRILLIANT STAR

              Doctor Campbell... she looks after me
                            As if I was a baby on her knee
              And every little fart or burp
                      Is written down... it's quite absurd

              But really though... she is a star
                          And as a doctor will make it far
              Wearing slacks or fancy skirt
                              For her I take off any shirt

              I would be honoured to no end
                      If she would call me dear old friend
              And if I'm ever in great need
                         For her I'd yell and loudly plead

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                                  CHAIR

                 In front of my desk is this lovely chair
              And most of the time it's but filled with air
                    Most people with a wondering mind
                       Just look at it from behind

                    But once in a very rare blue moon
                 It is filled with grace instead of room
                   She comes and sits and takes a rest
                     To slyly laugh and kick my desk

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                                 COMPANY

                     I drive along and often find
               It's the same old road... the same old grind
                   The same old thing and far too long
                  This seat is empty where she'd belong

                     Even the radio so loud and clear
                      Does not keep me company here
                 And in my mind I repeat again and again
                  The times we sat and smiled just then

                 Where is her laugh... where is her hand?
                     Where is the time in wonderland?

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                               COMPARISONS

             Like the earth laughs with it's flowers
                  And steady cries with it's summer streams
             It is your smile that me thus powers
                   And gives me silence between the screams

             And for every day the sun does shine
                          On the mountains to melt the snow
             So will this silent life of mine
                           Be splendid in your smiling glow

             Like the trees are moved by wind or storm
                  And the grass but bends by cooling breeze
             So is my silent soul in purest form
                      By your single touch so full of peace

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                               COMPENSATION

                      In this life so full of strife
                  For male... female... husband or wife
                    There are moments of great reward
                    As long as the worst is disregard

                  And when we meet sorrow and adversity
                  Accept it with the greatest generosity
                    Because in our confusion and pain
                     We fail to see it is not in vain

                    Our misfortune so full of sadness
               Will show us clearer the moments of gladness
                   So just forget the bad and the wrong
                And remember the times that we were strong

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                                 CUDDLING

                  Cuddling-up my dear old friend
                        Should become a national trend
                  It makes you sort of worry-free
                          So slacken off and cuddle me

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                                 STARDUST

                 Before the sun had ever shown
                              You and I were both alone
                 Between the stars and stardust yet
                          Two tiny specks who never met

                 Eons came and eons went
                     And silent was the time just spent
                 Until the tiny specks became
                          A loving pair completely lame

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                                  LUCKY

               Before I spent my time with you
                             I never knew quite what to do
               But now that you and I have touched
                    I feel real good but strangely blushed

               My heart is trembling... a missing beat
                        If this is Love... it's very sweet
               By golly... who the hell am I
                       To have these wings and fly and fly

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                            DECEMBER AFTERNOON

             Oh smiling Soul from where did you fly
                    Your beautiful laughter lightning the sky
             Free as a bird... yet held by chains
                      Help me to save you from hurt and pains

             Acting cooler than cool but hotter than hot
                       Dreaming of evenings that cannot begot
             Fly on... dear Laughter... higher and free
                   Leaving me torture and thoughts about thee

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                                 DECISION

               Tell me... can this miracle really be
                                That you love as much as me
               Do you really feel this glow
                      That makes my heart beat blow by blow

               Give me the signal once again
                           And tell me how and tell me when
               Tell me soon and tell me where
                               You and I will get our share

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                               DEEPER DOWN

                I am a Soul and deeper down
                            I often play the hollow clown

                For a smiling grin on my old snout
                            Does not let the laughter out

                The feelings from my Soul within
                          Are not expressed by outer grin

                Yet always I am this trying twin
                          With outer face and Soul within

                And sometimes when I almost cry
                           I know the reasons and the why

                It's the clown that does all this
                        But deeper down I'm full of bliss

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                                DEPRESSED

                In this hospital I have no will
                        I'm semi human and holding still
                I'm neither hot... I'm neither cold
                       Just acting cool in position hold

                The day rolls by in holding pace
                        I'm just a face in certain place
                Not much identity... not much spunk
                            Another name... another bunk

                To bear the day and pass the time
                    I write these words in awkward rhyme
                Some day to come in future time
                    I kick the bucket and feel just fine

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                                   DIET

                The dietitian believe it or not
                           Takes in my life a favored spot
                Her eyes are stern and wide awake
                     She has dark hair and beautiful shape

                And every day... come rain or shine
                     She comes to this humble room of mine
                And every thing that is marked in red
                      I eat and swallow in this stupid bed

                The best solution for me however
                           Is wish my wife goodbye forever
                And marry her... quick and fast
                        With her as cook I might just last

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                                  DOUBT

              There is always this tiny bit of doubt
                           Our mind just cannot do without
              We seem to be never completely sure
                         And that's the lot we must endure

              But if we really think enough
                        The conclusion surely is not tough
              Doubt is a belief we hold and fear
                       But the simple truth is always here

              So please relax and do surrender
                    For truth just is... and has no bender
              Before we know it... we feel at ease
                         With mind and soul at equal peace

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                                   DOOM

                    In this dorren and forsaken place
                        No people live of any race
                The ground is scarred and completely bare
                       And even water is very rare

                       Once there was a better time
                    When this habitat was just sublime
              With water and flowers and the greenest grass
                With people and children of joy and class

                The strife... the greed... the wars galore
                  Destroyed this place and it is no more
                      Maybe in a million years again
                 We'll see some folks with soul and brain

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                                   DUST

                 Down the stairs in this deep hole
                          There is a spot that is my soul
                 In this dark and dungy place
                             There is a tiny ray of grace

                 In the ceiling and in the roof
                              Hidden deep and quite aloof
                 Is this tiny bit of slack
                          The rest of it completely black

                 Through this opening... oh so small
                        Peeks the light from a fiery ball
                 The dust is playing just for fun
                             In this brilliant ray of sun

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                            FASTER THAN LIGHT

                   If I had a son I would tell him why
                      I sometimes gaze at bluest sky
                For somewhere out there in infinite space
                   There is the beginning of human race

                   If I could travel faster than light
                     I could just prove who is right
                  For I could look back at Adam and Eve
                At the tree and the apple and its retrieve

              I could listen to the prophets and their tales
                And see the Goddess with her golden scales
                There would be no guessing or believing in
              The answer would be in pictures thick and thin

              But since I have no son and cannot travel fast
                I just have to study the books of the past
                   Actually though... it's just as well
                For knowing the answers... makes life hell

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                              FEATHER FLIGHT

          I feel like a feather and float just then
                       Everytime I see her and meet eyes again
          I feel so small... so infinitely tiny
                In this flight of happiness so light and shiny

          Never in this life have I felt this before
              It's terrific... splendid... too great to ignore
          Please let me fly from here and this earth
                  Because I do love you for all that I'm worth

          When I do land... please let me be brave
                    For loving just you has made me your slave
          I just cannot serve you and stay as I am
                     Because my dear love I'm not yet your man

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                             FLEETING MOMENTS

                In this great eternal space
                       There is this earth in air embrace
                With you and I... and hare and deer
                         Just for a while we are but here

                Sailing forth between the stars
                               Aching from the many scars
                She's full of pain of bad pollution
                              Hoping for a quick solution

                And by the time we'd realize
                      To solve our problem smart and wise
                This earth... our very living space
                      Might not survive and kill our race

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                          FLOWERS IN WILDERNESS

              In this joyful and vibrant mind
                       There are no thoughts of lower kind
              Only thoughts of love and easing charm
                   So darn right pleasing... cozy and warm

              Even on a cold and wintery day
                           I feel the joy of spring or May
              Full of light and full of bliss
                       Like blooming flowers in wilderness

              And never ever... ever again
                           Will this mind be just the same
              As if a storm in blinding rage
                        Has changed this mind page by page

              And all the thinking done afore
                       Never produced such thoughts before
              To make this graceful mind and soul
                               So jubilant and Godly whole

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                                  FLYING

                There is a girl I know so well
                      Who sometimes feels worse than hell
                But when she bounces back... oh boy
                            She is a pleasure full of joy

                She is then... oh so free and high
                                 Way up yonder in the sky
                Wherever you just might have been
                        A girl like her you've never seen

                No wonder I fell in love so fast
                      And completely forgot about my past
                Side by side we sometimes fly
                       This lovely girl... just her and I

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                              GASTRO - STAR

                  Doctor Sherbaniuk is as noble as gold
             And it's hard to know what his brain might hold
              The tremendous dedication and working at night
                 Must be his pleasure and also his plight

                   Never in my life have I met a human
                    With such a mind and sharp acumen

                 So this little poem with pure dedication
                Is written for him in sincere appreciation
                    Knowing a man so humble and stern
                  Enriched my life... and made me learn

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                             GENTLEMAN - STAR

              Doctor Marien as we all know
                      Lifts our spirits to a radiant glow
              He's like a magician and does it well
                            He is a man that I call swell

              A gentle touch of joyfulness
                         With dedication and friendliness
              Gives his patients an inner glow
                      That's make them either leave or go

              So please dear doctor do not be shy
                         And let your touch just multiply
              For in this life so full of strife
                    You are enlightening the dullest life

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                                   GIFT

                 What for and how and why
                         Fell this clumsy dumb old guy
                 From his sturdy solid base
                      Into this floating mess and maze

                 Every thought and every blush
                          Turns his feelings into mush
                 Tell him soon my dearest dear
                     Are your thoughts just as unclear

                 To him... to him you lovely love
                        You are the favored from above
                 And never on this earthly plain
                         Be his mind and soul the same

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                                 SILENCE

                   Since words are but a useless token
                They meet and glance... and none is spoken
                  Because their gleams from eye to eye
                 Are the witness of their hello - goodbye
                    Containing the wisdom and the pure
                        Of the torture they endure

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                                  RHYME

                       I always could but never did
                   For it is not brains or guts or wit
                      Just a flow of words in rhyme
                    To tell my love and pass the time

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                                   GIRL

                        In this great big hospital
                      I wander from corridor to hall
                         And sometimes what I see
                        Can not really exist or be

                      It is a girl so tiny and fine
                     I wish by God that she was mine
                    And although I had four of my own
                       This one I want for me alone

                     Beautiful eyes and a ready smile
                      It keeps me going mile by mile
                   Dear unknown... please never grow up
                       You are adored just as a pup

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                               GOING PLACES

                   You thought that all I could afford
                       Is this crummy damn old Ford
                    Well let me tell you dear Hortense
                   The driveway stalls a gleaming Benz

                        And if you ever want to go
                    To the nearest town or latest show
                  It will get you there pound for pound
                        To any place or all around

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                                  GRAND

             Tenderly and with the utmost care
                       She stood and slowly combed her hair
             Beautiful splendor blond and bright
                    Reflecting in mirrors against the light

             Slowly now and naked... she turned around
                     The sight just nailed me to the ground
             I could not move and tried to speak
                   All I could utter was a senseless squeak

             My limbs were lame and I could not bear
                      To see her beauty just standing there
             I closed my eyes and she took my hand
                      I moved and cried... and it was grand

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                                 HEAVENLY

                    Had we but courage and time enough
                 And weren't so selfish and had more love
                   This world of ours... and human life
                   Would be glorious and without strife

             We could close our eyes and still see the light
                 Of pleasant thoughts and souls so bright
                  Our lives would be by joy surrendered
                And mankind's flight so heavenly splendid

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                                   HOME

               In this little home of ours
                      We spent our time in days and hours
               To raise our children and their friends
                     And around the corners and the bends
               The paint came off and on the floor
                        The tiles and carpets are no more

               But now the time's a coming
                          That our house is empty running
               Because for you my dear and I
                          Our lives are slowly passing by
               Do not forget my love to smile
                    Yes... it's still all worth our while

               Because of you... the one I love
                         We keep struggling hand in glove
               And you know the greatest time
                           Will be... when yours and mine
               Bring their own... dainty and daring
                          It's for all that we are caring

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                                   HOPE

             Whatever I eat or whenever I dine
                   It goes right down and tastes just fine
             But all the food beware... beware
                      It does not stay too long down there
             It mumbles... it grumbles and it blows
                          And out the bottom it easy flows
             It's hard to imagine but every bit
                   Just turns to smelling light brown shit

            I hope in this hospital of the U of A
                      They find me a cure and I'll go away
            To a better life and a more pleasant time
                        And no more need for a dirty rhyme

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                                 HOSPITAL

              The doctors come and the nurses go
                            This hospital is in full flow
              This place is like a big machine
                       With many done and some still keen

              Many patients are just sick
                   And some are cured with a needle prick
              And never in your whole damn life
                      Have you ever seen that much strife

              Some come in and never leave
                      And take their shots without a beef
              They are ready and have surrendered
                    They die in peace when life has ended

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                                  JANET

                 She is like a bible between books
                           Or like a human between gooks

                 She is like a high between lows
                          Or like a caress between blows

                 She is like a rest between bouts
                           Or like a face between snouts

                 She is like a dress between frocks
                         Or like a diamond between rocks

                 If this doesn't describe her well
                     She is just heaven compared to hell

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                             JOYFUL AND KIND

               Mrs. Marion as an administrator
                         Certainly is a jolly communicator
               She directly knows the sense of a joke
                     As long as someone else gets the poke

               I think she is a reliable type of girl
                        With many a swing and daring swirl
               We are fortunate to have her here
                      To fill-out the forms neat and clear

               And even in the daily hospital rush
                       She keeps her speed without a blush
               She is experienced and cool of mind
                         And most of all... of loving kind

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                                 KNOW ALL

                      Many a man either big or small
                     Sometimes thinks he knows it all
                   But before the day turns into night
                     He has to agree he was not right

                       And every time over and over
               He tries to prove the fourth leaf of clover
               And every time he thinks his proof is there
                   He has to admit that he was not fair

                    So next time when it is your turn
                   At least do show that you did learn
                 That there is no man either big or small
                    Who really... really knows it all

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                                  LINDA

             My beautiful Linda never read this aloud
                             And certainly never in a crowd
             Read it softly and in a quiet hush
                     It's bound to make you blush and blush

             You are so brave yet beautifully gently
                       That even I become tame and friendly
             Words like tender... soft and fine
                      Cannot express these thoughts of mine

             So let these line - between you and I
                     Be the secret of secrets under the sky
             For never really I'd want to confess
                             This open book and living mess

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                                  LONELY

                      In this hospital way afternoon
                    I feel trapped in a crowded cocoon
                     And every one I speak to or not
                   Seems out of his mind or out on pot

                 I think it's the feeling of being alone
             That bereaves me of senses that have since gone
             I look out the window and the sun is still there
                  Shining its brightest and I just stare

                  Where is my spirit... where is my mind
                Where is the laughter and feelings so kind
                Please let the sun be replaced by the moon
                  And put me to sleep in my cozy cocoon

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                              LOVE'S TORTURE

               Love's pleasure so tender and new
                     Becomes the torture of love's curfew
               Still we dare... gently and free
                      And try to enjoy while moments flee

               In our life so full of Lent
                             Love often is just abstinent
               We do not know what might occur
                      And try to enjoy while moments blur

               And in the dying moments of our kiss
                         We find the wonderments of bliss
               We never ask or reason why
                       And try to enjoy while moments die

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                             LOVEABLE INSIDE

              Definite authority and lots of spunk
                    That's the lady... who orders the junk

              You better gulp... just for this day
                     The food she ordered... without delay

              Yet somehow... right through her lines
                      You see the glow that outward shines

              She is the type acting from aloft
                      Inwards she's lovely and gently soft

              Her tinted windows trying to hide her soul
                  Tells you... I'm the boss and in control

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                             LOVABLE RATTLER

                      Typist... typist... rattle on
                        Like on a finger marathon
                Your head bent low... your neck real sore
               In capital style... like you've done before

                      What a scribble... what a note
                        It's like a funny anecdote
                   To ask for this... on a single page
                      This guy is in a fadding rage

                  So smile your smile and cool your cool
                Like you have been taught in typing school
                And while your mind is on the nitty-gritty
                 Behind that desk... you look real pretty

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                                LUNCH TIME

             Patiently and in no definite rush
                       I'm waiting for you to gently blush
             And offer your excuses for staying away
                    Although you knew it would make my day

             I tell myself that I understand
                       And force my feelings under command
             I know you know as time goes by
                       That my love and patience never die

             Whatever the lunch... the place or time
                     Without my partner I can't enjoy mine
             So rush on over before I have to declare
                  That I'm talking again to an empty chair

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                               MAKE-UP GRIN

              Sometimes when I feel right down
                             I pretend to be a cheery clown
              I go to the mirror just for a while
                       And put on a face with a silly smile

              Before I have my facelift done
                         The gloomy feelings are just gone
              And with this phoney make-up grin
                          I feel just fine and good within

              So if you happen to feel that way
                           Remember what you've read today
              Certainly... and I don't know why
                   Your dreary feelings will pass right by

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                                  MOTHER

                     Tenderly and with a radiant glow
                     She is always busy and on the go
               Dusting... washing and with a friendly smile
                  She chats and laughs just for a while

              Then the windows... the beds and all the rest
                 In devoted dedication she does her best
                  And in this house with one quick look
                You know for sure... she goes by the book

                 And very few with their forgetful brain
                   See the care... the work... the pain
                   The way this household is being run
                  It seems that she does it all for fun

                     Well my child and older creature
                   This lady performs a unique feature
                For besides the cooking to keep them alive
               She works a full time job from eight to five


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                            MY IMMORTAL FRIEND

                     I am a mortal and tempt to live
                   But sometimes I find so little give
                    Just then my Immortal comes along
                     And teaches me a different song

              Of eternal lights and stars and joyful friends
                That please and please with reaching hands
                    And take me up and up and far away
                 To a beautiful place where times are gay

                 I become an aspect of the dancing lights
                Completely oblivious of duties and plights
                And suddenly... as by the crack of a whip
                  I'm behind my desk and ceased my trip

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                                 MY LEFT

                     This leathery left hand of mine
                   Behaves just right most of the time
                   However sometimes or once in a while
                    It behaves completely out of style

                 It has been taught the same as the right
                  But it does not act as smart or bright
                  Maybe it's just because it is the left
                        And of common sense bereft

                     Whatever it is I am not too sure
                    Perhaps it needs a behavings cure
                  It has to be taught to do as the right
                   To act in unison and without fright

                 I'll have to talk to this hand some more
                 And tell it again as I have done before
                  It has to learn to be honest and fair
                   And form a completely matching pair

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                            NORTHERN LIGHTS

            Dear Miss Davies I just don't know whot
                    That so attracts me so that you have got
            But one thing is certain and absolutely sure
                   Your are just superb... pleasant and pure

            If all people were... what you are
                      The angels in heaven would gain a star
            You're sheer dedication and a pure delight
                     You're also beautiful and brainy bright

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                             NURSING CHUCKLES

           Dear Debbie before you go away from here
                   There are three things we want to make clear

           And they are certainly no surprise at all
                        To any of your friends... short or tall

           First... we like your personality and easy style
                         And not to forget your beautiful smile

           Secondly... we like your dedication and finesse
                       And the fact that you never leave a mess

           Thirdly... we wish you a perfect nursing career
                       With doctors following from far and near

           So just make sure you pick the best
                         And your gentle touch will do the rest

           And here's some advice you should not miss
                      Never ask a doctor for more than one kiss

           Stay in control and make them submit
                            For once they start they never quit

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                           OFF - LIMIT - PLACES

                    In our steno-pool way in the back
                 There is this girl with a beautiful neck
                So smooth and whole you'd swear and swear
                      No beard ever kissed her there

                   But remember you sneaky old conniver
                    The girl is a regular after fiver
                  And lined up beards from here to there
                         Kiss her almost anywhere

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                   ONCE

               In this dark and endless space
                          There is but one that can embrace
               This full of pain and lonely heart
                               And yet and yet we are apart

               But once... but once the time will be
                              That you my love and lucky me
               Will join and live for all we can
                           And neither be nor beast nor man

               But form this moving loving pair
                            And take our once forever share
               Of this so painful unfair deal
                     And hope our minds and souls will heal

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                         ONE IN TWO or TWO IN ONE

                         If you are my friend
                                        Who am I?

                         If I am your friend
                                     Who are you?

                 Because my dear... a friend is one whole
                   Please help me tell this to my soul

                         If you are my friend
                                  What part am I?

                         If I am your friend
                               What part are you?

                   Really my dear you and I must define
                How a friend could be both yours and mine

               Alone we are nothing.... together one whole
               I feel that our bodies are sharing one soul

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                ON SUNDAY

                 From my vantage point and different view
                    I see them come and eye their pew
               They sort of stumble and their heads do nod
                  Because on Sunday they greet their God

                      On weekdays or any other kind
                     This God is never on their mind
                        For then... as we all know
                    They are concerned with money flow

                     But on Sundays their day of rest
                 They come to church and look their best
                    They shyly look to left and right
                   Pretending to pray with God in sight

                 They notice the ladies with figures trim
                   With bouncing boobs and legs so slim
                    They stand and sit at every chime
                     For praying there is little time

                  They look at people with many a glance
                     No self-reflection gets a chance
                    Their sacrifice... a single dollar
                  To help the man with the funny collar

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                   PAIN

                 Many many years have gone
                            And never so much damage done
                 By such a fleeting touch of hand
                             Nor on sea... in air or land

                 Forgive me though if in times ahead
                               I cry and cry alone in bed
                 Because in this dark and empty space
                           I find no love nor inner grace

                 The brightest sunlight is so dim
                          And does not really warm within
                 Because not for any pain or cost
                     Will I ever gain the ONE that's lost

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                PASSING-BY

                     Love is pleasant... love is fun
                       It's like a jolly little pun
                  From word to word... from kiss to kiss
                      Elated feelings full of bliss

                     Remember though and don't forget
                   Don't let your love go to your head
                     Enjoy... enjoy and sigh and sigh
                       Before the moment passes by

                        Never ask for what or why
                     Does love exist in this old sky
                     Enjoy... enjoy and sigh and sigh
                      And never mind the passers by

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                 PICTURES

              Your face so beautiful and kind
                       Keeps painting pictures in my mind
              Your eyes so bright and shiny soft
                               Takes my soul way up aloft

              Your manners dainty... cute and fine
                          Steals this empty heart of mine
              Your smile so lovely and full of bliss
                       Tempts me to hug and kiss and kiss

              My lovely lady... please stay near
                      And let me adore you just from here
              In silence I admire a lovely feast
                   Disturbed by this ugly and slyly beast

              Oh how can I ever... ever stand
                           Not to touch or hold your hand
              Oh how can I ever... ever endure
                     The thoughts and desires not so pure

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                  SECRET

                   Like lightning from a clear blue sky
                   I don't know how... I don't know why

                       My inner sense only respond
                      When it see this lovely Blond

                      Strangely in this world so wild
                    I wander through just like a child

                      My eyes so small yet open wide
                      Seeing you my thoughts collide

                     As if from ages long since past
                    I knew your Light but see at last

                    This splendid Blond so pure divine
                   Made from a Source that is part mine

                     Out of the sky so clear and blue
                    This poem is written just for you

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                  SMILES

                I think my sneaky dear adviser
                        I do get older but not much wiser
                I still fall for a pretty smile
                     My looks just stay there for a while

                Oddly enough it rings my bell
                          And often makes me live in hell
                I think I'm sort kind of tool
                          Belonging to this grey old fool

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                SOUL MATE

                     And every time we meet and shine
                    There is this sense so pure divine
                  That fills my mind with feelings swell
                    So gentle sweet from Heaven's well

                    Yes... my thoughts completely mush
                      When I do see her silent blush
                   Nobody on earth seems just as close
                      As this so gentle Danish Rose

                      In every sense of our relation
                  There is this feeling of pure elation
                      It's so seldom that I do find
                     A loving soul so close and kind

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               TEAM - STAR

                       My dear Dolores why is it so
                    That so few words from me do flow
                     Somehow I just can't get a hold
                   Of what your soul just might behold

                  Whatever it is or whatever is missing
                 It make me wonder and keeps me guessing
                  But one thing is certain and very sure
                 Your kindness and care shall long endure

                   In this hospital this great machine
                   A person like you can lead any team
                  Please be yourself and feel right free
                  And you will be liked as much as by me

                           ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~





                                   TELL

                       I am an adult... yet a child
                   Floating on waves of love's beguiled
                     Why are my thoughts so far away
                      And keep me puzzled day by day

                    This silent pain from deep within
                     That tears my heart are so akin
                To death and sorrow from love that's lost
                   Cold of your smile my soul is frost

                       I cannot lie and still be me
                       And have to tell whatever be
                     I do so love with full endeavor
                   Yes... it is you... for now and ever

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                  TENDER

                 My lovely lady how can it be
                         I feel so free with you near me
                 I am so light and oh so high
                        When you are close and so nearby

                 Please tell me what I should do
                           To give the same of me to you
                 Touch my hand and gently smile
                       And stay with me just for a while

                 I am so glad that you and I
                             Do often cry at our goodbye
                 Yet feel alive and light and free
                          For I love you and you love me

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                              MY LOVELY LADY

                 This human touch from me to you
                             Will never ever prove or do
                 As much as words of love and bliss
                       That you and I sealed with a kiss

                 And yet why is our devious mind
                      Sometimes so cruel and darn unkind
                 But let us cease to wonder why
                        And be ourselves and try and try

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                 THE BUS

               Right on the bus I see them all
                     The men... the girls... small and tall
               And most of the faces secretly show
                       A certain pleasure... a certain glow

               Some of the masks... boy what a lack
                     If they'd smile their face would crack
               Too bad that on this glorious day
                         Some of these people feel this way

               While watching these faces apropos
                         I try to sense what mine does show
               I put my fate right in that noose
                        And let them watch completely loose

               Behold... behold to my surprise
                          They see an old man grey and wise
               And to the amazement of all souls
                        His eyes are just two peeping holes

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                 TO PAUL

             Upon request of a friendly friend
                           I finally moved... I finally bend
             He asked me to write some words in rhyme
                          Suitable to print in The Main Line

             Can you imagine... silly sweet me
                    Picked for this honour with smiling plea
             There was no way that I'd say no
                     That's why these words are in this show

             The subject he said... doesn't matter at all
                   As long as it is decent... neat and small
             So what you are reading believe it or not
                         Are silly words still fresh and hot

             So dear Paul... for this wintery season
                  I wrote you a poem without rhyme or reason
             One demand however... with a silent smile
                       Please leave me anonymous for a while

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                 TREASURE

                Once I found a lovely treasure
                     It was beautiful and gave me pleasure
                The owner came and put in his claim
                       And now I am lonely and without aim

                However for the time that it was mine
                        It gave me a lovely glow and shine
                And now to everybody's satisfaction
                         I live faintly on pure reflection

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               UNTIL I DIE

                       I met her just in passing by
                     And yet I'd love her until I die
                     How can I live without her glow
                        If she or I would ever go

                   I'm torn between my sense and plight
                    And really want to do what's right
                    I want this feeling until forever
                   And to be without her... never never

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                  VISIT

                  I look out of this window way up high
                 I see the earth... the birds and the sky
                The birds and the people are busy as ever
                  But which of the two is really clever?

                   Today is the day... she might appear
                   Our eyes will meet when we are near
                  And neither earth... nor birds nor sky
                   Will feel our love and know just why

                    My lovely lady please do not delay
                     My soul and heart are in dismay
                    And never.... not even when I die
                Will I tell the earth... nor birds nor sky

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                WHAT'S NEW

                     Since I cannot wait until you go
                    Here it is... please read it slow
                 It's been on my mind for quite some time
                   It's written now in verse and rhyme

                 Dear Shirley of all the girls I ever met
                     There is but one I can't forget
                    And do not ask... which one or who
                      Dear Blond... it is lovely You

                    And if anybody ever wants to know
                      What's new or slyly on the go
                   Please do not tell them for a while
                      You say lots and gently smile

                  And for times to come my lovely Blond
                    I hope your days in smiles respond
                   So let the time you're spending here
                  Put your heart and soul in higher gear

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                WHO IS WHO

               Things around here change so fast
                         They sound like rumors of the past
               Nobody knows who is who or who does what
                            Or who the hell mismanaged that

               All I can do is sit right back
                           And fold my hands behind my neck
               Humming again this same old song
                          If you don't plan things go wrong

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                  WINDOW

                     In this hospital ten floors tall
                   I look out the window and see it all
                   The trees... the cars and the people
                  And way beyond... the slimmest steeple

               The sun is shining and the world looks fine
                 This hospital window is what I call mine
                       And never in a hundred years
                   Felt I so good and shout out cheers

               Close to this tower and left of the steeple
                 Is where I live with my wife and people
                  That's where my street is and my home
                That's where my thoughts and soul do roam

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               WORDS AND ME

                       With my mind in neutral gear
                       I dream afar and never here
                      Somewhere out in way-be-yonder
                    Is my mind full of dare and wonder

                     The words flow slowly in and out
                   And sometimes I could yell and shout
                     My mind is loaded full of stuff
                      I cannot write it fast enough

                      And sometimes my dear old foe
                    The words but stick and never flow
                         And other times my enemy
                    I write and write and out comes me

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                             YOUTHFUL SPRING

                  In this office with no windows and sun
                       There never is too much fun
                  It's dull and dreary and kind of thin
                   Until my Debbie... my smile comes in

                     Without any cause or reason why
                   She floods all feelings sad and wry
                 With smiles that reach my heart and soul
                    She makes me feel completely whole

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                         WE ARE ONE UNTIL WE DIE

                       Love me tender love me hard
                     With your words and your regard

                       Love me deeply love me just
                     With your passion and your lust

                       Love me right love me wrong
                      With your eyes and your tongue

                       Love me total love me alone
                      With your sigh and your groan

                       Love me heavy love me light
                    With your weakness and your might

                       Love me slowly love me fast
                    With your pleasure and your blast

                        Love me always love me now
                      With your promise and your vow

                         Love me hot love me cold
                     With your shyness and your bold

                        I love you and you love me
                       Whatever come... whatever be

                     Because as sure... as sky is sky
                         We are One until we die

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               DEAR MUSIC

              His music is like an innovation
                      While his songs are pure inspiration
              The beauty of his sound and song
                              Unfolds my soul and I belong

              His voice is touching soul and mind
                        Playing thoughts and brain so kind
              In all my days and years since past
                   This beautiful sound will last and last


                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                           HOSPITAL PROCEDURE

            Doctor Peeremi with the beautiful skin
                            Is a total lady outside and in
            Her gentle manner and sincere concern
                     Made me feel glad that it was my turn

            Her questions are many and few are hard
                    With full devotion she is on her guard
            One thing however was never asked
                  That here and now will be fully unmasked

            All her inquiries were of the physical kind
                  None whatsoever were concerning the mind
            So for all to know without any hurt
                      I am dedicated... mystical and alert

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                            MARY... DEAR MARY

                    Dear doctor McBean... busy as ever
                   Somehow strikes me as average clever
              She's very proficient with a touch of a smile
                And writing my history took quite a while

                     Very effective and to the point
                She examined every muscle and every joint
               Little is missed and what is does not count
               She definitely concluded I am safe and sound

               Except for one area and that's really inside
               It's the area I feed and the juices collide
                So in total confusion and I don't know why
                  I keep on eating and blow-up the sky

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~





                           CHARLENE... CHARLENE

              A nurse like Charlene in case you didn't know
                    Always feels good and never is low
                  Her beautiful style is very contagious
               It makes a dead man feel wild and courageous

                   If you ever feel down or totally out
                  Just call on her and look at her snout
                  Somehow she's got this personal style
               That makes you feel good and silently smile

                    So do not forget to go and see her
              Because her personal touch will make you purr
                    But never however call her in vain
                 She'll blast you out... causing you pain

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                           NOT YOUNG... NOT OLD

                  Opposite this wall through windows dim
                     Completely grey and fairly slim
                   There was this man not young not old
                   Reflecting thoughts sincere and bold

                    Another day in the same old trend
                       Seems to linger without end
                    One of those... the same old past
                   With belly-aches that last and last

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                             BRIGHTFULL CHEER

             No name-tag at all but smokes for two
                                  Playing the game of who is who
             At one time she gave a name with an A
                    But who can remember when old and grey

             Whatever it is... I could not care
                    I am only watching her figure and hair
             Definitely cheerful and a face to match
                      A joyful pleasure worthwile to catch

             A smile from heaven a joy for men
                       Too bad I am sick and tied to a can
             However... however some day in time
                       I might be reborn and stand in line

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                             ETERNAL HEART

            Yes... dear Brenda for every deed
                    Your hands are used for fashion and need

            And in your life and its short duration
                   They are your hands... but God's donation

            They are on loan as a priceless possession
                  To use for work in your healing profession

            They are Nature's gift for love to share
                   And they definitely make a beautiful pair

            For in your life still young and smart
                        The actions of hands form your heart

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                      STEAL A ROSE TO SAVE YOUR NOSE

              In this nice and shiny can
                    You'll find the remains of a living man
              Many trips and straight direction
                                Accumulated this collection

              The smell will travel mighty high
                            When you open up the lid to eye
              And never in this earth domain
                            Will your nose be just the same

              I the accomplish... I am your friend
                     And possibly drive you around the bend
              But if it wasn't for me and others many
                       This hospital would not make a penny

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                WATER GIRL

                      A smile as bubbly as a stream
                  Yes... she's certainly worth a scream

                    So yell for water sprinkling fresh
                   To soak your drying tongue and flesh

                      She is the favorite water girl
                  That takes your heart just for a swirl

                With her to improve you don't need a pill
                  Just call on her... you certainly will

                    In every hostipal corridor or hall
                      She has a drink welcome to all

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                            JEANETTE THE STAR

                   Many a night at hours late
                                 All I do is wait and wait
                   For this shining star to reappear
                        To shine so brilliant and so clear

                   A pleasant laugh completely free
                           For all the patients and for me
                   May this pleasing brightful star
                          Shine her light for long and far

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                              NEW YEAR WISH

                     May this place for ever and ever
              See doctors and nurses more clever than clever
              And that they never feel the slightest bit odd
              To ask for assistance from their boss and God

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               NEW DAY

                      On this morn as any other day
                      I just get up and slowly pray
                    And every day I'm greyer and older
                 My beliefs are growing bolder and bolder

                       Somehow deep within my brain
                   There is this force with mighty gain
                    And I use this inspirational force
                  To find my start... to find my source

                      I somehow hope from now on in
                    I'll walk this path so razor thin
                    Please send me lots of inspiration
                   For this short life and its duration

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               WATER - GIRL

                      A smile as bubbly as a stream
                  Yes... she's certainly worth a scream

                    So yell for water sprinkling fresh
                   To soak your drying tongue and flesh

                      She is the favorite water girl
                  That takes your heart just for a swirl

                With her to improve you don't need a pill
                  Just call on her... you certainly will

                    In every hostipal corridor or hall
                 She has the stuff... most welcome to all

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                            JEANETTE THE STAR

                   Many a night at hours late
                                 All I do is wait and wait
                   For this shining star to reappear
                        To shine so brilliant and so clear

                   A pleasant laugh completely free
                           For all the patients and for me
                   May this pleasing brightful star
                          Shine her light for long and far

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                              NEW YEAR WISH

                     May this place for ever and ever
              See doctors and nurses more clever than clever
              And that they never feel the slightest bit odd
              To ask for assistance from their boss and God

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               NEW DAY

                      On this morn as any other day
                      I just get up and slowly pray
                    And every day I'm greyer and older
                 My beliefs are growing bolder and bolder

                       Somehow deep within my brain
                   There is this force with mighty gain
                    And I use this inspirational force
                  To find my start... to find my source

                      I somehow hope from now on in
                    I'll walk this path so razor thin
                    Please send me lots of inspiration
                   For this short life and its duration

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                             LIGHT BUT HEAVY

                               I am a ball
                                 Any size
                              I fit any hole
                        I am selfimposed fullness
                          Sometimes I feel puffy

                      I roll easy because I am heavy
                    People like me because of my size
                             I have no colour
                               Mostly dirt
                            I used to be shiny

                        Now I'm scratched all over
                      I have no navel but am all eye
                             I have no brain
                               Just gravity
                          Once I fell in a hole

                  I don't move until kicked in the guts
                            This does not hurt
                         I am mostly holes anyway
                               Filling one
                      The atoms I am know this best

                        I am a universe by itself
                              I have no sun
                                Just light
                            I am a light ball
                        People know me for my guts

                         I am banged around a lot
                        My equilibrium is perfect
                               I never fall
                           I am always dropped
                      My scratches make me invisible

                        My surface keeps me going
                       Don't ever wash or polish me
                         You'll end up with zilch
                  People call me an all around good ball
                             Solid and rare

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                              OFFICE ROUTINE

               Notwithstanding the fact that we are facing
            temporary forces seemingly greater than ourselves
               We try and try again and do our work our way
                           We do not frustrate
                            We do not despair

               We know that these seemingly greater forces
               do not see as clearly on our level as we do
                           We do not blame them
                              We understand
                                And smile

                        And whether we win or lose
                            It does not matter

                Because we fight our battle on their terms
                 With the weapon of rightness on our side
                                Knowledge

                    And being the victors or defeated
                           Is of no importance
              For it is the glory of the battle that counts

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                               OBSERVATIONS

                     What else could this writing be
                           But pearls to swines
                     For men who are but busy eating
                         With gapers full of food
                     While mumbling words of cheating
                       With talk so base in thought
                       Not worth the mere repeating

                   And stomachs so full and wide around
                      That genitals cannot be found

                        With heads so full of fat
                        Yet scheming raw deceiting
                    Yes such a loathsome form of life
                         The animals are deleting

                            And by what else
                   Could this so fine and literary art
                     Be but answered by burp and fart

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                              MY MASTER ADAM

                         Do I then do the dishes
                       While you slyly sneak about
                        Watching all that wiggles
                          Beneath a pretty snout
                        Ogling bouncing boobs that
                         Seems so firm and stout

                         Do I then carry garbage
                         And do the wash to boot
                        While you behave like Adam
                         And care for me no hoot
                    For sure I'll fix your very crank
                       And please your rotten root

                    I'll dress up like a dame you know
                         In pure delight conceit
                   And pass on by your back porch stand
                         And flare in pure deceit

                          Your eyes will open up
                       Until they are perfect round
                        And I'll seduce encounter
                         By flirt and sexy sound
                         And then my master Adam
                    Your shrimp will grind the ground

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~






                                DEDICATION

                              She was a dame
                           Beguiled with flair
                          With subtle movements
                            Bewitched and rare

                            With face and eyes
                       Inviting the deepest trance
                             To male of sorts
                           Who took the chance

                          ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~


                       ~ End of My Earlier Poems ~





!  My Later Poems  !


My Earlier Poems           My Later Poems           My Last Poems



                             JUST WHAT I SEE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Am I to write... for Man to read
                             in Letters to be upon agreed?

           No... Hell no... I write what's Me
                       and spell in Words just what I see.

           And if it's you who I offend
                       still let me be your steady Friend.

           For what you hear... in what I say
                        are only Words... in perfect play.

           Read it... like it.. or disagree...
                          I only write... just what I see.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01003-1979/80







                             A SPIRIT DIVINE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Blare out these Lines loud and bold
                        renewing Sense that's grown too old

             Blare them out in Sky and Space
                              renewing Mind in Soul Embrace

             Blare them out and feel my Sound
                        renewing Thoughts that have unwound

             Blare them out and hear the Sooth
                              renewing you with total Truth

             Blare them out Line for Line
                           renewing you... a Spirit Divine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01004-1979/80







                    I LIVE.... I CARVE... I REMEMBER
                    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               To live is carving Memory
                                  deep within the Soul.
               To die is to remember
                                  the Lines of Carving.

               To improve is to live again
                                and to remember it all.
               We all carve again... and again
                                 until Time Unfinished.

               Many Lives... and many Carvings
                                            are needed.

            Understanding of Life
                     and the Adherence of the Law
                                    make the Body Immortal.

            Without Disease.... without Death.
                               Carving the Soul is Painful.

                   It takes endurance... and Light.

            The Light of the Intelligence
                    guides carving and remembrance
                                 to Perfection in Eternity.

                   I live.... I carve... I remember.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01005-1979/80






                          FROM BEGINNING TO END
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I am but a leaf in a forest of many
                  sparkling and shining in colours like any.
           Living to fall in pure delight
                in colours a plenty... brilliant and bright.

           I was in the making since Time's begun
                      living in pleasure and fed by the sun.
           The wind is my pillow... the night is my rest
                      to be just one leaf is what I do best.

           Displaying my colours in endless pursuit
                washed by the rain and sustained by my root.
           I am but a part of this friend my tree
                        I am but a leaf... but I also am me.

           I did not ask to be here at all
                   neither do I know... my time in the fall.
           I am what I am... but a leaf from a tree
                     resting on wind... in sun that is free.

           I am part of creation and when I do fall
                   I am just asleep... still part of it all.
           For tomorrow I rise and sustain my friend
                   and live yet again from beginning to end.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01006-1979/80







                            AND PERFECT SOUL
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               At death in becoming completely free
                       I leave this body.. that is not me.
               I advance as in a dream-alive
                       my shell will rot... but I survive.
               For once again... upon the end
                            I leave behind my body-friend.

               Some roads I found too much inclined
                       and some I took were self designed.
               For on this path of thoughts and deeds
                      I walked some roads for ego's needs.

               But on this planet... this Cosmic-School
                            one should not be a body-fool.
               For fools but arrive... to but return
                     from Planes-Divine to life's sojourn.

               So lay your path... to find your goal
                     with roads inclined and perfect Soul.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01007-1979/80







                             NO OTHER MUSIC
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           From the Lute of God... I am but one note
                             and when God plays... I perform.
           I rise and meet the Rays of the Sun
                                       in blended Brilliance.

           There I meet my Brothers and Sisters
                  we form a beautiful melody that engulfs us.
           We dance... and the rhythm
                           propels us to the highest heights.

           We reach the levels of delight and ecstasy...
                                          in Nirvanic Trance.

           God plays until Eternity embraces
                                 the infinite rainbow.
                          We are rapturous delightful colors.

                We listen to the infinite nuances
                                      of God's Symphony.

                We are this Symphony... we did not know.

           We are listening and composing with God...
                                    We Are The Song of Songs.

                  The Song of Songs composed by Love.

           From the Lute of God... I am but one note
                             God plays and I perform forever.

                       There is... no other Music!

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01008-1979/80







                          BY TOUCHING OUR SOUL
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             When I talk sex... and crack a joke
                        I am their guy... I am their bloke.
             The more degrading or base the end
                       the more I rise and be their friend.

             But when I talk of God Divine
                     their faces change... I'm out of line.
             Their friendship ends and they feel itchy
                   they feel offended... they feel twitchy.

             Why is it... that when I touch their Soul
                   they feel embarrassed... out of control.
             And how can I... to my friends reveal
                    the Secret of Life... the Goal so Real?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01009-1979/80







                            A TOUCH OF GRACE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             The emptiness within my Soul
                        cries for fulfillment of the Whole.
             I need to find its deepest Core
                        and fill it up with Self some more.
             So that the echos of my mind
                           do not rebounce or sound unkind.
             So feeling-thoughts will be my norm
                         to fill my space and give me form.

             The emptiness filled up with Me
                         is what determines what I will be.
             For the difference between you and I
                        is the way we feel and see the sky.

             So let me be... and feel some more
                          to fill myself from core to core.
             With thoughts of us... this earthly Race
                        with kindness and a touch of Grace.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01010-1979/80







                            AND MAKE IT GROW
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            There is no Time or Distance I do fear
                       for in my thoughts they are but here.
            Within my mind I but create
                          the limits in which I self-relate.

            But to my Spirit... eternal free
                 my Consciousness does silent plea
                 to raise my limits to Infinite Space
                       to the multi-dimensional Spirit Race.

            Still yet... as man... since Time's begun
                  in all I am....
                  I see the Sun... the Moon
                  the Stars... the Worlds-Sublime
                  as unfolding Thoughts... since Eons'-Time.

            But yet... oh God... in Space Divine
                     show me the space... I could call mine?

            Teach me your Wisdom... your Eternal Glow
                    enlighten my Spirit... and make it grow.
            Yes teach me your Wisdom... your Eternal Glow
                    enlighten my Spirit... and make it grow.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01011-1979/80








                            IN DIFFERENT FORM
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            This mind... this matter... it is not chance
                              that I awakened out of trance.
            This entity... body... mind and Soul
                            are part and total of the Whole.
            Enhancing sights of worlds in motion
                         created divinely by God's Devotion.

            It is but the wandering... foolish thought
                that creates the questions that are wrought.
            In reality mind and matter are the same
                          but form a puzzle like God's name.

            So are the concepts time and space
                             baffling man from race to race.
            They are but puzzles... to be inquired
                            but form God's total as desired.

            From deep within... it's my conclusion
                        that time and space is our illusion.
            And God's sum of mind and matter
                       is God's energy in different scatter.
            So in this Universe...
                        this Concept Divine
                 Mind and Matter... Space and Time
                   Thought and Substance in every norm
                     are the Infinite One in different form.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01012-1979/80







                          IN GOD'S... YOUR TIME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Eons ago... when you and I
                    were only dust in darkened sky
                    the Primal One  or  All That Is
                               created Man to be his bliss.

            And through the ages we lived and learned
                      explaining Life... to them concerned.

            But the primal question... how you and I
                    descended from this darkened sky
                    is still unknown as it should be
                          for who are we... for who are we?

            We are not asked to know or to explain
                        the Splendid Works in Earth Domain.
            For no human... in whatever form
                            has the knowing of Cosmic Norm.

            We should but listen to the voice inside
                              and by this Law in awe abide.
            For every creature... high or low
                             is but a Spark of Cosmic Glow.

            So with this Cosmic Light inside
                          look into skies and worlds-awide.
            And wonder... about this work Sublime
                 in awe and pleasure in God's... your Time.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01013-1979/80







                       GREATER THAN TIME AND SPACE
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              I have traveled the Road
                                  from its very beginning.
                   And I will proceed
                                  toward its very end.

              No Power in the World
                      and no Force in the Universe
                                             can delay me.

                 For I am the way I am
                                   because of the Road.

                 Which is lonely and full of Obstacles.

                    Ever climbing.... but beautiful.


              I know but the part I travelled
                         and it is the Unknown I long for.
              The Road and I will meet in Infinity
                            and there I will find my Soul.

                   Eternal.... and in Perfect Order.

              Equal to the Spirit of Obstacles
                          and greater than Time and Space.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01014-1979/80







                        FOR THE WILL THAT DELVES
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Yes... I know...
                    while they are still groping
                          for I have been...
                                    where they still stare.

            Yes... I have found...
                    the Truth that's hidden
                            by the Earth that is not there.

            For the Truth... that is my Knowledge
                          is the Knowledge that comes free
                 by the Light of the Intelligence
                         that's hidden deep obscured by me.

            To free the Light of the Intelligence
                              is to agonize the Inner Mind
                with the pain of deeper thinking
                           about one's-self and Human kind.

            Within the mystery of Human thinking
                                 is the point of no return
               that will be found in Books of Wisdom
                             from the Wise of this sojourn.

            It is the Treasure of Understanding
                               that within our very selves
               lives the Light for the Enlightenment
                          waiting for the Will that delves.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01015-1979/80






                            THAT THEY DO MISS
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              Wondering at the Man I am
                             I question the part
                                              I am of Man.

              Am I enough of Man as is
                             or am I just the part
                                                they miss.

              Or am I the part
                     that in its play
                             brought Man to gloom
                                          and deep dismay?


              Oh... could I
                     but be of greater Soul
                             enlarging Man in total Whole.

              And be just more
                     a man of bliss
                             to fill the part
                                        that they do miss.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01016-1979/80







                             AS WAS FORETOLD
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Multitudes of People of all kinds and size
                 have reality reflected into their eyes
                          from shadows on the wall they face
                        and think they see the world and space.

          And by the patterns on their blind wall
                                they study Man and know it all.

          Should ever one just turn around
                 to leave and ascend to higher ground
                            the dimensions of Truth at last
                          would show the ignorance of the past.

          And upon seeing the Truth and Light
                 he would sense his duty and his plight
                              and so return to past and place
                             bestowed in time to tell his race.

          But finds... that all in blinding stare
                               still study Man in dark despair.

                   No words of wisdom or kind appeal
                 do make them turn to Life that's real.

          The fascination of the world in slime
                        enslaves and binds them to their crime.

          And their opinions and their will
                         slants the Enlightener for their kill.

          For they believe to live so well
                           with Spirits dead and Souls in Hell.

          And the Reality-Beyond that was behold
                             was God-Itself... as was foretold.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01017-1979/80







                             YOUR FINAL GOAL
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I am the Poet who died and left
                       and was of his due recognition bereft.

           But now I relive to continue still
                     to speak with power and determined will.

           I speak with inspiration from Planes Divine
                     to create again the words that are mine.

           I do not respeak for the recognition I need
                     but to bring a message for you to heed.

           So pay attention to the time I am around
                for the message I repeat has no hollow sound.


           "In this World where you live
                in company with your Brother
                               and your Eternal Soul
                            you are to live and remember
                        your ultimate Purpose and final Goal"

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01018-1979/80





                             OF WHAT'S TO BE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              I but reflect on space that's dead
                      producing feelings loaded with lead.
              I but reflect on rock and stone
                         creating feelings bare and alone.

                     So... in brilliant sun
                               with shivering will.
                     I speak in words
                                 with deadly skill.

                     In brilliant Sun
                             with rays that are me.
                     I repeat and repeat
                                  this urgent plea.


              "To Make The Light Abundant And Free
                    Yes... Clearer Yet... For Them To See"


              "For life as known to you and me
                            is but a part of what's to be"

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01019-1979/80







                              WEIRD AND ODD
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            I travel through space at enormous speed
                           in shape and form of human breed.
            I travel around by day and night
                      sustained by earth and blinding light.

               I but see my ego's need
                         and do not have belief or creed.
               Only to pleasure do I respond
                         and I don't care what is beyond.
               I am but only bones and blood
                       and fully grown from dust and mud.

            No questions ever are in my mind
                     that lead to answers of different kind.
            For I do not want to know... and why
                    this world keeps racing through the sky.
            Me and my pleasure form a total whole
                             and I don't care about no Soul.

            I rather spend my day and night
                            plucking fruits in equal flight.
            For as long as I have my meat and bone
                               I leave my Spirit-Soul alone.
            How could such Spirits ever be...
                     for you can't be... what you can't see.

               And people who believe in God...
                    they are but silly... weird and odd.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01020-1979/80







                            THE ONE THAT'S ME
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Often... in the space I seem to be
                         I cannot find the one that's me.

               Therefore I search for Light
                               and flightly flee
                        to lift my eyes to them that see.

               I am not like the flowers and the bee
                       they do not seem to think like me.

               For they enjoy their life as life
                       whereas I but find a daily strife.


               Where can I rest in space at rest
                         creating peace and rest at lest.
               Where can I go and secretly flee
                       to be myself... the one that's me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              01021-1979/80






                             MY BROTHER MAN
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
                Is not feeling for you...
                                sending Loving Thoughts?

                And isn't Loving...
                         sending Thoughts with Feelings?

                     While Praying... must be both?

                And all of it...
                             the Expression of the Soul.

                     Raised to Infinite Perfection
                                 equal
                      to the Light of the Supreme.

                So let my Feelings...
                            and Thoughts...
                                  and Loving...
                                      be for You...
                                         my Brother Man.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02022-1979/80





                             IN WHICH I CARE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Do I then leave the ones I know
                     and join my sphere... my welcome glow?
             Do I then leave the loving past
                     and join a sphere that might not last?

             Do I then sever the ties that bind
                      and search for love I might not find?
             Do I then cut my life in parts
                         and cry and cry for broken hearts?

             Do I then sever from them for me
                        and find my life ... yet cannot be?
             Do I then leave for sights unknown
                     that do not reflect in minds of stone?

             Oh... Force Divine... provide the Light
                         to make me choose beyond my might.

             Oh... Force Divine... with me... do share
                        this human life... in which I care.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02023-1979/80







                          TO THE KINGDOM OF GOD
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Your Body... this Machine...
                               incredible as ever.
                  Cells and Molecules...
                                  to be counted never.
             A circling Dance in Nature's Game...
                        speaking and listening to your Name.


                But who is the Who... that masters You?

                 Who is the Who... that really is You?


             The Master my Friend is the You without End
                       the Spirit Sublime of Space and Time.

             The You Eternal from Light-Divine
                         the You forever... without Decline.

             The You that must live...
                        the You that must learn...
                  to abide and to give...
                        to ascend and return...
                               against all Evil and Odd
                                      to the Kingdom of God.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02024-1979/80







                         HEAVEN'S BEAUTY INKLING
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              Praying is not folding hands
                              and slipping beads for wear.
                 It is not mumbling words
                                 in endless droning stare.
                 It is not falling down on knees
                            and dreading pain of kneeling.
                 It is not killing thoughts
                             in minds to dull for feeling.


              But it is...
                 the reverence of your thoughts
                               of Earth in Space-Suspense
                 the joyfulness of summer
                              and nightly storms so tense
                 the mystery of the sky
                                      begun in eons hence
                 the beauty of the flowers
                             with strength in equal sense.



              Yes... praying is the awe of mind
                                to the One We Are in kind
                it is the looking into our Soul
                               with feelings interlinking.
 
              It is the surrendering of ourselves
                              without a moment's thinking
                 to the pleasure of being Man
                              and Heaven's Beauty inkling.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02025-1979/80







                         AND KNOWS WHAT IS RIGHT
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Had we but listened to the Voice that spoke
                   Had we but listened to the Stranger in cloak.

         Had we but listened to the Sound that rose
                       Had we but listened to the Man who arose.

              But times have gone by
                           with cultures and revolutions
              While churches and religions
                               have brought no solutions.

         So... here we are today in complete confusion
                      while the World of Man pukes in profusion.

         But the Supreme Intelligence in its Wisdom Galore
                     has given us the choice as was done before.

              For IT created Man...
                             with an Inner Voice of Light
              So that each one of us can listen...
                                  and knows what is right.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02026-1979/80







                            WHO ARE IN DISMAY
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         How can I share
                     the world that's me?
         How can I share
                     the thoughts that plea?

                              How can I share
                                         the mind that's mine?
                              How can I share
                                       my Sphere Divine?

            Should I then stand at corner stone
                   and speak... and speak... to me alone?

            Should I then shout from building's roof
                        the words to them so quite aloof?


                  How can I give this gift that's given
                          to them on Earth that are but driven
                          by wealth of dirt and plies of stuff
                              so puffing up... yet not enough?

         How can I give this Gift Divine
                     to Minds of Man equal to mine?
         How can I rest and feel at ease
                     when wars are flaring... and is no Peace?
         How can I rest... or pass on by
                            while Minds of Man offend the sky?

             I can but love and do my best
                       while Minds of Man must do the rest

             I can but love and silently pray
                     for Minds of Man... who are in dismay.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02027-1979/80







                                IS LIVING
                                ~~~~~~~~~

                Life is to learn
                        to reduce wants to nothing.

                        And to be happy
                                 is to not desire.

                        For to be unhappy... is to want.

                To learn to reduce wants to nothing
                     makes the smallest gift a pleasure.

                    Givers and Wanters...
                                meet in the end.

                         For both...  Life is too short.

                But Givers live...
                        and Wanters suffer.


                To learn this with Pleasure... is Living.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02028-1979/80







                               REPEATEDLY
                               ~~~~~~~~~~

                 It is the feeling
                        beyond and behind words
                                that expresses Thought.

                   For Thoughts do not come in Words.

                 Thoughts live.
                          Thoughts are Beings.
                                  Thoughts are Patient.

                 Thoughts wait forever
                          in order to become fulfilled.
                       Wrong Thoughts... return.

                 They cause disease... sickness
                               and Death... repeatedly.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02029-1979/80







                         NONE OF IT IS PLEASURE
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Patience... is endurance... without pain.

                It is the understanding of Time
                                      without killing it.

                Patience...
                     is Time... waiting...
                                   without forgetting it.

                     It is longing for Acceptance...
                                            effortlessly.

                Patience...
                     is the Temporance of the Soul.

                                    None of it...
                                             is Pleasure.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02030-1979/80







                             DIVINE-MYSTIQUE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I am but a tiny part of Soul
                    and part of others in control
         The part I am.... with my body as tool
                    is learning the lessons of Cosmic-School.

         This Cosmic-School... this Planet Earth
                    in which I enrolled right after birth
                    is a training place... yes pure unique
                         in this Universe... Divine-Mystique.

         I am to learn to get along
                    and still yet feel that I belong
                    as part of Souls from Planes-Divine
                          that guide and direct me into line.

         By thoughts that are my inspiration
                    to find my place in God's Creation
         And become an individual-self-unique
                      in this my Universe... Divine-Mystique.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02031-1979/80







                            BY HAND AND TEAR
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             When I sit and wait...
                        inspiration passes by
                             with words that are but slurr.
             No signs are written in the sky
                                    my mind is but a blurr.

                 But when I sleep and dream....
                              inspiration is the norm.
                 With words that tumble down
                            without a thought or form.

             Yes... then I write....
                       - Poems Crystal Clear -
                                 expressed in sound I hear.

             But when I get my pen and ink
                        I find that I can't think.
                  That's why the scratches written here
                               are carved by hand and tear.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02032-1979/80







                              DEAD FOR SURE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Trivial words
                       of pouring purr
                  Spoken in habit
                            of daily slurr
                         From man to man
                                   and wife to wife
                                Completely fills
                                         their daily life.

             And if you ever interject
                  with subjects of some more respect
             You'll find a silence so abrupt
                          as if you were the most corrupt.

                  And if you ever mention God
                         you'll find a silence really odd.

                  And mentioning 'death'
                                   is a killing cure.
                            For you'll be forever
                                            dead for sure.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02033-1979/80







                         BY THE LIGHT FROM ABOVE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Atoms and Electrons
                       in a dazzling game
                form my body
                         and call my name.

                But where is the "I"...
                           that "I" call "I"
                                to govern this mess...
                                              so soon to die?

           The governing "I"
                  that really is "ME"
                            is the Spark-Divine
                                          that "I" can't see.
                  The Spark-Divine
                       that's part of the Whole.
                                      My Higher Self...
                                              I call my Soul.

           It's a Gift-Sublime
                    to be returned
               when the lessons of Life
                            are fully learned.
                    The lessons of Life
                                 the lessons of Love.
                            The Trial of ME...
                                     by the Light from Above.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02034-1979/80







                        WHEN I LISTEN TO MY SOUL
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Inside myself.... there is this voice
                            that never leaves me any choice
           When I just listen and let it be
                          feelings are good and guilty free.

           Sometimes though.... because I'm Human
                   I slyly lower my acumen
                   And every time the deed is done
                       feelings are down and freedom's gone.

           I become enslaved to bad distraction
                  while my Total is but a fraction
                  of this so perfect balanced Whole
                                   when I listen to my Soul.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02035-1979/80







                            THIS IS MY SONG
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Could I then just by utter chance
             Take some words and make them dance?
                 And form some truth in rhyme and reason
                     In good and evil... in trust and treason.

                      Or arrange a playful melody
                   With rhythm and soothing harmony
               Of syllables in perfect measure
          Neatly produced to be of pleasure.

          And bring about this sense sublime
            From words and words in rhythmic rhyme
               To give to you 'of finer threads'
            A sense of 'heaven's wine and breads'.

          And give to you for beauty's sake
           A ray of light from morning's break.
             For life that's lived for gold alone
                Is hard as rock and cold as stone.

                    So read this verse and yell it loud
                       Into the street... into the crowd
                     For words in rhyme and rhythmic song
                  Can never be too loud... or long.

              And while you do this... beat a gong.
                To make you feel... that you belong.
                   And tell the world... this is my song
                        And tell the world... this is my song.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02036-1979/80







                            A PLEASURE TO ASK
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

       My attitude is the position of my inner mind
                               kept open to openness of any kind.
       It is the graceful adjusting of my mental-sail
                       that eases my Being through lull and gale.

       It's an organic state or readiness to respond
                   from within myself... from the deepest beyond.
       To be held firmly... yet loosely enough
                        to accept life's facts... easy and tough.

       It's composed by experience... knowledge and time
                    and formed by character and thoughts sublime.
       Directed by the heart and the inner voice
                            of Quality-Divine and perfect choice.

       It determines the person... it determines the 'I'
                        to guide my Being till the time I'll die.
       To find the direction for the path-untrod
                        to say it in short... my attitude is God.

       Because to withstand the Forces of Life
           I must conquer the sweet... I must conquer the strife.
       For me... to do this alone is an impossible task
           but when my attitude is God... it's a pleasure to ask.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02037-1979/80







                              OUR DONATION
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

          If I could shape the Dream in you
                     and lead you beyond the heaven's blue
             I would show you... the one and only part
                       the ever seeing Eye of the inner heart.

          That sees by feeling the thoughts of mind
                   that we are creatures of the Master's Kind
          That sees by desire from the beginning of time
                          the Cosmic Master as the only Prime.

          But the way to Truth has never been shown
               and is the most impossible... ever to be known
          For the path to God... is but seen in a gleam
                     in our heart's desire... the Human Dream.

          So by my shaping... the Dream in you
                   you will slowly see... why the sky is blue
          You'll find the Mover... of the ebb and tide
                          by looking for Truth... deep inside.

          The inner heart that forever sees
                     listens to thought... and inner pleas
             and lets us know... that in God's Creation
                         the search for Truth is our Donation.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02038-1979/80







                              TO BE A CHILD
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Take all the Time
                   to be yourself
               For soon enough
                        you're on the shelf.

               Resembling a silent pile of dust...
                            resulting from I must... I must.

           Take all the time to see the Sky
                                 and open-up your Inner Eye.
           For the Knowledge that creates the 'YOU'
                      ceases the question... 'Who' is 'Who'.

               And remember.....
                   Existing... is done by thoughts run wild.

                   While living is.....
                             TO BE A CHILD...
                                       TO BE A CHILD.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02039-1979/80







                            IN WORDS OF SONG
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

      I have 'kinged' them.... I've 'kinged' them... and yet
            The feelings that are left... the naggings that fret
            The sense of satisfaction or completion of the goal
                        Do not complete... or do not make me whole.

          Yes...
                in my days of glory...
                                in my time of might and shine
          I was the King... the Superior...
                              when the world was totally mine.

            But now...
                 my mind is restless...
                                my satisfaction feeble shy
                 For I denied the Creator...
                                      the Ruler of the Sky.

      Because through God... and God alone... sublime
                  I had my Days of Glory... I had my superior time.

           And now... by twisting and by turning
                                      within my blown-up mind
                        I recognize the Master...
                                  the Ruler of my kind.

      To God... in all Its Glory... I bow in silent grief
              For in the power I assumed... I became a lowly thief.

      Forgive me...
              God Almighty...
                      forgive me for my wrong.
              And let my Spirit praise YOU.... in deeds...
                                                 in words and song.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02040-1979/80







                             ONE TOTAL WHOLE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        The Innermost Sanctum of my unfolding mind
                             contains a Temple of a Sacred Kind.

            Hidden within...
                beyond the Shadow of Light...
                    is a Force of Power and Glorious Might.

            A Power of Love...
                  and desires to please...
                             to help my kind...
                                     to a Pedestal of Ease.

        To show them the Joy and Feelings Divine
                       of comfort and bliss.... I cannot define.
            For in this Temple... in my Expanding Domain
                     there is an abundance of a different Plane.

        An unlimited Storehouse of Exuberant Power
                        to make them see... to make them flower.

            Flower in Spirit...
                        flower in Soul...
                             to make them and God...
                                           One Total Whole.

        Yes this is my Secret...
                        yes... this is my Goal.
                             God... my Fellows... and I
                                                ONE TOTAL WHOLE.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02041-1979/80







                              BECAUSE I AM
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

           A thousand times I have tried
                                A thousand times I have died
           A thousand times I have returned
                     And a thousand times I have yet learned.

           And for every time... that I am...
                                   I am I.... as part of Man.

                 Bestowed with Gifts....
                      from Powers Above....
                              to learn to Think....
                                       to learn to Love.

           Conscious of the Law to heed...
                             I'll try again and will succeed.
           Fulfilling the Law in true dedication
                     by the multiple choice of reincarnation.

           A thousand times I shall yet live
                           A thousand times I shall yet give

                     Thought to Creation...
                                      and to Man
                             For God is...
                                      because I am.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02042-1979/80







                          AND MAN CALLS IT LOVE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

      Steeped in materialism and raised on logic and facts
                I have a cold reasoning ego... that never reacts.

         I have no fear and no anger... no worry... no hate.

         I have no feelings... no emotions....
                                   no belief... and no fate.

      I like intolerable music and I am far over-sexed.
                   With a computer as brain I am never perplexed.

          I have a disdain for sickness...
                                and scorn the poor.
                  I am greedy about money...
                                      and crafty as a whore.

      I am cool as marble and never do cry
                             I am the Master of Me...
                                     and never caught with a lie.
           I have no father... no mother...
                              and not a friend I call mine.
               I am a perfect creature...
                                and oblivious to crime.

               I am so self-satisfied....
                                that no desire is left.

         Asking favours from others.... to me would be theft.

      One thing is but missing... of which I know little of
               It's the least I do need... and Man calls it Love.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              02043-1979/80





                           AS A SPIRIT DIVINE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           On my journey through Space
                          there is no about face
                 There is no beginning... there is no end
                        Forever forwards in an infinite trend.

           There is no Distance... nor Time
                                 I could not call mine
                            Because before I was I
                                          My Home was the Sky.

           Yet in Person and Mind
                            I was of a similar kind
                        With no Body... yet Soul
                                      I was part of the Whole.

           Looking back on it all
                       My remembrance is but small
                 But I definitely know
                               I was part Spirit... part Glow.

           Yet now in a Body of Flesh
                              I can look at it fresh
                 And as far as I can see
                                 I am part God... and part me.

           Because my Body... Mind... and Eternal Soul
                  Make-up One Entity... One Perfect Whole
                         Still flying through Space
                                 Like my Kind... like my Race.

           Of a highly specialized kind
                  Is my Identity and my Mind
                              Made up of Spirit and Soul
                         It is but a Part.... yet it is Whole.

           Outside my Body is my Spirit and Mind
                  Influenced by Others... of every Kind
             By Divine Inspiration and Infinite Glow
                   Enlightened in Spirit... forever I'll grow.

           No way to return... no way to retrace
                  For now.... I'm of the Human Race
              Destined to use this Material Plane
                         For Spiritual Growth and Useful Gain.

           In my body... this Space-suit...
                    from the time of my Birth
              I will live... I will die...
                         on this Planet called Earth
              To manifest Life... in God's Creation Sublime
                   And return to myself... as a Spirit Divine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03044-1979/80







                           OF IMMEASURABLE GRACE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                For every blade of grass I see
                                   For every flower...
                                             for every tree

                I look up...
                    into the Sky so Blue
                          And wonder...
                                  who am I...
                                            and who are YOU?

                Oh God...
                    make me...
                       as a Member of your Race
                              by your slightest touch...
                                      of Immeasurable Grace.

                       -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               03045-1979/80






                             FOR YOU TO ENJOY
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The greatest Importance...
                       in Life my Friends
                               are the proper actions...
                                                before it ends.

          Because after the transition to the Beyond from here
                    you have arrived at a lonely pier.

          Your do's and don't's from the life just past
                 will speak for you... and are weighed at last.

          So... never ever... do ever forget
                            that life as it should be...
                                        is sweetness and sweat.

          Just make certain...
                  that while you are here
                            you come loaded with Gold
                                             at the final pier.

          And only with Gold...
                 that you know how to employ
                             can you build a Garden...
                                             for you to enjoy.

                 (Gold is knowing how to use your Mind)

                       -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               03046-1979/80







                      IN LIGHT AND LOVE DO WE EXCEL
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           When I do pass... and seemingly die
                          just gently pause... but do not cry.
           For this my Body... that lies so still
                          was but the shell of my living will.

           I died but live... and I'm still me
                 through death... I'm born... completely free.
           My Soul... my Spirit... is still with you
                   with God and Friends I live... I be and do.

           And when this phase will come for you
                         the rewards deserved are coming true.

                For in this Plane...
                       where Spirits dwell
                               In Light and Love ...
                                            do we excel.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03047-1979/80







                            FOR TIME TO LAST
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                        Was I a poet once before?
                   Did I indeed write score by score?
                    Where was I... what was my name?
                      Was I healthy... was I lame?

                      Was I just I... was I but me?
                  Am I a person... we should call 'we'?

                                Well...?
                 Whatever I was... in lives just past...
                     I am I now... for time to last.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03048-1979/80







                         OF YOUR KINGDOM SUBLIME
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Every Life in this material Plane
                             should be lived to make it a Gain.
          A Gain to grow in Spirit and Soul
                            fulfilling its Purpose...
                                       in approaching the Goal.

          The Goal to become 'one' with the Cosmic Power
                    A Desire to be... like an unfolding Flower.
          Convinced in Knowledge from the Light Above
                            That of the virtues of Man...
                                          the Greatest is Love.

          For every man with his Soul Divine
                            will live forever by Cosmic Design.
          And in this World... in this material Plane
                                  The purpose of Living...
                                             is Spiritual Gain.

          Through infinite Love and immeasurable Grace
                               the Universe created every Race.
          And gave us the Chance to become 'one' with IT
                         by dedicating our Lives... bit by bit.

          Oh... Infinite Wisdom... Infinite Glow
                        Teach us your Love... and make it grow.
          Teach us your Knowledge with patience of Time
                      And make us your Servants...
                                       of your Kingdom-Sublime.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03049-1979/80







                          AND SHARING OF BLISS
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Now that my Life flows with a faster pace
                 And there still is not a day I want to retrace
         And not a moment I want to repeat or retain
                          Being afraid to lose momentum or gain
         And older in years... and trying so many a probe
                 I now understand... the purpose on this globe.

         It is so simple... and yet my efforts so small
               Although I give it my Life... my best... my all.
         So to you then my Friends... about to perceive
                       I dedicate this Poem to make you believe
         That my trials... tribulations and adversity
                     Formed the stepping stones to my sincerity

         Yet all my efforts are so tiny... so very little
             So fragile... so easily dented... so very brittle.
         While the Purpose my Friends... of Life as it is
                is Giving... is Loving... and Sharing of Bliss.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03050-1979/80







                                  FAITH
                                  ~~~~~

            Eternity is not any greater...
                    than the thought that can think of it.
            And yet this thought...
                   is infinite in and by itself
                            And Eternal in Time and Space.

                     For it travels out to the Stars
                                and back
                         in the wink of an eye.

                       To return to its producer.

          Since eternal times
               each thought is infinite
                             in Time and Space.
               While the Infinity of Time and Space
                                   is but a thought.
                          A thought of the Master Thinker.

          The Master Thinker...
                 has within itself
                           the Universe of Thought.
                                             For IT is IT.

               IT...created... ALL THAT IS.
                       Including thinkers like you and I.

               How great IT is...
                   we cannot think of.
                            For we only have...
                                    mortal comprehension.
               Thouhgts like these....
                                produce and are... FAITH.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03051-1979/80







                              WHO  is  WHO
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

                 People seem to think
                             that the world is theirs.
                       They act as if they own it.

                 But in reality....
                         they are but occupants.
                                          Temporarily.

                 We are on this world in companionship
                            with the animals
                                        the forests and flowers.

                 And although people act
                        as if they own the world
                                   they still pay rent.

                 The rent they pay
                        is evident in two ways...
                             in either Sorrow and Misery
                                         or
                              in Recognition and Prayer.

                 Most do not know....
                                that they have a choice.

                 The ones who pay in Sorrow and Misery
                         are the ones who think
                        that they own the world.

                     The ones who pay in Recognition
                               and prayer
                    are the ones who do not want it.

                 They know that the world...
                         belongs to the Cosmic Universe.

                       They know.... WHO  is  WHO.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03052-1979/80







                         THINK!  LOVE!  INTUIT!
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Talking sometimes confuses
                        but intuition never does.
                                             It explains.

                Reading is listening
                            without hearing.
                      While looking is not seeing.

                            Seeing is not even believing.

                Believing is...
                            what we think to be true.
                It's only our reality.
                          And only one of many realities.

                               All we see
                            and all we touch
                        is only relatively real.

                             Or an illusion.

                And so are we.
                         We are made that way on purpose.

                We are atoms that speak and think
                                  by means of Spirit.
                                      Part of Cosmic One.

                Knowing is....
                    to be conscious of Consciousness.

                    All of us... know very little.
                                      Not even ourselves.

                To learn to be...
                       conscious of Consciousness
                                    start by being aware.

                         THINK!  LOVE!  INTUIT!

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03053-1979/80







                        WHY YOU... ARE YOU AGAIN
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Your memory of Life and Living
                          is what you remember after leaving.
                And while you rest upon the Sky
                                        you become aware.

            You'll become aware...
                    what it was you did...
                                and didn't do.
                        And then you will understand...
                                            why you were you.

            You will see then...
                        that all of it was good.
                                 Good for Learning.
                                            And good for you.

            And after an eternal rest...
                         upon the Memory of God
                                           You'll live again.

            To try all over again.
                   With a fresh outlook.
                               You will do this...
                                         over and over again.

                Until you know...
                         and understand...
                                      why You...
                                           are You again.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03054-1979/80






                             BUT NEVER DIES
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Truth...
                 people never like to hear.
                       They would rather hear what they like.

          And to live...
                 in continual self-deception...
                                      is what they like best.

          They are gullible.
                For one big lie repeated repeatedly
                                            gives them faith.

                    And finally...
                         they think it to be true.

          Being entertained...
                    is their main purpose.
                                 They have become the clowns.

          Materialism is their God.
                   Commercials their bodily needs.
                                And angel-cake their helpers.

          They read filth.
                   And revel.
                        Thinking is their enemy...
                                     and Destiny their curse.

          Their Soul is dying...
                while their bodies pray for dirt.
                                   Not even their God...
                                               can save them.

           The Light that is...
                        within them all...
                                    is suffering.
                                              But never dies.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03055-1979/80







                               BY LIVING
                               ~~~~~~~~~

            Man will never know...
                            "The Ultimate Truth"
                     unless he becomes "The Ultimate Being".

            To become The Ultimate Being
                        Man has to become the "All Knowing".

                  "All Knowing" is Total Consciousness.

            Total Consciousness is attained
                                          by Self-Knowledge.

            Total Self-Knowledge is learned in stages.
                   The stages of Life and Death...
                                        repeated many times.

            Man will never know...
                         "The Ultimate Truth"
                    and become "The Ultimate Being"
                                           as a Human Being.

                    He has to become more.
                                    He has to become Divine.

            Man as a Human Being...
                       can only have 'opinions'.

                 True 'opinions' are obtained
                                  by thinking and intuition.

            All People... at all times...
                           are in the process
                                   of learning this
                                         more and more.
                                                  BY LIVING.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03056-1979/80







                             AND MANY OTHERS
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Your 'destiny' is your CREATION.

         You create it by - Your Actions and Thoughts.
                          - Your Emotions and Behaviour.
                          - Your Character and Attitude.
                          - Your Self-Control and Self-Knowledge.

             Your 'destiny' is the Total Sum of your deeds.

             You - as of now - are the result of
                                   what you ever have been.

                      In this life or other lives.

         Even your physical shape... form... constitution
                                                       or
                                                    heredity
                                                       is
                                                dependent on you.

              You cannot escape ever.
                         The 'fate' you meet...
                                     is created by YOU.

         You can however 'change' or determine...
                                    your 'destiny' in the future.

                  By planning now...  for future lives.

           By adjusting - Your Actions and Thoughts.
                        - Your Emotions and Behaviour.
                        - Your Character and Attitude.
                        - Your Self-Control and Self-Knowledge.

                  Life is...
                        a pay and learn program.
                              And nothing is impossible.

                    BUDDHA DID IT.
                             JESUS DID IT.
                                     AND MANY OTHERS.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03057-1979/80







                           THE LIGHT OF BIRTH
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Neither my Hands...
                  nor my Mind...
                       can grasp the Immensity of the Universe.

          And yet my Thoughts there wander.
                         Into infinite Infinity
                                   and return before I know it.

          Telling me...
               that although I cannot grasp
                            this tremendous Space
                                  it is all within me
                                                  as much
                                             as I am within it.

          And all I see outside of me...
                                  and around me
                seems to be unfolding from the inside out
                bursting forth
                      from the Crevasses of my Mind
                                           that is Timeless
                                       and all Space embracing.

          For I am part of 'All That Is'
                                     and am
                                  'All That Is'
                                         and ever will be.

                  For all I see... and am...
                                      is Consciousness.
                                Hidden in but Earth
                                                I call my Body.

                  That's why my Freedom
                              is my Confinement.
                       For I am trapped by being conscious
                                                  of being Man.

          While the Mystery of Space
                             and 'All That Is'
                                     is no greater
                                          than the puzzle I am.

              Hunkering to know my God
                           like an unborn Babe
                                       longs for
                                       the Light of Birth.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03058-1979/80







                          BECAUSE OF YOU AND ME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          There are no words to describe
                  the Light that is invisible
                            but reflects from your Face
                                    and shows me
                                  Your Inner Smile.
                                         Powered by Sunlight
                                      yet softer than the Moon.

          That's why I thus write
                       of the Beauty I see
                             of the Innermost Image
                                             of your Soul
                                             that speaks to me.

                  With Words...
                      that are inaudibly expressed
                             and are shown in Feelings.

          Feelings of Life in Mirrors
                      of Understanding and Love
                                    by Colours of Light
                                    that reflect...
                                              You to ME...
                                                    so clearly.

          I do not know...
                     I think... I love you.
                              Love you for what you are
                                                   and are not.

          I see in you...
                 the reflection of me.

                 In colours transparent
                               that shine forth from you
                                       and say...
                             that you and I are really One
                                            but only different.

          Really One...
                  but only different
                       in this our Earth-Time
                                 that really is not
                                              and yet is...
                                         Because of You and Me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03059-1979/80







                               NUCLEAR PIT
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

             The High Priests of Science
                              and the Authorities that know
             Close their Mind in Confusion
                                     at the sight of an UFO.



             Living Creatures... roaming the Sky
                         in Multi-Form and Glowing Eye

             Intelligent Beings on a Higher Plane
                              How absolutely absurd
                                     How insultingly insane.

                   There is no Life... in Sky or Space
             For we.... here on Earth are the smartest Race.

                How dare you to call our attention to it

                    For we only have time
                                   for a Nuclear Pit.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03060-1979/80







                         THE SUPREME IN IGNORANCE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I... yes I...
                            I am the most beautiful Flower
                And when I need Sunshine... I demand
                     And when I need Rain... I have it
                And when I need Shelter... I stop the Wind.

                And when I bloom...
                         the World is in awe.
                                For I am...
                                the most beautiful Flower.

           And at Night... when I dream
                             I dream about the growth around me.
           And then... I wallow in Superiority...
                                             and scorn the dirt.

           And forever shall be damned... this grass.
                  This eternal growth around me...
                                that dares to entangle my roots.

           And when the Sun arises in the morning...
                                       I am the one that shines.

                For my Colours are...
                               the Light in Brilliance.
                And when I say so...
                        the Sun hides its Face...
                                        behind my Rain.

           For I... I am the most beautiful Flower...
                                   and the Supreme in Ignorance.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03061-1979/80







                             NOT JUST BY TWO
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Where are the Moments that we shared?
                       Where are the Minutes that we cared?
            Where is the Touch of your Hand to mine?
                    Where did we leave our Feelings Divine?

            Contented though...
                     with the Sharing of Thought
                          Is what those Moments...
                                        for us did wrought.

            Never ever though...
                          my Love... my Serene
                          will we forget these times
                                                   so keen.

            Forwards... ever
               with no return
                  with Glances back
                     that made us learn
                        that Love and Kindness
                            and Patience too
                               can be shared by all...
                                           not just by two.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03062-1979/80







                              UNTIL BEYOND
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Since Words are but a useless token
                               we meet and none is spoken.

               Our Glances...
                     connecting Eye to Eye...
                             carry the Silence of the Sky.

               Our Thoughts do meet
                                and we sustain
                        the Wisdom and the Inner Pain
                                  of Meetings
                              in the Inner Shade
                     with Thoughts in Time we can't evade.

               No Light will ever...
                        show the Pain
                               born out of Love
                                          so quite insane.

               And why can't this silent...
                               and secret Bond
                                      not be consumed
                                             until Beyond?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              03063-1979/80




                             TAKE YOUR TIME
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            If in this Life with daily pressure
                             I just could lift you
                             and give you pleasure
                             that would be Happiness...
                                             it surely would.

                    I'm wishing and wishing...
                                         that I really could.

            For lifting you.... a mile up high
                  into the lightness of brilliant Sky
                                 is my Wish and my Endeavour.

                                 And I will try and try...
                                               until forever.

            And while I sit... and write... and think...
                              I do not want you tickled pink.

            No... just to lift you...
                                  a mile up high
                         into the lightness of brilliant Sky.

            So... when you read this....
                           and understand
                  imagine sitting upon God's Hand
                  while by this little verse and rhyme
                                     I got you smiling
                                           so take your time.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04064-1979/80







                             AND WILL YET BE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             When she looks up and looks at me
                         there is nowhere else I want to be.
             For in her eyes I see the Glance
                           that takes my Spirit for a Dance.

             And then there is her joyful smile
                   that lights her face... just for a while
             Enough to show a gentle ease
                    of feelings softer than a summer-breeze.

             Then...
                when I write and think of this
                my Soul is just bursting full of Bliss
                         For not in Heaven will I find
                              a greater Love... of any kind.

             So stay on close... my greatest Love
                              to lift me to the skies above.

             Where I can dream of You and Me
                                   of all that is...
                                            and will yet be.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04065-1979/80







                           FOR SOULS TO UNFOLD
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

      It's a beautiful day... and I'm free as a bird
             I can write what I want... and what's never been heard.
      And while I just sit here... with open mind
                        The words just flow in... friendly and kind.

      I really don't know... why this should be so
                    But maybe some thinking... will help me to know.
      I'll give you my opinion... and also my guess
                     Maybe we'll come... to the bottom of this mess.

      Before I was... there were millions before
                         Who somehow... someway... stand at my door.
      And all I have to do... is let my pen guide my hand
                          Creating words and words... we understand.

      It's the Communion of Spirits... who lived before me
                            Guiding my pen... in the Writings to be.
      And I believe that these words... on these simple scrolls
                     Are received by me... but are created by Souls.

      And all I just do... in a way that is but small
                             is let the ink flow... and have a ball.
      For somehow... everyone secretly believes
                           That it is I... who creates these briefs.

      But the Spirit's of Eons... whisper to me
                     Their Wisdom of Ages... in words that are free.

      For me and my readers... both young and old
                      To be read and enjoyed... for Souls to unfold.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04066-1979/80







                           I AM THE DREAMER OF
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Oh yes I...
                 this Organ of the Universe
                         tied by a million strings
                                    live but in a dream
                                             and am dreaming.

            But Soul...
                 let me awaken...
                          and find my Goal.

                 Yes Soul...
                      let me seek Aloneness.
                                And let me take off
                                       on this Mystic Flight.

            Undisturbed...
                  by the Distractions of the Earth.
                             Where the Vulgar but speak
                                               to the Vulgar.

            Yes Soul...
                 let me take off
                        into the Flight of the Alone
                                                to the Alone.

            To find the Mystic Reality of Creation.
                          In which I am 'One' with All.
                                        And 'All' in Oneness.

            Yes Soul...
                 let me flee in Solitude.
                              To find the Dream...
                                         I am the Dreamer of.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04067-1979/80







                                IN LIVING
                                ~~~~~~~~~

              Death...
                 this dreadful disease
                     so feared by many
                               and met by all
                                        is but a sleep
                                     in slumbering Beauty.

              A Beauty...                 created by each man
                           in his own way.

                    A living... wherein each man
                        is yet in touch with equals
                              likewise in need and wishes.

              And connected by Beings
                       in shared fantasies
                                     and capricious moods.

                 To last Eternal.
                      As in a dream without awakening.

              Until...
                  until... again...
                        we are bambino.
                                And full of Life...
                                               and Lustre.

              Wondering....
                  from where we came
                                to find such Beauty...
                                                in Living.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04068-1979/80







                               IT'S SIMPLE
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

            Whether you believe it or not
               or whether you can see it or not
                           The Truth is still the same.
                                 And unalterable.
                                           The Truth is Love.

           And when I say...
              that each time I see you...
                      - I love you a little more -
                                           I speak the Truth.

           For whatever you are...
                               or are not
                    - Your Total Being is my Being -
                                   and that's why I love you.

           For in the Universe...
                 there is but One Reality.
                        And that Reality is Love.

                        A Universe full of it...
                                      With you as part of it.

             Part of my Love.
                       Part of my Truth.
                                   Part of 'All That Is'.

                     And part of me.    It's simple.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04069-1979/80







                        AND NEVER DIMS COMPLETELY
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            The preacher... yes... that is the one
                                  the repeater of fairy tales.
            About the crosses and the lost Kingdoms
                           about the sins and the redemptions.

            To the Children...
                that are but deaf and blind
                          and are lost between the words
                                            that are repeated.

                     For the Speakers... before him
                          whose story he tells
                     were but repeaters themselves.

            And his thoughts...
               are but the echo of the Earth
                           crying for newness and originality.

            And all the fear that he instilled
                 and all the grace he gave abundantly
                        never brought his Children any closer.

            For the Truth... that was there all along...
               inside each and every one of them
                      has been obscured and drowned out
                               by the words that are repeated.

            But the Truth...
               that flickering Light of Wisdom
                          can yet be found... by them
                                        that are but thinking.

            For nothing can be hidden too deeply
                            or it can be rediscovered... anew.

                  For none of us can be lost
                            by too many words forever.

            Since the Light is always there....
                                    and never dims completely.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04070-1979/80







                           AND FIND GOD IN YOU
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Before Christ... before Buddha...
                               and before any creed
                        was the Love for Life
                                       and called God indeed.

            And how this can be...
                         since the Beginning of Time
                  will never be solved... by reason or rhyme.

            And to all our questions...
                  of how... for what... or why
                                the answers are hidden
                                        beyond Earth and Sky.

            And neither is it religion
                               of whatever belief
                         that will give you the answers
                                              or mind-relief.

            For before all religions
                       and before Man and Mind
                                 was the Love for Life
                                            perfect and kind.

            And this Love for Life
                         called God indeed
                                   created 'All That Is'
                                             and Man in need.

            But 'all' you ever...
                        just have to do
                              is to look deep inside
                                         and find God in YOU.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04071-1979/80







                            FOR JUST ONE PAIR
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            How can I touch... your Soul so closed
                          and speak to eyes that seem opposed.
            How can I touch... your Soul so hidden
                  with words and words... that seem forbidden.

            How can I touch... your fenced-in mind
                      enclosed in silence... and burden blind.
            How can I touch... your Light inside
                          when sparkle by sparkle slowly died.

            How can I touch... the fire grown cold
                                        with feelings...
                                  and emotions I still behold.

            How can I touch... the You in You
                                  knowing my silence ...
                                                will never do.

            I therefore speak in words that show
                  and bring to mind the Life and Glow
                  that once was there in Love Abound
                             enlightening our sphere so sound.

            So let us reach... from mind to mind
                       in words and words deep and kind
                          creating Spirits in Girandole
                                  and Unity from Soul to Soul.

            And then the time... that's left to share
                      will be too short.... for just one pair.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04072-1979/80







                              SHOW ME NOW
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~

          Oh yes I...
                looking so wise
                        and full of Wisdom.
                                    I am but a Soul in Travel.

                And on my Earthly Journeys
                               I stop too many times.

                For at Moments of Reflection
                       I seemed to have lost the Way.

          While at other times
                       when it all seems so simple
                         and I even know the Way
                                              I do not travel.

          Why is it my Soul
                that too many me's do interfere?
                              While time goes on
                                          in loneliness.
                                                     Unbroken.

          Show me the Way again my Soul
                so that I may travel continuously.
                     Toward the Goal Eternal
                                     with Speed and Happiness.

          Show me my Soul.
                Show me the Way without stops...
                                     and straight to Eternity.

                Show me the Path
                          to never lose my Way.
                                            Show me now.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04073-1979/80







                            IN SPACE AND TIME
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            On this Journey around our Star
                          We are slowly grasping what we are.
            Thinking Creatures... with purpose and will
                       Grown from Earth... and growing still.

            But we are not grown from Dirt to fight
                   And create a Hell... where Might is right.
            Rather the experiment of Our Creation
                   Is slowly to become... of Divine-Relation.

            For the ever expanding... in Body and Mind
                    Is the Task as Planned... for Human Kind.

            And to gain control of the Unconscious Part
                     And the Innermost Feelings of the Heart
            Is our Final Goal and Sacred Duty
                 For the Gods we are... are Divine in Beauty.

            And to reach this Goal...
                           in this Universe-Sublime
                              Is by living Lives...
                                           in Space and Time.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04074-1979/80







                          AND CREATED BUT BY ME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                If I could be... as Light so Free
                             I'd soar on Rays in passing.
                On pure expanding Mind I'd flee
                              My Knowledge pure amassing.

                In being Light eternal free
                             beyond the Stars' expansion
                My Consciousness and I would be
                              beyond Mankind's Dimension.

                Where Words of Hemospheric Sound
                               are Treasures of the Mind
                Expressing Feelings pleasure bound
                                     of Firmamentic Kind.

                But since I am so finite small
                           and neither Light... nor Free

                My Words are barely Thoughts at all
                                   and created but by me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04075-1979/80







                             THE COSMIC WAY
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Underlying our Conscious Mind
                             is the One of superior kind.

                The One that guides our total Whole
                             and is aware of Cosmic-Goal.

            No evil is found upon its Plane
                    to damage it by thoughts insane.
                 For it is made Pure-Complete
                            and journeys Time without repeat.

            And every time we come around
               our Knowledge becomes of firmer grounds
               as we gain control of the Unconscious Part
                          to shape the Feelings of the Heart.

            And living Lives...
                    are the chances to create...
                          a Conscious Mind of perfect weight.

            To lead us as Man...
                       from day to day...
                                  in this Sojourn...
                                              the Cosmic Way.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04076-1979/80







                            THE PERFECT FOOL
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Molecular Biologists in their probing scope
                    have finally found... their killing dope.
          For after years of searching...
                               in their greed and slime
                         They are about to commit...
                                             the Final Crime.

          Their triumphant hall of recombinant DNA
                           will re-shape Man the Chimera-Way.
          And by their studies of the microscopic gene
                   the future of Mankind can clearly be seen.

          A perfect humanoid or clonical man
                          is what they grow in bottle or can.
          And all the qualities and sophistication
                    will finally eliminate... God's Creation.

          For the future of Man...
                    determined by them who know
              will do without emotions... without inner glow.
          No more Feelings... and no more Soul
                        is their final aim... and final goal.

                    The production of perfect Robots
                         with equality in brain
                 is Mankind's future... for money gain.

          For genetic engineering has found the tool
                                        to make poor Man
                                            the Perfect Fool.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04077-1979/80







                             IN BLOW OR GLOW
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               In some Periods of Life
                            when Darkness is Master
                       Time is slow... rather than faster.

               And in all that one then does...
                                  or doesn't do...
                      Gloom is governing... without taboo.

               But you have to remember
                          that your State of Mind
                   is created by you... in Darkness Blind.

               So change your Life
                        by the Thoughts you create.
                    And by thinking of Life...
                                    in a different weight.

               For Life... my Friend
                       in case you didn't know
                                is created by Mind...
                                          in Blow or Glow.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04078-1979/80







                            IS LOVE AND FREE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            There is an Inner Light to be discovered
                               By you of Vision deeper still
            And Inner Light of pure duration
                               To be found by the Inner Will.

            For in ages past in memory silent
                            It was instilled to last in Time
            To calm the Beast to tamer being
                          And make it slowly climb and climb.

            The Inner Light is but a Sparkle
                          Cast and thrown from Cosmic Source
            To lead in ages still forthcoming
                    The Beast with Mind on straighter course.

            And in memory silent to you and me
                            The Inner Light is LOVE and FREE.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04079-1979/80







                             THROUGH LIVING
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                It is not
                    that I am better than you.
                        It is just...
                               that I have been you
                                   so many... many times.

                And the experience of being you
                       I faintly remember... in being me.

                For all the Wisdom I am now
                              whispers through me...
                                       because I was you.

                It whispers within my memory
                             of the 'yous' I left behind
                        and struggled with
                                to become the me... I am.

                For Life
                     is a Creation
                              through 'yous'.
                         By the Smile of Endurance
                                           of Existences.

                In becoming...
                       The Light of Consciousness
                                          through Living.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04080-1979/80







                              IN YOU AND ME
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                There is a definite closeness
                         between the Flower and the Tree
                    A Sphere of Understanding
                                that Eyes will never see.

                It's made of Mental Substance
                    of Thought... right underneath
                         the Level of the Physical
                             and weaves the Love beneath.

                It's a binding Love for Living
                           that was there from the start.

                For Flowers... Trees... and All of Us
                                are impossible to impart.

                And within this definite closeness
                         between the Flower and the Tree.

                Is the Treasure of Understanding
                              that's found in YOU and ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04081-1979/80







                       WHERE BODIES JUST DON'T GO
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            For you...
                a willing ear to listen
                         a silent Soul to sense
                         the Beauty and the Wisdom
                                   of the Inner Vision Lens.

            A Scene no words can transfer
                                  a scene no mind can grasp.

            Yet pictures... in the sacred Soul
                                     the Image you un-clasp.

            So share with me the Richness
                      of the Inner Being Glow
                      to enhance the Life that's hidden
                          where the Conscious Mind won't go.

            For all of us are Beings
                         of eon's age and sense
                         that came but here to visit
                                 at Creation's sole expense.

            To find the Path that's trodden
                    with Steps that do not show
                    to find the Light that's hidden
                                 where Bodies just don't go.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04082-1979/80







                            WHAT DID HE MOAN?
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                    Before Man discovers
                                    a Brilliant Star
                       The Light...
                             is already dimming.

                    And when they hear
                                 his Sound and Sense
                       They listen but
                               in pure pretense.

                   And when the Star
                               and Sound have passed
                       They echo but
                              his Words at last.

                   And query...
                      faces full of doubt...
                          what was his death...
                                      then all about?

                   Did he then live...
                               for Words alone?
                          What did he say...
                                    what did he moan?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04083-1979/80






                      I'M THE ONE THAT YOU CALL ???
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            I am the mover on your Earth
                       the first to meet each Life at birth.
            I am the one that can't stand still
                         yet have no shape and have no will.

            I am in openings square and round
                      and when I'm squeezed appear in sound.
            I am in areas light and dark
                            yet never leave a stain or mark.

            I am used by Man and Beast
                            and neither ever care the least.
            I rise to levels mountains high
                            yet never dim the brilliant sky.

            I am never less and never more
                       and in constant use by clown or bore.
            I am the one that's used and abused
                      the last to leave by him who's noosed.

            I flood the world by day and night
                       and in sole support of objects light.
            I am light and yet have force
                           and change a river in its course.

            I am the Medium that does not care
                    for I'm the One... that You call... AIR.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04084-1979/80







                         OF INEFFABLE LOVELINESS
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                  There are many...
                               I adore
                        But You...
                               You are not one of them.

                  For adoration...
                        is but infatuation...
                                       carried too far.

                      But You...
                            You are the one...
                                  I love and love.

                  For your worthiness...
                         is an expression of reverence.

                  While your needs and wishes
                         and my wishes and needs
                                 complement each other.

                     Into a fulfillment of Joy
                                 and Understanding.

                  That propels us...
                           beyond the limits
                                     of being separate.

                  Into a Mystic-Oneness
                               of Ineffable Loveliness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04085-1979/80







                               YOU ARE ME
                               ~~~~~~~~~~

                    When I am with you...
                                  my Space is filled.

                    And while Time disappears
                                    into the Eternal
                           my World collapses
                           into the emptiness
                                      of nothingness.

                         But You...
                             You are there.
                                         Still.

                    United beyond Time and Space
                              with the Thoughts I am.

                      Into a Consciousness
                                 of fulfillment
                             and bliss...
                                 beyond expression.

                   And then I know...
                      that Love propelled us
                                    beyond existence.
                   Beyond Thought and Thinking
                             into the Dimensions
                                     of
                             Super-Consciousness
                                          and Unison.

                   For I am YOU
                            and
                            YOU are ME.

                                 For I am YOU
                                          and
                                          YOU are ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04086-1979/80







                       GOD IS THIS CONSCIOUSNESS
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I have no doubt...
                        that I will live
                                   after Death.
                                         And so will You.

                Yet our lives now...
                              are so different...
                      for none of us is on the same Path.

                     Yet...
                         we will all end up
                                 in the same spot.

                This spot is Timeless and Spaceless.
                         For it is Consciousness
                                         or Mind.
                                         The Mind of God.

                Since we are living different now
                               we will be different then.

                      For the Mind of God
                             has different Mansions.

                But all Occupants...
                         live in the House of the Father.

                We all live... in the same Consciousness.

                       God is this Consciousness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              04087-1979/80




                           UNTIL TIME UNENDING
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Alone...
                    I am nothing.

                    But united...
                        united with the Universe...
                                      I have Total Power.

                For when I embrace...
                             the Universe
                             in Total Surrender
                                          we synchronize.

                    And Spin...
                         in all Directions.

                                    Being All That Is.

                    Being All That Is.
                                  Until Time unending.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05088-1980







                             THAT IS DIVINE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                    There is...
                         and Understanding
                                      beyond Words.

                An Understanding...
                      that touches...
                           Feeling to Feeling...
                                      and Soul to Soul.

                    Then the Senses of the Physical
                              are too thin
                               to express
                      the Nature of its Closeness.

                And Separation falls...
                        connecting Being to Being
                                             in unison.

                           Beyond this Earth.

                In the Regions of Life
                             of simple Love
                                         that makes us.

                This Understanding...
                      can only be expressed by Thought.

                      By Thought...
                             of a Nature...
                                     that is Divine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05089-1980







                               BY FAILING
                               ~~~~~~~~~~

                 The Nature of our being
                            is not of being You...
                                                 ONLY.

                    But to be...
                            in all ways
                                      Man in Total.

                 For only then...
                          can we understand
                                and conquer
                                           the man
                                        we really are.

                 The man we really are...
                             Earth as Tool for Spirit.

                 Enabling us...
                          to complete...
                                   our Sacred Mission.

                       The Fulfillment of Promise
                           that's written deep
                            within our Soul.

                 In Lines that do not weather
                               by time and trial
                                 and do not fade
                                           by failing.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05090-1980







                         THE SACRED SILENT SOUL
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Secrets...
                that are not Secrets
                      to the Eyes that have seen
                are Secrets to them
                          that are still looking.

                And no advice or revealing Signs
                            will bring them any closer.
                        For they are looking
                                 on an Earth
                            that is not really there.
                                  And therefore non-revealing.

          One of the Secrets
                to help find the others
                      is limiting the Perception of Earth.
                And to sense
                      the Forces of Self.

                   That are bursting to be discovered
                      in Silent Sacred Revelation.
                        To find the Silent Self.

          The Silent Self...
                waiting to be born...
                            from the Earth... that is not You.

                      For You are...
                             the Sacred Silent Soul.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05091-1980







                     THE LOVERS OF THE PRIMAL SCENE
                     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              Oh yes... we do.
                          We talk and tremble...
                                    we glance and smile.
                      And speak of things...
                                we know are not important.

              We touch... and know
                          that we cannot leave
                                          without.
              We touch again...
                       and do not speak.
              But kiss...
                       and kiss again... all over.

              And then...
                       the Earth is pounding.
                                And the Mountains tremble.

              And then the Sea...
                       empties into the crevasses...
                                               of delight.

                     Quivering... and drowns itself.

              Time then is lost
                            between the sounds of us.
                       In a living
                       in which the pain of pleasure
                                is equal
                                to the Beauty of Death
                                                 in agony.

                      And awkwardly... we separate.

               Knowing...
                    that the Curses of Heaven
                     and the Laughs from Hell
                              have encouraged us to be
                                  - what we are -
                           the Lovers of the Primal Scene.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05092-1980







                             FOR ALL MANKIND
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I do not care...
                           for painting Colour
                           And neither would I even draw.

                I do not care...
                             for pounding marble
                             with iron fist or iron claw.

                I do not care...
                         for moulding claymen.
                         And neither would I weld a flaw.

                I do not care...
                            for the ease of eye.
                            For seldom do I stand in awe.

                But from the Thoughts...
                            that leave my Mind
                            I sculpture the image
                                         for all Mankind.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05093-1980







                            THE COSMIC SPARK
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I have been silent...
                             far too long
                             and did not speak for fear.

                The hidden Feelings...
                                 right or wrong
                        exposed me... too close or near.

                   I kept inside...
                            the one that's me
                            the one that I but knew.

                Fenced in by Thought...
                                 afraid to free
                                 I was but outside view.

                But now...
                     I blare out loud and bold
                            the one that's me... Behold.

                For in this Mind...
                     this Seat of Thought
                     awakened Force that's undistraught.

                Like vision... from an Eagle High
                    Like Lightning... from a Virgin Sky.

                Born to gate...
                    through Language Free...
                               in Poetic Form...
                                      the one that's me.

                Revealing Self to Minds Abound
                      in touching Soul to Soul profound.

                For through struggle...
                           through Dungeons Dark
                      I've seen the Light...
                                       THE COSMIC SPARK.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05094-1980







                            AND MEET THEM ALL
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I do not belong...
                      in a world that's flashy
                I do not belong...
                      in a world that pops.

                I do not belong...
                          in a world so mundane
                          that it continually suffers
                                      from pleasure pain.

                But since I am here...
                           to stay for awhile
                   I try to adopt...
                             a personal style.

                   With an Understanding...
                               of my Man of Kind
                         With acts and deeds...
                                       and generous Mind.

                For every Soul...
                   in its travels through Life
                         Just has to experience
                                its struggles and strife.

               So I dress up...
                         in their worldly robe
                   But mentally...
                              I'm far off their globe.

                   While I keep in mind...
                             my purpose but small
                   Which is trying to serve...
                                    and meet them all.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05095-1980







                             AND YET IS ME
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           There...
                where all Consciousness communicates
                               in the Universe of Silence
                                           that is not silent.

           There...
                where the Future speaks to the Past
                                 and the Present listens
                                       that's where I am
                                                 in Reverence.

           In Reverence...
                for the Deepness of the Silence
                                   that is not silent.
                But speaks...
                    of the Greatness in which I dwell
                                   and of the Smallness of me.

                Revealing...
                   from the Immensity of All That Is
                                        that I am
                                  the Part that speaks
                                                  and listens.

           And that I am the Consciousness
                that both receives and gives
                                         Reality
                                     to the one I am.

                Merged into the Being of All That Is
                                                and yet is Me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05096-1980







                         AND DO NOT KNOW A GRAVE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                 I have walked...
                          from Graves and Death
                               and never lost an instant.

                 For I am Life
                          and never die...
                                   and be...
                                   for ever Life forever.

             I have been...
                 the selves I was.
                           To die a Thousand Death.
                                     yet do not miss in Time.

                      For I am 'Life'
                            and never die...
                                      and be...
                                for ever 'Life' forever.

             For I am...
                 the Composite
                           of selves I was.

                      To live...
                            for Time to last...
                                       - My Life -
                                and never die an Instant.

                                     And do not know a Grave.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05097-1980







                      IN THE CONFINEMENT OF MY RACE
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             When I first saw the light...
                       I felt afraid... for it was blinding.
             I felt alone and lost
                       for no space was enfolding me.

             And although... I was a miracle
                                      nobody seemed to care.
             And the Coldness of the World
                         encased me in Sadness.
                                    And I became a prisoner.

             Enclosed through birth
                         within this body
                                  of Earth and Flesh.
                                           And I... but cry.

             Why did my Soul... so truly free
                                become imprisoned in but me?

             Why did my Soul... become my Mind
                           and leave my Greater Self behind?

             Why did my Soul...
                           become Time and Space
                                   in the Confinement
                                                 of my Race?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05098-1980







                          SUFFERING SILENT SOUL
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            How can I speak to Man and Mind
                           made of but Golden Flesh...
                                             and Spirit Blind?

            How can I speak to Man and Mind
                                entangled in his Earthly Bind?

            How can I speak to Man and Mind
                                 in warnings stern...
                                              yet gently kind?

            How can I speak to Man and Mind
                                if Minds in Man I cannot find?

            How can I utter words in alarm
                           to save the Minds of Man from harm?

            How can I utter words to heed
                          if Minds in Man... but die of greed?

            I can but speak words of console...
                           to Mankind's Suffering Silent Soul.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05099-1980







                              FLEE AND FLEE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Words... yes Words...
                      are but the Shadows...
                                  of the Thoughts
                                          that make up me.

                   And all my Thoughts...
                            in purest fashion
                               determine that
                                        what I will be.

                   While it is the Essence
                                of my Awareness
                            that forms my Being
                                      and sets me free.

                Free in Flights
                         to Minds of Beings
                                   that far surpassed
                                            the Little Me.

                Oh... please...
                    let the Shadow of my Being
                                 in Cosmic Wisdom...
                                            flee and flee.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05100-1980







                                 AND CRY
                                 ~~~~~~~

                In the Book of Life...
                                 are many Pages.
                        And for each Life
                                      one Page is turned.

                But some Lives...
                        turn many Pages.
                               And other Lives...
                                       don't turn at all.

                And in this Life...
                         my Life...
                         I am about to turn another Page.

                The Page I just lived and experienced
                                           was beautiful.

                It gave me pleasure... and great rewards.

                However beautiful...
                          this Page ever was...
                                          I have read it.

                   It was splendid.    But finished.

                For it is worn out by the many readings
                  and from touching the scenes that past.

                I am turning now...
                            to a new Page....
                                          and I am alone.

                                And cry.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05101-1980







                       AND YET... WE ARE OURSELVES
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

     In the evening... at the shore of Lake Heaven...
                    when the sun just hovers above the trees
         and each leaf becomes the colour of gold...
                                I move a little closer to my Beloved.

         And while the wind creates...
                   a thousand little suns in the trees
                                   I slowly fold her hand in mine.
         She smiles them...
             and on her face I see the contentment of the evening.

     Her eyes are reflecting the peace of her soul.
                       We sit and watch...
                               we do not think or contemplate...
                                                         we just are.
     The birds are somewhat restless.
                   They are searching for a place to spend the night.

     There are many trees.
              But somehow there is too much light yet...
                        and the wind is still alive beyond the hills.

     A small boat moves across the lake.

              And the mirror surface of the lake...
                   reflects the sun coming lower and lower...
                        while the rower with his oars...
                                          makes circles in the water.

     The circles become golden rings... that grow and grow...
                   to blend with the glimmering haze in the distance.

     Some faraway clouds
                are trying to hide the tiring sun
                                   but the light is still too strong.

         Yet it is getting cooler already...
                and my Beloved moves closer still...
                                 resting her head on my shoulder.
         Her beautiful hair falls slowly over my back...
                to protect me from the chill that will be coming.

     There are less and less birds now.
                The rower is finished making circles...
                              and the boat is pulled-up on the shore.

        The lake is a perfect mirror...
                reflecting another sun... not as bright...
                                              but more beautiful.

     The hills are telling me...
                 that the wind has gone to rest.

                 And the hand of my Beloved...
                                slowly moves in mine...
                                             and I know her thoughts.

            They are peaceful...
                     and there are no wishes left...
                                                but just to be.

     Some gravestones in the neatly kept grass...
                     are casting shadows that grow longer and longer.

          I look into the sky...
                     and some heavy clouds move across the sun.
               A Little while...
                     and golden spokes of sunrays...
                                           pattern the heavens.

     A late bird... from another world...
                 lands in the tree that is on fire...
                           and the sun... lowers quicker and quicker.

     Finally the sun that built the radiant spokes...
                      and the sun in the lake...
                      are meeting in blending sparks of togetherness.

    I look at my Beloved...
              and slowly her eyes look up and meet my soul.

                  We are content... for universal peace is within us.

    I glance at the sun again...
           and the bottom half is stretched out on the lake...
                while the top half still hangs in the sky.
                                        It is completely cut in half.

    From the distance I seem to hear...
           the sizzling of the lake that embraces the fire.
                And then a layer of faint mist covers the water...
                    while the sun disappears into the lake...
                                              without making circles.

         The spokes of light...
               have become red and move across the sky...
                                                in great banners.
         An owl is hooting in the distance...
                    and the animals of the night begin their day.

         The first evening stars appear...
                  and their twinkling is translated...
                                   into silence and tranquillity.

         Slowly then...
                  some tears fall on my hand.
                                      My Love is crying...
                                                     and so am I.
         We have witnessed...
                  the most majestic display of the universe.

                  We feel...
                         that it is within us...
                                     as well as without.

         We cannot understand.
                      We have seen...
                                 but our mind cannot accept.

             In awe...
                  and in the darkness of the day...
                          we sit... and feel united...
                                         with the universe.
                  We are ONE...
                          And yet... we are ourselves.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05102-1980







                              LISTEN OFTEN
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Your view of the World...
                           differs with mine.
                                     They are not the same.

             What you perceive...
                      of the World and the Universe
                           depends on 'what' you are about.

             It depends on...
                      your feelings
                            your attitude
                                    your imagination
                                         and your Soulness.

             Your Soulness...
               is the sensitivety to intuitive knowledge
                  that your Soul has gathered...
                       during all the lives it lived...
                                   in the Physical Reality.

             And although...
                    your Soul is the Magic-Collector
                you as a Human Being have control
                      of what you want to recall and sense.

                    To learn to do this...
                             you must learn to listen
                                     to the Silence Within.

             For the Silence Within...
                    contains all you want to know.

                    The Voice of the World however
                                     is much stronger
                                and completely obscures it.

             The Voice of the World... is noise.

                 The Silence of the Within... is Music.

                            Be patient... and listen often.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05103-1980







                          ONLY YOUR SOUL KNOWS
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             I tore out my Heart...
                            for it rejected my Soul.
                       And without my Soul...
                                      I cannot live.
                                 That's why I left my Heart.

             It was bleeding...
                        and so was I.
                                But we survived.
                                       For wounds will heal.

             Living without your Soul...
                                    is slowly dying.

             Living without your Soul...
                          is continually being someone else.

             And when you do this for too long...
                                           you forget...
                                     who you are and vanish.
                           You are your Soul.

                To tear out your Heart however...
                                        hurts like Hell.
                   How much that is...
                                 only your Soul knows.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05104-1980







                          THE ENDURANCE OF PAIN
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              She made herself...
                           his Slave.
                      And then...
                           told the Master...
                                      what to do...
                                             and how to be.
             And then...
                  unknowingly...
                          the Master slaved.
                                     Thus both were Slaves.
             Finally...
                the Master said...
                     "Free my Slave for I am King of Self".

                 To learn...
                      what Slaves and Kings
                                   are all about...
                              you have to be both first.

                      And know what to do.
                                     And when.
                                           And how.

             To know all this...
                         takes Time and Patience.
                                 And the Endurance of Pain.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05105-1980







                                GERARDUS
                                ~~~~~~~~

               In this Place...
                          there is no...
                                  Criticism or Rejection.
                          And Everyone is Welcome.

               The attitude of the Occupant
                       is based on...
                            Love and Understanding.
                                    Producing Compassion.

               Sometimes we cry...
                    sometimes we laugh.
                         And most of the time...
                                 we are Happy and Joyful.

               Come back if you like it.
                                   And if you don't...
                                   we are Friends anyway.

               Live your Feelings...
                          and feel free...
                                   to be yourself.
                                                  Always.

                          I am me...
                                      Gerardus.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05107-1980







                                  TO ME
                                  ~~~~~

               The World my Betty...
                             is the Smile of the Universe.

                       And you my Betty...
                                    are my World.

               And whenever it rains...
                             I know that you are frowning.

               And whenever...
                     the Sun tickles the Flowers...
                            in the Fields...
                                      I know you're Happy.

               In this Happy-Mood
                              my Betty
                     is the Way I want you to be.

               Reflecting...
                     the Smile of the Universe...
                               in the World you are...
                                                    to ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05108-1980







                              FREE FOR ALL
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

                  Love...
                      is the touching of your hand
                                          upon another.
                  Love... is the Smile
                                 behind your Eyes
                          that can't be seen
                                       but only sensed.
                  By the YOU...
                           you are in Mind and Feeling.

                  The Mind and Feeling...
                       that smiles back in Spirit
                            without changing your Face.

                  Love...
                     is the touching of your Soul
                        by the Presence of Joy
                            that announces itself
                                 Unheard and Invisible.

                  Love...
                      is the Knowledge...
                              that knows that it knows.

                  Love...
                      never exists in halves.
                              It either is... or isn't.

             Love...
                 is the Presence of Happiness
                 of Sharing Mind to Mind... Soul to Soul
                             into a Beingness that is Divine.

             Love...
                 is The Essence of Creation.

                 To live without it... is dying.
                            It is Plentiful and Free for All.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               05109-1980







                       THE GREATEST THING THERE IS
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                      Love...
                           is Understanding
                                     without Words.

                 It is also talking...
                               without being understood.

           Love...
               is trying to understand
                         with the Recognition
                    that whatever isn't understood
                          very well could be
                                       the Lack of It...
                                              within Yourself.

                And searching for It...
                      very well could be...
                                   the Beginning of It.

           But the one...
               who can develop...
                    the Quality of Insight
                         to see Smallness for Greatness
                                           has got most of It.

              Love...
                 is immeasurable.
                         For IT is...
                              the Greatest Thing there is.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                05110-1980





                         AND THAT IS A BLESSING
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Every Atom...
               knows how to be an Atom.
                      But every Human Being...
                                does not know how to be Human.

          Most of them...
               do not even know how to be Man.

          It took a million years
                   to make Man out of Monkeys.

               And it will take millions of years...
                                    to make Humans out of Man.

               The Progression of Consciousness
                            is very slow
                      and different for everybody.
                                    Some develop fast...
                                       some very... very slow.

          Many are Man...
                   but few are Human.
               And most people are not aware...
                   that the Progression of Consciousness
                              is equal to the efforts applied.

          To learn this...
                 is becoming aware.
                        Some call it a Blessing.
                                        But it is not.

                 It's called Self-Development.
                              We all have the same
                                        Unlimited Potential
                                               free.

                                       And that is a Blessing.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06111-1980







                             THINK ABOUT IT
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            If in Total Creation...
                    there was only one thinker
                              I would like that thinker
                                                   to be ME.

            For I would think...
               of a System of Thinking
                    that created more thinkers.

                    Thinking is Creating...
                                and Creating is Thinking.

                    And the One...
                                cannot possibly be...
                                          without the Other.

            Creation...
                is the Master-Thinker...
                                  thinking.

                And without this Master-Thinker...
                      thinking
                      you could not possibly be thinking.

                What do you think... thinker...
                       about this Master-Thinker's thinking?

            I think...
                   that the Master-Thinker...
                      is the Enabler of Thinking...
                             and never really thinks itself.

            While you and I... as thinkers...
                                   use the Enabler to think.

                  What do you think of that... THINKER?

                             THINK ABOUT IT.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06112-1980







                                PERFECTLY
                                ~~~~~~~~~

           If in the whole World...
                there is not one Human Being...
                       who is capable or knows how...
                             to Love and Understand me...
                and I am not capable or know how
                       to Love and Understand...
                            that Human Being in return...
                                      this...
                                          my Life...
                                 has become a useless journey.

           And if the Goal is...
                     to Love 'All'...
                              while a mutual duet...
                                        is not possible...
                     how can I ever learn...
                                      to Love...
                                             all Human Beings?

                     But when I become LOVE...
                              I do not need to Love...
                                              or be Loved.
                                                  For I am IT.

               To be LOVE.
                     That is the Goal.
                            That is being God... perfectly.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06113-1980







                           INCREASE YOUR GAIN
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           To think of nothing...
                            and do it
                    is a Sublime Conception...
                                        and Activity.

           But to never think...
                         and to do that...
                                   is useless.

           And yet...
                most people would rather die...
                                        than think.
                      And although...
                           even thinkers die...
                                   they at least know
                            whether life was a gain or a loss.

           And yet...
               all people gain.
                     But most people don't know it.
               For the Gain of consciousness
                                      is forever Positive.
                                           And never Negative.

           And whether you know it or not...
                         the Gain of Consciousness
                             is the purpose of Creation.
                         It has been like this...
                                   for quite some time.
                         Think about this...
                                   once in a while...
                                       and increase your gain.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06114-1980







                            FROM JOY'S BEYOND
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Cry... my Soul...
                          yes cry forever.
                     And empty fast...
                               your Stream of Tears.

               Into the Depths of Seas of Sorrows
                     cleansing the Oceans of your Fears.

                     And then fill-up
                          this Space of Hollow
                                with the Joy of Jubilee.

          For the Source of Joy and Sorrow
                         is the same... in a Soul that's free.

          So empty out...
                  this Grieving Feeling.
                               And cleanse yourself...
                                           from Soul's Despond.

                 So that the Bliss
                     and its Blessed Healing
                              will fill your Heart
                                       from Joy's Beyond.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06115-1980







                                AND FLY
                                ~~~~~~~

              If I would give to you...
                        all the Beauty in the World
                                    or
                          if I would give to you
                       the World in all its Beauty
                 I would but part with a Gift of Moments
                       I would but part...
                           with a Gift of Time...
                                      that would not last.

              For all of it...
                         would slowly tarnish...
                               and disappear in ages past.

              And even...
                   if I would give to you...
                                   a Diamond Moon
                           with a multi-million Facets
                                   it would but be...
                                           a poor Lampoon.

          So therefore then... my Soul and Partner
                so therefore then... my Total Whole
                      I will not give... a Gift of Moments
                          for it would but be... short Console.

          But what I offer...
                in Pure Surrender...
                        to my Partner and my Soul...
                is the Gift of Light... that's Everlasting
                                 the Gift of Light...
                                             to find your Goal.

          That's hidden deep... within your Being
                           that's hidden far... beyond the Eye.

          To be discovered... by your Godness
                         to make you fly... and fly... and fly.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06116-1980







                          I'M THE ONE TO BLAME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Words... the Words... I hear them still
                                 the Words so small... so dear.
          They ring yet in my mindless mind
                          from day to day... from year to year.
          The Words as old as Man... as old as Time
                                          and yet so truly new.

              For coming from the Lips of Her
                                  they are enough and coo.
              So softly spoken with tenderness
                                    yet ringing in my ear.

              I Love You.   I Love You.
                            I'm yours... my Sweetest Dear.

          I cannot feel... I cannot sense
                                       from overwhelming Cheer.
              I am but lost in Eyes that shine
                   so lost in Love... and freed from fear.

              For never in the Age of Man
                           will Words sound just the same.

          For in her Eyes... there is no light
                                   and I'm the one... to blame.

          For in her Eyes... there is no light
                                  and I'm the one.... to blame.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06117-1980







                        WHAT ELSE IT BUT COULD BE
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            With jubilant ring... with sounds I love
                                  her voice speaks to my Soul.

            And listening to her cheerfulness
                                      my mind rejects control.

                Her laughter and her sense of sense
                              they lift me feather light.

                But what pain I am... what misery
                               if things do not go right.

            My lips don't speak... my hands are tied
                                   my mind is full of thought.

            This total stranger... that I am
                                  with manners quite untaught.

                Why is her nearness stilling me
                                why is her presence fear?

                Why does her Being attract me so
                       and why are my thoughts not clear?

                Why is her face so beautiful
                                     why is her Being me?

                     If this isn't Love...
                                       I do not know
                       what else it but could be.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06118-1980







                              YOU DID RIGHT
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I wander in a Land so Strange
                            no Shadows... Breeze or Sun
                I wander in a Forest Weird
                             with Trees that are undone.

                There is so little sense to Wind
                              no Force at all in Storms
                There is no Wetness in the Rain
                         there are no Signs... no Norms.

                How do I find... where I should go
                                 how do I search for me?

                     When Sun... nor Wind
                                    or either Rain

                     I do not feel... I do not see.

                And yet within my Inner Self
                      there is this Twinkling Light
                   that winks and flares so certainly
                             and whispers...
                                        YOU DID RIGHT
                             and whispers...
                                          YOU DID RIGHT.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06119-1980







                        MANY OF THEM SEE NEITHER
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              The Greatness or Smallness of a Poet
                       does not depend on the quantity
                                             of his Readers.

                  The Greatness or Smallness
                                      either is ...
                                             or is not.

              And the amount of Greatness or Smallness
                        of his recognition
                              depends upon
                              the Greatness or Smallness
                                             of his Readers.

              Few Readers can recognize...
                                     Greatness.
                 While others have trouble recognizing...
                                                  Smallness.

              Fewer yet...
                     have the ability to see
                             the difference between the two.

                        Many of them see neither.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06120-1980







                            UNTIL PERFECTION
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             If you tell your friends the Truth
                                    you will lose them all.

             This however... is much better...
                        than having many friends...
                                           and lie to them.

                  The latter...
                          is what people call...
                                          being nice.

             Also remember...
                 that most people who are nice...
                                   are not very bright.
                                                 Just nice.

            Knowing the Truth...
                     and being able to use it wisely
                                    is being nice and wise.

                     That is what you...
                           should strive for...
                                   until Perfection.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06121-1980







                        GREATER... THAN YOU AND I
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            In living together...
                     we have many and many things against us.
            But even...
                if 'whatever could exist' is against us
                                   or
                   even if the world would collapse
                                   we would surface
                           above debris and waves of torture.

            For what we have on our side
                                  from Within
                   is the most powerful combination there it.

                   It's Love... Understanding
                                    and Self-Control.

            And with these three on our side
                         there is nothing to fear or to lose.

                And although
                   we have fallen many times
                                        we arose
                                             And are.
            For these three
                     are greater and more
                             than just the two of us.

                                        Greater...
                                              than You and I.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06122-1980







                            WHICH IS GODNESS
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              People think...
                     that they need "Beauty"
                                        as much
                               as that they need Ugliness.

                      Ugliness...
                           causes Sickness of Mind.
                      Sickness of Mind...
                              causes Sickness of Body.

                                       The above is TRUTH.

                 The Total of Truth and Beauty...
                                            is Wisdom.

                 Wisdom...
                      is knowing...
                             what counts.

                                     Which is Godness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06123-1980







                              OR WOULD IT?
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

                To say... I am not important...
                                       defeats the goal.
                    To not say it...
                         is more important
                    To think either...
                                 is worse.
                    And to never read the above...
                                       is a blessing.

                To forget about it gracefully...
                                     is impossible.
                                But the best one can do.

                    So next time...
                           be aware of what you read.
                    To reflect on this...
                                    is suffering.
                               Some people like that.

                The whole thing...
                      is open to debate.
                              Which would be useless.

                                            Or would it?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06124-1980







                             AND ALWAYS WAS
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           If I would give the World to you
                                      in the Form of Love
                                   it would not be sufficient.

           Not... that it wouldn't be sufficient for you.
                    But it would not be sufficient on my part.

           For I want to give to you...
                    the Universe and all the Love it contains.

           For the World...
                is but a temporary place of dwelling...
                                                 and learning.

           But the Universe...
                and all the Love it contains...
                                          - that -
                                is what I want to give to you.

           For the Universe...
                     is your ultimate Destination.
               In which you will find...
                          the Fulfillment of your Desires
                              and the Refinement of your Soul.

           So...
              on this so special occasion
                    in your Time and Space Continuum
                                  I know...
                    that the offer of my Symbolic Gift...
                                  will be received
                          with Happiness and Silent Solemnity.

              Thank you...
                     for your Acceptance...
                                for it is yours.
                                          And Always was.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06125-1980







                       FOR NONE TO KNOW FROM WHERE
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             It is I...
                  who moves my pen.
             But the 'More of Me'...
                       that brings my Thoughts.
                 Thoughts... translated through Matter
                                             that is but me.

             Spelling out the Words...
                          solidifying Thoughts to Substance.

                            For ALL to see...
                      for NONE to know from where.

             And although it is I
                            who translate
                                  it is the More of Me
                                         that really counts.

                   The More of Me and I
                         are partners of a Being
                                 in Divided Dimensions.

             A Reality...
                   in which I am but Matter
                             and the More of Me my Thoughts.

                   For ALL to see...
                         for NONE to know from where.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06126-1980







                                THE LOSER
                                ~~~~~~~~~

          Sometimes...
                 when I look Mankind in the eye
                       I measure the Depth of Stupidity.
          I look in...
                 and see the Vast Emptiness
                                  of Soulless Wasteland.

                 And far beneath the Ranges of Ignorance
                            I find the Fields of Nothingness.

                 Too barren...
                            for Boredom to stay.
                 So Boredom replaces itself...
                             with Frenzies of Frustration
                       enclosed within the boundaries...
                                                 of Insanity.

          For the Sparkle of Soul...
                    that once was there
                         has been choked by things
                              instead of kindled by Thoughts.

                         Thoughts...
                              replaced by things.

                     An exchange...
                         that's pointing out...
                                           the Loser.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06127-1980







                        For All That Is - is You
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Space is...
                           Unlimited.
                Matter is...
                      Endless in quality and quantity.

           Both Space and Matter
                        are the Medium for the Creator...
                                         and of the Creator.

           And you and I...
              are Space... Matter... and the Medium...
                                     as Part of the Creator.

                       Small Parts... but growing.

              And by growing enough...
                        by growing great...
                              by growing forever more...
                        you and I will become...
                                       greater Creators.

           Small... yet at first...
                          but we will grow greater... later.

                  Until you and I...
                     will be Creators among Creators.

           For Space is...
              and Matter is...
                   unlimited in quality and quantity...
                         for ALL... who grow...
                                      by means of...
                               Self-Development...
                                   and Spiritual-Enfoldment.

           So grow... Unlimited and Endless
                                        and be...
                              the Medium and the Creator.
                                   For 'All That Is' is YOU.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               06128-1980







                        THE ONLY WAY OF LEARNING
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                So many people I know...
                                are children.
                             They play with toys...
                                   and tinker with cars.

           However...
               they have the right to play
                                  for they are children.

           In times to come...
                 in lives to be lived
                         they will cease their playing...
                                          for they will grow.

           Yes I know....
                  For I was one of them...
                                 sometime ago...
                                     some lives ago.
                  How pleasant they were...
                                   and how soothing.
                  For Life...
                       is so beautiful as a child
                                      and so splendid...
                                               when grown-up.

           Yes grown-up...
                  but did I grow enough
                          to be a child no more?

                  Did I grow enough...
                                   to know...
                                   that the Universe...
                              is the Playground...
                                              of Playgrounds.

                  Where seriousness is sickness...
                                           and Play...
                                    the only Way of Learning.

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                               06129-1980







                            BECAUSE OF OTHERS
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                On opening the Book of Thought
                              you are still there...
                                  and laughing...
                                              and waiting.

                For in the Distance of your Eyes...
                                          I see the Inner.

                    Hidden within you...
                             so beautiful...
                                     so alone...
                                         and longing.

                Yes...
                  you keep it hidden so well
                              that I can only sense it
                           by opening the Book of Thought.

                                 While nobody...
                                      will ever know...
                                                   but us.

                For the times we were...
                                - we didn't -
                                        because of others.

                And since Loving...
                             is mostly Longing...
                        I long...
                             in the Silence of Time...
                                                  for you.

                And while not a word is spoken
                       the Book of Thought is closed
                                        in Searing Sorrow.

                But secretly we do...
                          in Dreams of Loving
                     by Eyes that sense
                          the Thoughts of you and I...
                               behind the words...
                                   - we didn't -
                                        because of others.

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                               06130-1980







                          IS DETERMINED BY YOU
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                 Do you sometimes think
                               that your life is a mess?
                 Do you sometimes think
                            that you couldn't care less?

                 Well... my dear friend
                              my partner in time
                 It's because your thoughts
                               descend instead of climb.

                 And how can you then
                       with eyes so sorry blind
                       reverse your direction
                                   and change your mind?

                 Well that my dear friend
                               my partner in time
                    is done by Thoughts of Love
                            and Thoughts of the Sublime.

                 For the purpose of Life
                             my partner and friend
                    is the Search for Truth
                                 to be found in the end.

                 And the Search for Truth
                              that's hidden within
                    is the Reason for Being
                                   for you and your kin.

                 For Life is Truth...
                       and beautiful... and true
                    While the Direction of Thoughts
                                   is determined by you.

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                               06131-1980







                            IN INFINITE SPACE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              I do not see by eyes of atoms
                         and do not taste for tissue's lust

              I do not hear by ears of molecules
                      grown by the shaping of Earth's crust.

              I do not smell by parts of protons
                        built by the Earth that is but dust.

              But by Life...
                          beyond my senses
                  of taste and smell that I enjoy
                  I hear the vivaciousness of laughter
                             and see the light of inner joy.

              For it is the Life... beyond my body
                  that is but slowly ripened Earth
                  it is the Life... my mind... my spirit
                             that is...
                                and feels for me from birth.

              And this my Life... my Soul-Eternal
                       senses this Earth by my body's grace.

              And never would I trade
                           my Life for bodies...
                           or for all the worlds...
                                          in infinite space.

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                               06132-1980







                          AND REPEAT AND REPEAT
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            In the blistering days of summer
                     when the sun is burning my sense
                     and the grass is scorched
                     and even the trees seem to suffer...
                                                      I wonder.

            I wonder and think...
                     about the millions of years
                     that Heat was Heat
                     forging the Earth from its beginning
                                      and I was not...
                                                 what I am now.

                 Was I then the grass...
                                   or the tree suffering?
                     Or was I but the fruit...
                                   in the maul of a bear?

                 Or was I but a part of this rock
                           so shattered by lightning
                     Or was I but a grain of sand...
                                      melting into glass?

                 Or was I the flower
                        so struggling to bloom...
                                in this endless struggle?

                 Or was I but the wing of a bee...
                        or maybe the honey
                                   in an eon's man's tea?

                 Whatever I was in times' retreat
                        I became and became...
                             from the Heat that was Heat.

                 And know...
                   that in this future's endless game
                             I will be again...
                                   and repeat and repeat.

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                               06133-1980







                     IN THE SILENCE OF ITS PRESENCE
                     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             THAT...
                 what I seek...
                     the Nature of my Reality...
                     the Knowledge of what I am
                          of 'All That Is'
                          and 'All That Is' is of me
                                      is hidden deep within.

            THAT...
                what I am
                    is to be revealed
                    by the Inner Journey
                          into Myself... through Myself
                          and through the world as I know it.

            For the Nature of my Reality...
                          the Part I am of God...
                               is the Soul...
                                      that forms my Identity.

            Interwoven...
                 with all Consciousness
                                of which I only know
                                   the Part I am...
                                            and is searching.

            While yet...
                 the Total of all Consciousness
                                    is within my Soul.

                          Waiting to be found...
                                              by me...
                                    the Part that is seeking.

            Seeking for the Whole
                          that it contains...
                                     in the Silence...
                                             of Its Presence.

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                              06134-1980





                           THE HUMAN MAN I AM
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             If my Soul could write...
                         it would not be any different
                   For each Word that solidifies
                             are my Thoughts made Substance.

             And all the Substance visible
                         represents my Soul in Atoms
                   Grouped in Letters and Words
                                   revealing the Force I am.

             The Force I am...
                   instilled by the Universe
                   with the creation of Trains of Thought
                   that travel with the Speed of Light
                   from my Soul to me... the Man I am
                       through the Darkness of my Pen
                             and expresses my Soul on Paper.

             And in a similar way...
                   the Creature I am...
                           is expressed in Atoms by my Soul.

             Grouped in Cells and Organs...
                               revealing the Human Man I am.

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                               07135-1980







                           TO BECOME A DANCER
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            The Real Rewards of Life...
                                     Real Life...
                      are not...
                           the Fumbling Physical Attainments.

            They are not...
                the Splendor of the Physical Body.
                      And they are not...
                             the Magnificence of being Human.

            But they are.....
                the many Dances of Consciousness
                      by the Vivaciousness of Spirit
                      within the Mental Beingness
                                of the Unlimited Mind Divine.

            And to reach the Level of Participation
                      in these Dances of Consciousness
                we have to go through...
                      the Inner Man of Grandiosity...
                                   Splendor and Magnificence.

                By being a Perfect Creature
                           in the Form of a Human Being.

                In all Lives...
                          that are needed...
                                     to become a Dancer.

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                               07136-1980







                         IN THE FORM THAT'S ME
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Eventually my Expanding Awareness
                          will touch the Boundaries
                                  of the Universe Unknown.

               I will discover then...
                          that the Boundaries...
                                  were the Limited me.
                                                 Dreaming.

               For I am the Universe.
                                  Unlimited.
                              In Time and Space.
                                    In Thought and Action.

               But for now...
                     the Becoming Awareness
                     to the 'suchness' of my Total
                                             is what I am.

               And in order to become AWARE
                            I must be where I am.
                                           Being me
                                              the Limited.

                     And Timeless... for I am Time.

               The fact however...
                     that I was given a Name
                           and considered myself
                     to be separate from the Universe
                                              confused me.

                But now I know.
                        I am The Nameless.
                                    In the Form that's ME.

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                      Nameless and Numberless page.








                              TO BE TARTED
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

                 Conceived in Sin...
                          from Mother's Kin
                          from the Womb I bare departed.

                 Born with Guilt
                          to make me tilt
                          I was doomed before I started.

                 Instilled with Belief
                         to exist in Grief
                         bound for Hell before I farted.

                 By the Preacher's Bliss
                           that could not miss
                           my Course was firmly charted.

                 But on my Way...
                             from Day to Day
                             the Blinders slowly parted.

                 For The Thinking Me
                       is completely free
                       and not by Religion to be tarted.

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                               07137-1980







                        THE ENRICHMENT OF SHARING
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               In the Universe of Consciousness...
                              I am but a Hamlet of Thought.

               Yet...
                   the Universe of Consciousness
                                  lingers within my Hamlet.

               That becomes enlarged
                      by the Moments it dwells within
               Sharing its Richness
                      for the Exchange of my Thoughts
                                  While Both unite in Time.

                   For Consciousness is Consciousness.

               In which the Smaller
                      contains the Bigger in Moments
                               as much
                      as that the Total contains
                               the Smaller since ever
                                            For ALL is ONE.

               And within the ONENESS
                  the Smaller learns to know the Bigger
                           while the Bigger...
                                 already knows the Smaller.

                   Yet...
                      both do grow...
                           by the Enrichment of Sharing.

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                               07138-1980







                          THIS SPLENDID DOMAIN
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                  I was a planter in Peru
                              and a scientist who knew

                  I was a female in Berlin
                                 and a preacher of sin

                  I was a Dutchman blase
                                and a hussy called May

                  I was a mystic in Tibet
                                 and a worker in sweat

                  I was a typist in New York
                                 and a breeder of pork

                  I was a doctor in arts
                                  and a poet who tarts

                  I was a writer of words
                                and a product of nurds

                  And in all that I was
                              or ever will be
                         I'll grow and become
                                  even greater than me

                  For the greatness of Man
                     the players of this game
                        is determined by them
                           within This Splendid Domain.

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                               07139-1980







                             THE ETERNAL NOW
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Today...
             resting in the Valley of Time
                  I lean forward and see the Peaks of Tomorrow.

                            And the ones I like...
                                           I remember.

          And then...
             in glancing back
                  among the Pictures of Yesterday
                                     the ones I remember...
                                                        I like.

          And when the Valley of Time opens...
                                    in all Directions
                               it shows me
                                       that I
                          by the selections of my Thoughts
                                            become what I must.

          A Peeker onto the Peaks of Tomorrow
                  and a Glancer into the Pictures of Yesterday.

          To determine...
                  the one I will be...
                            in the Valley of Time.

                  Resting...
                      within the Delight of Being.

                                 Among the Charms...
                                            of the Eternal Now.

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                               07140-1980







                          SHARES BUT ONE WHOLE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Oh Life... oh Life
                          from where did you fly
                             oozing from this...
                                          so silent sky?

                Why did you land...
                          in Time and Space
                             caught in flesh...
                                          of Human Race?

                Why did you...
                          imprison me
                      from the freedom you came...
                                           to be a name?

                Is it to learn...
                          to think and love
                                 so easy to do...
                                        from your Above?

                Or is it to be...
                          a part of Life
                               and to be taught...
                                  the lessons of strife?

                Or is it to be...
                          with similar kin
                             to teach and speak...
                                         of Life Within?

                Or is it to show...
                          the Inner Light
                               fashioned by...
                                     the Gods and Might?

                Or is it to grow...
                          in Thought and Mind
                                       equal to...
                                       the Gods in Kind.

                YES... SO BE IT...
                          MY SELF AND SOUL.

                     FOR CONSCIOUSNESS...
                                   SHARES ITSELF AS WHOLE.

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                               07141-1980







                         IN BEING ONE WITH LIFE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            LIFE...
                is of such a Suchness
                                   that
                            if anybody would ask
                               - what it is -
                         and somebody would answer...
                                       neither of them knows.

                For LIFE...
                     is not of a Suchness...
                                  that can be explained.

                It can only be experienced...
                                           by living it.

            Living it...
                  in a Suchness...
                         that shows more and more...
                                 the Order of its Nature
                                 and the Nature of its Order.

            To point the Seeker
                  towards the Pinnacle of Balance
                                  between Knowledge...
                                      Intuitive and Rational.

            To find...
                  the Depth of Wisdom Absolute.
                        Beyond the Life of the Living...
                                      in being ONE with LIFE.

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                               07142-1980







                                AND STALL
                                ~~~~~~~~~

              How can the sigma know the neutron
                             or an electron its equal mate?
              How can the lambda know the proton
                         or a neutrino its massless weight?
              How can the cell know sense and feeling
                               or the Earth its daily spin?
              How can the eye know sights appealing
                      or higher Thought... its Life within?


              How can I write in poetry...
                                        of poetry
                              of Universes great and small?

              How can I write in words...
                                      of Wisdom
                            found in 'The Being of it All'?

              I can but wonder in parts...
                                   of seconds
                                   and then I stall...
                                          and stall...
                                                 and stall.

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                               07143-1980







                       BY WILLINGNESS FROM WITHIN
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             I bow in reverence...
                          like the weeping willow
                     and stand erect
                          like the mighty oak
                          for the magnificence...
                                       of the sky at night.

             And then I wonder...
                     about the impossible task
                               of just one Sun
                               to sustain the Earth...
                                               in splendor.

             And all the stars tell me
                           that we are not alone.
                     While the Sun...
                           and its silent whisper...
                                             tells me...
                                             that  I am it.

                     And when I connect...
                           with "ALL THAT IS"
                                         and I unite

             I know...
                 that it is I...
                      who has made the connection.

                       Not by force from without...
                            but by willingness from Within.

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                               07144-1980







                       THE SILENT OCEAN INVISIBLE
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              Like the Ocean...
                          and all its Life within
                      originates...
                           and sustains itself
                                       from the Ocean
                      and lives in Freedom
                      but yet is governed by Law...
                                   the Law of the Ocean....

              So is...
                     the Universe...
                          the Ocean Invisible
                               and all its Life within
                      originating...
                           and sustaining itself
                                     from the Universe
                                the Ocean Invisible
                                     living in Freedom
                     but yet is governed by Law
                            the Law of the Universe
                                that is Written in Silence.

              The Ocean Invisible...
                    holding within itself
                              Oceans of Space
                           and Islands of Matter
                       with Life within and Life upon
                                sustained by Consciousness.

              Which is...
                   All There Is.

                   Consciousness...
                          the Originator and Sustainer
                                of
                                The Silent Ocean Invisible.

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                               07145-1980







                               AND IS NOW
                               ~~~~~~~~~~

                I am I...
                     You are You
                          Buddha is Buddha
                                    and Christ is Christ.

                       And No-One is like Another.

                But yet All together
                                 we are ONE and the SAME.

                United...
                     in a Dynamic Universe
                               of Connectivity
                                     forming One Another.

                You cannot follow Buddha
                    You cannot follow Christ
                        You cannot follow Others
                             But you can follow Yourself.

                All Roads are as different
                        as the Gods who walk upon it
                    But all journeys...
                                end up in the same Place.

                And this Place...
                   this Place of Places
                                  contains
                                  the Understanding
                                             of the Self.

                         Comprehending the Total
                                in Unity.

                         For ALL is ONE...
                                  and ONE is ALL.

                As it was...
                   in times that past.
                            And will be...
                                  in times to come.
                                              And is Now.

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                               07146-1980







                          HIS LOVING BENEFACTOR
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                    I... yes... I
                             the Higher Self
                        I am the Force
                                     and the Enactor.

                    I... yes... I
                        through Space and Time
                               send forth my Part
                                           the Actor.

                    And in the Play
                            that I designed
                                   the World
                                   is his Distracter.

                    For in this World
                            his Babe of Thought
                                   he builds
                                   to form character.

                    And through his Lives
                            he'll slowly know
                        the Higher Self
                               his Loving Benefactor.

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                               07147-1980







                             TO BLOW MY HORN
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              My Brother Poets
                         they are but me
                   for they but write
                             what I did see.

                   For their original Line for Line
                             are but repeats
                                         for they are mine.

              My every Word
                     I ever wrote
                     they slyly use
                               without a "quote".

                           And when my Death
                                 will finally come
                                 they'll look aghast
                                          and perfect dumb.

                      For when my Pen
                               is laid to rest
                               their silence tells
                                            I was the Best.

              Because... the first Poet
                              ever to be born
                                    was Loudmouth me
                                           to blow my Horn.

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                               07148-1980







                         BY THE COURAGE YOU ARE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Towards the Evening of Life...
                Thoughts as old as the Universe
                                        - surface -
                               within the Inner of your Being.
                                        And mingle.

            They mingle...
                     with the Daily Sphere of Living
                          and tend to interrupt
                                       more and more
                                          the Surface You Are.

            These Thoughts...
                          are the Inner Self...
                                       struggling to come out.

            Recognize these Thoughts...
                     for they are the Real You
                                          in hiding
                                 behind the Confusion You Are.

            Conquer all of these Thoughts
                         and find the Real You
                                      that is crying...
                                           behind...
                                your Laughing Face in Turmoil.

            Encourage these Thoughts
                          to reveal themselves
                                   to the Inner Being You Are.

            And find the Real You...
                                 the YOU
                            that lives beyond
                                 the seeming Laughter...
                                            of your existence.

            For then...
               and only then...
                      YOU can live the Life
                             of the Spirit You Are...
                                            in Flesh and Bone.

            The Spirit...
                     that is waiting to be found...
                                       by the Courage You Are.

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                               07149-1980







                                AS ITSELF
                                ~~~~~~~~~

                 You my friend....
                               and I ...
                                     are Spirits.
                              Spirits embodied in Flesh.

                 And time after time...
                      we come back to Earth
                                in the Form of Man...
                                               to learn.

                 In the beginning...
                          we learn but slow.

                      But later...
                           we learn faster.

                          And finally we comprehend
                      that all Human Beings are Spirits.

                              Spirits in Learning.

                 The Earth is our Playground...
                               the Field of Action
                    upon which we Play in Pleasure
                                 and struggle in Strife.

                 The World...
                     our Playground...
                          is a Creation...
                              by Spirits... for Spirits.
                           And called...
                                 the World of Man.

                 The World of Man...
                                 this Earth...
                                            is but Dust.

                 Dust...
                      a Form of Consciousness.
                               For ALL is Consciousness.

                 Consciousness...
                             is Energy that is aware.

                           Aware of itself... as itself.

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                               07150-1980








                            LIKE IT SHOULD BE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              The Inner Vitality of the Universe...
                                               is Jubilant.

                  For All That Is...
                              is a cheering...
                              Participant and Partner.

              The Partner...
                      that in its Dreams created...
                                   Consciousness in Action.

              Consciousness in Action
                              towards Perfection.

                          And the Difference...
                  between the Actual State of Creation
                       and the State of Perfection
                                   is
                               Its Desire.

              And within this Desire...
                                    dwells Man
                            struggling with his own Desire.

              And until...
                  the Desire of All That Is
                         is fulfilled
                  by the right Wishes of Man...

                  The Inner Vitality
                             of the Universe...
                             will be striving...
                                        towards Perfection.

              And this will be Forever...

                                         Like it should be.

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                               07151-1980







                               IN DARKNESS
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

              Engraved within...
                        the Patterns of your Soul
                                   are the Blueprints
                                   of your Earthly Journeys.

                  And your Journeys on Earth
                     are not Battles to be Fought
                               or Wars
                               that are lost by winning.

              But your Journeys on Earth
                     are Experiments in the Physical
                                         in Time's Duration.

                  Experiments...
                     in which you are to Learn and Grow.

                  It is the Curriculum of Life
                                      to be Mastered
                                 as a Member of Mankind.

              It is the Conquering of Yourself
                        to be Won Triumphantly
                                in the Duration of Time
                                to find your Place in Space.

              To find...
                  that the Patterns of your Soul
                       are the Lines engraved in Colour
                              of the God You Are
                                            and do not know.

              Your Journeys are...
                  the Blueprints of your Thoughts
                                 to be recognized
                         within the Lives you live on Earth.

              To finally see the Light...
                  the Light You Are in Greatness...
                        but forgot you were
                                      for traveling
                                                in Darkness.

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                               07152-1980







                  UNTIL OUR FUTURE... BECOMES OUR PAST
                  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                Our Feelings touch...
                             on Sacred Ground
                        Beyond our Words...
                                        beyond our Sound.

                And None of us...
                               can yet explain
                        The Blessings found...
                                       in Bliss and Gain.

                For on this World...
                               this Plane of Illusion
                        We struggle but...
                                      in plain Confusion.

                Yet in our Silent Togetherness
                     we dance and dance in Consciousness.

                For Time to come...
                      for Time to last...
                               until our Future...
                                        becomes our Past.

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                               07153-1980







                             THE WAY OF WAYS
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                I gave you Friends in animal form
                         But you but act below their norm

                I gave you Land and Sea and Sky
                           but you but plunder for your I

                I gave you Body... Mind and Soul
                        But you but see your Worldly Role

                I gave you Gifts to Share among
                       But you but give your Lying Tongue

                I gave you Life to last through Time
                      but you but exist in Dirt and Slime

                I gave you Light in Spirit Form
                     But you but respond with Daily Scorn

                I gave you Being in Rhythmic Dance
                      But you but move for Money's Glance

                I gave you Space in Consciousness
                         But you but think in Selfishness

                I gave you ME to shape and grow
                        But you but laugh and do not know

                But in the Silence of my Days
                       You will yet learn the Way of Ways.

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                               07154-1980




                          IN SPIRIT UNAWARENESS
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                When I think of Him...
                                    I cry.
                     For although he is Beautiful...
                                  his Mind is fast asleep.

                     Asleep...
                         in a self-hypnotic-state
                                      of Unawareness.

                Neither to be awakened by Living
                              nor to be awakened by Death.

                   For his Delusion is self-created
                                             and solid.

                Solid with the Illusions of his Shell
                                he calls his Body
                          the Temple of his Consciousness.

                While his Consciousness
                                is really what he is.
                    Expressed in Dreams of Living
                          and the Illusions of his Deaths.

                But like Light follows Darkness
                                     he will awaken soon.

                    To liberate himself
                        from dreaming and from dying.

                For my Brother Man
                          in Super-Consciousness
                   will scale the Depth of his Delusions.

                   Into which he fell...
                                     and moves
                               in Spirit Unawareness.

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                               07155-1980







                             WITHOUT REPEAT
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                For many People...
                    the Future is but Yesterday.
                For they repeat Yesterday...
                                      Today and Tomorrow.

                They slowly grow older...
                          but not always wiser.
                    And while repeating...
                          they think they Live and Learn.

                But the Few... who think...
                                    will learn...
                    that many People...
                          repeat Lifetime after Lifetime.

                    In different bodies...
                                in different times.
                            Yet they are...
                                      the same Repeaters.

                And the Few... who think...
                                    know...
                            that each Day is anew.
                      For None is the same... since ever.

                And he...
                     who answers the question...
                          - what's new -
                                   with nothing...
                           has been repeating since ever.

                For ALL is NEW.
                            And always... without Repeat.

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                              07156-1980





                         I BUT FEEL MY SMALLNESS
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                It is not in the manner...
                                 of my Writing
                    Neither is it in the Stillness...
                                              of my Style
                It is not in the Selection...
                                       of my Phrases
                    And neither is it...
                               in the Quality of my Words.

                It is not in the Loudness...
                                 of the Thunder
                    Neither is it in the Darkness...
                                             of the Night
                It is not in the Quickness...
                                 of the Lightning
                    And neither is it...
                            in the Twinkling of the Stars.

                It is not in the Rumbling...
                                 of the Earthquakes
                    Neither is it in the Blueness
                                                 of the Sky
                It is not in the Deepness...
                                     of the Ocean
                    And neither is it...
                                in the Beauty of the Land.

                But All Of It...
                    is within the Inner of my Being
                           connecting my Consciousness
                                        to the God within.

                The God within...
                     that speaks in Silent Syllables
                                               of Silence.
                     And reveals...
                             The All Of It
                             within the Reality I am.

                In Such a Sense of Greatness...
                             that I but feel my Smallness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08157-1980







                            THE REALITY I AM
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            The way I am now...
                       is the way you will be...
                  similar but different...
                                 in times that will yet come.

            And the way I am now...
                           is on the Earth...
                                         but so little of it.

                   I have fought the Material
                                  and have let it go.
                   I have fought the Direction
                                   and it came to me.

            While the Fight...
                     between the ME
                              I will yet be
                          and the me I still am
                                is the Fight between
                                               God and Flesh.

            To be conquered...
                          by the I...
                     in times that will yet come.
                                         For that is...
                                                the way I am.

            And the Way I will be
                   in times that will yet come
                                     is of an Essence
                                 that is beyond the Earth
                                   beyond what I am now.
                               In the Plane on Consciousness.

            The Plane that will strenghten me
                          toward the Unlimited Regions
                                           of Open-Endedness.

                     That knows no Limits... but ME.

            That is the Way I am...
                 A Soul... dividing Flesh from Consciousness.

                       To find...
                               the REALITY I AM.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08158-1980







                          IN DISCONTENT DIVINE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             I...
                the Silent Sufferer...
                suffering from this Discontent Divine
                                           know
                                  that my Soul is Jubilant.

             For...
                by the Struggles and the Strife
                      of living in Discontent Divine
                               of its Puppets
                            of which I am but one
                             my Soul is touching
                          the very Beingness of God
                                              in Happiness.

             And climbing...
                     forever higher and higher...
                        upon the Laurels of my Pain
                        and the Efforts of my Partners
                                   who are but me for time.

             For this Jubilant Soul in Happiness
                            we suffer but in Pleasure
                       the Lives and Living
                                  in this Hell called Earth.

             This Earth...
                     the very Plane of Man...
                              the Silent Sufferer...
                                      in Discontent Divine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08159-1980







                           IMMORTALITY DIVINE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             To live dangerously...
                         to live by the Courage
                                    of Inner Persuasion
             To live without Fright
                         to live Recklessly
                                   by Inner Spirituality...

                       - That is The Way To Live -

             But to live normal
                  to live like the many others
                        is but to live like others
                            in a useless repeating Fashion.


             To live...
                  without ever knowing...
                              the Reality of Being
             To live...
                  without ever knowing the Spirit
                                    because of Flesh
                                 is but Dreariness...
                                                  repeated.

             But to live dangerously...
                  and frightless upon the Path of Reality
                     with Spiritual Confidence
                           and complete Conviction
                                of being what you are
                                    Part of God...
                                           and Deathless...

                       - That Is The Way To Live -

             For conforming...
                  is dying repeatedly.

                  While the dangerously frightless Life
                                   of the Single Spirit
                               will find Liberty...
                          in Ultimate Freedom...
                                    and Immortality Divine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08160-1980







                        WITHIN THE SAMENESS OF US
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               At one Time... in the Future far
                                         I will understand.

               For within me...
                    born out of the Desire to Know
                                  is the Dynamic Force
                                            called Purpose.

                    And the Understanding I seek...
                                         will be Mine.
               For the Life I am...
                              is Continuous.
                    In different Forms...
                          on different Levels
                               within Space-Time...
                                          and without.
                                             But always ME.

               For the Space-Time... I live in now
                           is but Consciousness in Mode
                                but of an Essence...
                                             the same as I.

               While the Movements I am
                    within Space-Time and without
                          are but the Days and Nights
                                      of the Eternity I am.

               In alternate States of Consciousness
                                            and Continuity.

               And at one time...
                    is the Future far...
                               I will understand.

                    And look back...
                         upon the Modes of Consciousness
                               of Space-Time and I
                                          and know
                                      that we were ONE
                                within the Essence of Mind.

               But lost each other...
                    in but a Moment of Separation...
                                 within the Sameness of Us.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08161-1980







                      IN THE CLOSENESS OF ONE MIND
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             At Night...
                  when I look into Mind...
                                 I find the Stars.

             The Markers...
                  of the Expanding Universal Mind
                                           of Immensity.
                          And the Immensity of Me.
                                             For ALL is ONE.

             For Space...
                  is but Thoughts of Mind
                                   filled with Stars
                            to show the Endlessness of Mind.

                               Born from Thoughts...
                                     of the Eternal ALL.

             Sharing Thought for Thought
                                         with Me
                               in the Closeness of one Mind.

             While the Eternal ALL
                                 and I
                         expand in Consciousness
                   by the Thoughts...
                         of Stars expanding.
                                To mark our Space
                                       with Endless Markers.

             For Space... Time... Stars...
                                        and I
                                 and the Eternal ALL
                      are but Thoughts in Mind
                                      of All That Is
                                 in Unison of Consciousness.

             And nothing ever will be lost...
                  for All is Present...
                          within the Mind of Minds.

                   Sharing Thought for Thought
                                           with Me
                               in the Closeness of one Mind.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08162-1980







                                THAT'S ME
                                ~~~~~~~~~

                    How come I knew...
                         and didn't know...
                                The Path is me...
                                              by me.

                    How come I knew..
                         and didn't know
                                The Path is me...
                                         through me.

                    How come I knew...
                         and didn't know
                                 The Path is me...
                                               as me.

                It is because...
                   in all the Lives that past
                             I've grown the Light at last.

                And by the Lives...
                             in ages free
                                 I've grown the God...
                                                that's ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08163-1980







                             AS GOD AND MAN
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Yes... I will split this Earth
                                 and its so stinging pull
               For I have seen the Truth of Life
                                 and know the bloody Fool
               That in Insanity by Spells
                                of Skin and Bones and Mud
               Is but the dullest of Desires
                               and the pleasures of a Dud.

               For I.... the SELF
                       forever am in Presence
                                beyond this seeming Place
                     And do not have existence...
                                         in only...
                                           Time and Space.

               But forever am in Presence
                              of All That Is I am
                     To live and be...
                               as Time and Space
                                   and both...
                                           as God and Man.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08164-1980







                             NOT REALLY REAL
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               I am healthy... I am good
                           and I behave just like I Should

               I am the Creator of Life to be
                     in Modes of Mind from Light that's Me

               For by my Thoughts from deep within
                      I create the Self... the Mental Twin

               So in my Forms in Space and Time
                            I am both Self and God Sublime

               And not one Force that is to be
                         can ever change the God that's Me

               For my Eternal Living Light
                      directs my Being... directs my Sight

               Upon the Path that's yet unknown
                               to be sojourned by me Alone

               In carrying forth this Matter Cross
                             that I create by Mental Dross

               Until the time this Conscious me
                        surrenders to the Twin that's Free

               To find that I the Self and All
                          are Cosmic Light beyond Enthrall

               While all my Forms in Beingness
                       were but the Modes of Consciousness

               They're States of Mind that so appeal
                     but Dreams of Life... not really Real.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08165-1980







                             THE COSMIC MIND
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          When I have found...
               the Delight of Being
                         to be my Total Self.

               The Depth of my Dream
                         will be touching
                               the Inner Worth of my Soul

          I will be free then
                    of the Confinement of my Body
                         and rise to the Level of Consciousness
               marked by the experiences
                        of the God I am within the Cosmic Mind.

                         And the Markings...
                               will be in Richness and Splendor
                                       of Understanding.

          Then I will know
               that the Self I experienced
                         is ALL that ever was.

               While the Experiences
                         were but the Illusions
                                          of my Mind.

          Depicting the Limitations of my Awareness.
               The Limitations of the Self
                             in training to become...
                                                 the God I am.

          The God that was hiding
                   beyond Eternity in Time
                                I fashioned to be.
                                    Because of my Limitations.

          The Limitations that I will conquer
                              to become the ALL that ever was.

                      The ALL...
                              that's me...
                                   the Cosmic Mind.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08166-1980







                          WHERE LEAST EXPECTED
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            I know a better place...
                              than Earth.

                      And it is there...
                                where least expected.

                      For it is but hidden beyond
                                 the Focus of the Physical
                              within a State of Mind
                                      in which I am and feel.

               And within an Instant of Time
                                     I could be there
                                 if I but knew the Mind I am.

            But to really know the Mind I am
                          I need to know the God I am.
                   The God that is lost...
                               within its Creation of Matter.

                   And I but measure...
                             in Dimensions of Size
                                      by my Conscious Mind
                             in seemingly Separateness
                                           of Time and Space.

            While both Time and Space
                        are Aspects of the Cosmic Mind.
                   The Mind focussed in Realities
                            in which I am not present as yet.

                   But know to be there...
                                where least expected.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08167-1980







                            AND NOT THE FLESH
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          I... the Idiot
                    who does not know
                            am but a Shock...
                                  and Mental Blow
                    to Minds that think
                            that they alone
                    are Knowers of their World
                                     that's sown
                        the Evil and the Pestilence
                                  combined in War and Violence.

          For I do say... and say again
               that I create since Time... since when
                     the World in which I live and die...
                               and am the one
                                      who does not cry...
                let's fight and kill this Enemy
                     and show them Right and Scenery
                          of Life that we in Pain
                                have wrought
                                   by Deeds and Stain
                          by taking Land and silly Mud
                                      to bury but our Body-Dud.

          To find that at our next return
                a Body waits that must yet learn
                      that Violence for whatever cause
                            provides but Tears without a Pause.

          For even in what's Self-Defence
                            one may not kill at Soul's Expense.

          For the Lasting Mind of Consciousness
                      is the ONE that counts and not the Flesh.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08168-1980







                         THE GOD FEMALE SUBLIME
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Sometimes I find you Delightful
                       and sometimes I think you are not
            Sometimes I think you're Graceful
                              while often you are but a Plot.

            In the Daytime I think you are sexy
                       and at Night I find you insane
            In the Evening I see you as Beautiful
                    while in the Morning... you're too plain.

            And sometimes I think you're Elegant
                   for your Movements are Neatness in line
            While often I find you too Adamant
                          yet your yielding is purely Divine.

            But at all times... you are the Enticing
                          like a Promise elusive in Time
            Creating Rhythm too lively for soothing
                          by being... the God Female Sublime.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               08169-1980







                        IN THE SILENCE OF KNOWING
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I do not want you to Love...
                        I do not want you to Cry
                                   I but want you to Understand.

         For Understanding is the 'essence' of Living.
                   While Living is to Love and Cry...
                                but neither is to be done alone.

                   And that my Dearest...
                            is what Life is all about.

          Life is a Struggle.
                   A Struggle between Pleasure and Sadness
                           between Love and Denial
                                between what is
                                             and what cannot be.

          But through the Loving and the Crying...
                                           called Living
                                      we grow and become Mature.

          And Maturity can only be attained by Experience
                  the Experience of being together... and alone.

                  With the Pleasures of Loving...
                         and the Sadness of Separation.

          All we do is Experience.
                    While all Experience is Growing to Maturity.

                  To finally become Strong...
                                    and Fearless
                                 by the Life we live.

                  And by the times we meet
                                      in the Silence of Knowing.

            So... in the Days ahead...
                     we live... we love... we cry...
                                          together and alone...
                         to mature and become... Beautiful People.

            Strong and Fearless...
                      through experiencing ourselves...
                                                  in being...
                                             The Beautiful We Are.

            By Loving...
                with the Inner Smile of Understanding.
                  Like Flowers and Trees united in Nature...
                    by togetherness and in the Silence of Knowing.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08170-1980







                             OUR BREAD AND WINE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              In the Eons and Eons of Man in need
                        his Eyes and Thoughts went up to plead.
              Knowing not... that HE... by his Total Self
                     was the GOD and CREATOR... yes HE himself.

              So in all the Eons he moaned the Sky
                           the Truth of Man just passed him by.
              For in all his Acts... for food and drink
                       he called on Darkness and did not think.

              And in his Delusion of different skin
                           he did not see their Godness within.
              While in his Pain of War and Might
                      his Selfness but bled... his Godly Light.

              But in this Aquarian New Age Design
                           Man's Mind and Planets are to align.
              And he will know... that his Self... so odd
                          is the very Creator and the only God.

              For Man... this Creature of Eons old
                         is the true Designer and Builder bold.
              For his Worlds and Stars are made in Mind
                     by his hidden Thoughts... the silent kind.

              Flowing forth forever... from his Mental Twin
                     from this Human God... the Creator within.

              But now... that Man has found his Source
                         his Inner God will direct his Course.
              Embracing Brothers from Time and Space
                              for Consciousness is of ONE Race.
              And through our Cosmic Mind Divine
                       we move... and share our Bread and Wine.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08171-1980







                             AND DON'T KNOW WHY
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              We do not really want our Loving
                    and should but be as Friend to Friend
              For all the Sadness we slowly gather
                                will be too Painful in the End.

              But yet our daring Love in hunger
                        creating Thoughts we cannot still
              Is far too far from neutral Feelings
                                 to be denied in spite of Will.

              And in the times we meet in Silence
                      hiding the Words beyond our Thought
              We but live in little moments
                             that our togetherness has wrought.

              For the so lovely State of Loving
                        and the Pleasure we both do share
              Cannot deny the State of Knowing
                             that both of us should never care.

              Yet... in the Touching of our Being
                      we softly tremble... so deep inside
              To touch again.. with Silent Knowing
                            the Feelings both of us can't hide.

              While the Advice from Inner Sources
                      keep steady telling us to Self-Deny
              Yet... we obey the Secret Voices
                       that Lovers love.... and don't know why.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08172-1980







                          HIS TASTE AND DAILY CREED
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               If I could 'poet' at lightning speed
                        it would be useless and without need
                        for the reader's eye cannot exceed
                        what his mind could grasp in greed.

               But even adopting to the Human Breed
                        with the steady pace of a centipede
                        is still too fast to get him keyed
                        for poet's thoughts he doesn't need.

               For in all the lines that I do feed
                        he sees but words and not the heed.
                        And all he swallows... indeed... indeed
                        is worldly weed and not the seed.

               I wonder if I would succeed
                        if I wrote poems of sex and greed
                        with boobs galore and super-steed
                        to suit his taste and daily creed?

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08173-1980







                              AND TO NEVER DIE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             The Teacher of Man... the Greatest of All
                     started his Glory when born in a Stall
             And when he was little... his Wisdom Divine
                     silenced the Learned of Temple and Shrine
             With Words of Mansions and Paradise Earth
                     of Truth Eternal... within Man from Birth
             Engraved in Silence... hidden in Soul
                     to be followed by living... making us Whole
             For the Truth of his Words... older than Time
                     is the Secret of Life... by Spirit Sublime.

             For the Knowing of Ages... through living Life
                     is stored in Soul by the Struggle and Strife
             That we daily encounter on the Path of Ascend
                     to follow the way of the Master and Friend.

             For he who came... to show us his Way
                     was teaching us Man... by Love-Portray.
             And we who follow the Path of the Cross
                     do need his Guidance to gain our Loss
             In the Valley of Self... on the Ridges of I
                     to join him in Time... and to never die.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08174-1980







                                   ALWAYS
                                   ~~~~~~

             Since I know...
                   that there is nothing I can learn
                               from what there is outside of me.

                         I dwell inside...
                                    and learn ALL.

                   For in the Silence...
                          of my Inner Being
                                  I find the Light
                                            that's living.

                         Life itself... by Knowing.

             While ALL that I ever get to know...
                                   is nothing more
                                      and nothing less
                                                  than ME.

                                                     THE KNOWER.

             And while I the KNOWER live Life
                                in whatever Form or Being
                          in whatever Plane or Level
                                                I am That
                                                    what I know.

                          Nothing MORE...
                                      nothing LESS.

                                   ALWAYS.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08175-1980







                               IN SELFISH NEED
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I write and write...
                          and who does care?
                                 Another Writer... here or there?

           A Writer who does not really need...
                                    the Thoughts I feel and need.

           For he himself...
                  in tip top shape
                         knows that writers can't escape...
                  the Silent Thoughts that tumble down
                                to be dressed up in Suit or Gown.

           For the one who writes...
                             is in the know...
                  that tumbling Thoughts are pure as Snow
                  and softly fall... from who knows where
                              to be expressed by Words that Care.

                  So this is....
                       why just him and I
                              but write and write...
                                       and don't know why.

           For the Masses never touch a Poem or Book
                                    or neither even care to look.

           For Words to them are all the same
                           beyond their Mind... beyond their Aim.

                  And all they do with eager Greed
                             is be a Body in selfish Need.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 08176-1980







                                AND OURSELVES
                                ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                  I my Friends...
                         I'm only here to learn.
                  And what is Valuable to me...
                            indeed might be Useless to you.

                  But it is wrong to think...
                         that somebody knows it all
                             and somebody else is ignorant.

                      For All of Us are here to learn.

             While None of Us will ever learn anything
                      when we keep rejecting each other
                                 because we have different views.

             For to keep rejecting each other
                          denies us the opportunity
                                        to learn from each other.

             And the Learning we have to do...
                                  is... to learn from each other.

                  For 'that' is...
                          the only thing there is to learn.

                  While All of Us...
                                 at all times...
                           are the Student and the Teacher.

                  Hiding within ourselves...
                                         to find the Truth.

             Waiting to be found...
                  by teaching and learning from each other.
                                                   And Ourselves.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                08177-1980




                           FROM WHERE I SHARE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


               Whether I am one of the many...
                       or whether I am the 'top' of a few
               It would not matter the least of all
                        if I could not share the ONE I am.

               For it is the 'sharing'...
                             of the ONE I am
                       that determines
                             whether I belong to...
                                             the many...
                                             the few...
                                             or the 'top'.

               For only when I share...
                                do I know that I am there.

                       And do not ask...
                                from where I share.


                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09178-1980






                            DIVINITY IN PEACE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           It is not...
                 that the Part that is God
                        and the Part that isn't
                               do not want to cease to Struggle.

           It is just...
                 that the Part that is
                      and the Part that isn't God
                                  cannot surrender to...
                                     the Completeness of Peace.

           For the 'two' Parts are still two.
                       But the God-Part...
                              is blending more and more...
                                      within the Oneness of Me.

           And by the Flowing Together
                      of the slowly indistinguishable Parts
                                     Godness
                              will be my Becoming.

           And Godness is Sameness...
                      within the Oneness of Beingness
                                       within 'that' what I am.

           Beyond Time and Space.
                      Beyond knowing where and when.
                      But all within the Moment of Nowness
                                           within the God I am.

                    Portraying... Divinity in Peace.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09179-1882






                             CUTE AND SMALL
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             I am Love...
                    and I do give it
                            to the Greatest of them all.

             I am Love...
                    and I do share it
                          with the Children Cute and Small.

             For in our World...
                    so full of smugness
                        In our World...
                                  so quite insane

             I come and go...
                    in Silent Goodness
                            and hug the Sick...
                                  to be Humane.

             And all the cuddling...
                   and all the hugging
                               I give in Love...
                                           to them in need.

             I make them grow...
                     in Self and Loving...
                                 the Total Man...
                                           the Human Breed.

           For I am Love...
                      and I do give it
                               to the Greatest of them all.

           For I am Love...
                      and I do share it...
                              with the Children...
                                            Cute and Small.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09180-1980






                       WITH THE SILENCE OF KNOWING
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The World of Books...
                     and the World of Words...
                                      you might know...
                                 will never bring you Peace.

         For Peace...
               is born within.

                      Deep within the Self...
                                     by Struggle...
                                          that is conquered
                            by winning the War Within.

         So in the Days ahead...
               and in the Chaos yet to come
                     please remember my Friend...
                              that you are not the World
                              and that the World is not you.

         You only live here upon this World
                        to find the Peace Within...
                                     by Thoughts of Peace
                                         for Yourself
                                   and for your Brother Man.

         So... go then... in Love and Peace...
                                with the Silence of Knowing.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09181-1980






                        THE FEELINGS OF THE HEART
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         If you can understand me with your Heart...
                             for sure it is to blow your Mind.

              And if you follow me in Mind...
                          your Heart will hurt and die.

         So do not listen with your Mind.
                            But hear my Words with your Heart.

         For listening is but Mind-Stuff and Division...
                               while hearing is Heart-Stuff...
                                        and Oneness.

         So find the Reflection of yourself within
                      through the encounter of your Heart
                             that's hearing the Words I Speak
                                         to the you...
                                              you are...
                                         about the you within.

         Hear them with the Feelings of the Heart
                                about the Experiences of Life.

         And never listen to the Pictures of Mind...
                          depicting the Shifting of Divisions.

         For Heart is Spirit.... feeling.
               And Mind is but Mind is but Mind.
                        Useless in producing Feelings...
                                    the Feelings of the Heart.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09182-1980






                           MENTALITY IN SEARCH
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          HAPPINESS...
                a word so very few understand
                         For most of us are looking for it.

                Most of us want Happiness.
                    And He... who is looking for it
                                       will never find it.
                                     For he is too busy looking.

          And as long as you are busy looking...
                           Happiness is impossible to find.

                    For it always is...
                           where you just did not look yet.
                    And instantly moves to where you just looked.

          So quit looking...
                    and you will experience it.
                          For Happiness is... Peace of Mind.

                And Peace of Mind...
                               is not just a substitute.
                            Peace of Mind is the REAL thing.

         Peace of Mind is REST.
                And looking for Happiness is wanting.
                                        Wants are Desires.
                                          The Opposites of Peace.

         To look for Happiness...
                     is a thing of the Mind.
               And Minds only fulfill themselves...
                      with the Fulfillments of the same Nature...

                                 Mentality in Search.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09183-1980






                           TO FIND YOUR TRUTH
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        To be born...
              is to enter your own Dream.
                                You are the Dreamer.
                         Your Dream then is your Creation.

        For You... in manners you are not aware of...
                           are... the God and Creator...
                                          of your own Being...
                                                and your own Life.

        Your Parents are but the Channels...
                            of your Physical Becoming.

                   And you... coming into your Body are the Entity
                         that enters Physical Reality to learn.
                              To learn about YOU.
                                     To learn about LIFE.

        You are the Creator of the Life you are...
                             and of the Life you are living.

               You are... the Dreamer and the Creator...
                         that creates your Life...
                                 that creates your Being...
                                     that creates the God you are.

        And unless your Parents tell you
                             the same as the above...
                        do not believe what you are told.

               For the Channels...
                    that brought you in the Body...
                                            are but your Channels.
                                  And not necessarily...
                                                your Teachers.

               You are the Teacher.
                         You are the Pupil.
                            You are the One... to find Your Truth.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09184-1980






                     THE CENTRE OF REST IN I-AMNESS
                     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        I am Motion...
                  standing still.

                   For Peace of Mind...
                           has commanded Stillness to Motion.

                   And the 'Standing Still' I am...
                                            is Motion itself.

        For I am ALL.
               For I am....
                    the Life of the Universe...
                          in complete Rest and Solitude.

                               As if frozen in Peace
                                                    of
                                                      Ages.

        Peace of Ages...
            that never were...
                 but in Minds of Motion.
                      In the Stillness of Knowing Silence.


        I am Motion...
                  standing still.

                          For Peace of Mind
                                has commanded Stillness
                                                   to Motion.

            And in the Midst of Insanity...
                    I am The Center of Rest in I-amness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09185-1980






                                ALL IS ME
                                ~~~~~~~~~

               In the Innermost Core of my Being...
                                                I AM ALONE.

               But yet I share with you
                            - The Totality of Man -
                                               I am Within.

                   And when I speak to you...
                              I speak to you for Many.

               For in the Aloneness of my Being...
                                             - I AM ALL -
                                            that ever were.

               And within the Restfulness of Purity
                         amidst the Beauty of Aloneness
                              I am fulfilled to Completion.

               For in the Shrine...
                               where I...
                               and my Aloneness meet...
                                                 ALL is ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09186-1980






                                AWAKENED
                                ~~~~~~~~

               How can I...
                          awaken Thee?
                                     There is no way.

               And by trying...
                     I would prove to be...
                                 The Perfect Sleeper.

               So forgive me...
                     for being ME...
                              in your Dream.

               And when you will find the need...
                                to not forgive me anymore...

                                 You will be...
                                          like I am...
                                                   AWAKENED.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09187-1980






                        A MASSIVE BATTERED CHILD
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            The Eons and Eons...
                          that have seen Man
                    Have seen and know...
                                    a Planless Clan.

            Although...
                    each One of Them in turn
                          has all the Plans for his Sojourn.

            But coming in the Land of Flesh...
                          all the Plans he has in Mind
                                 are of a self and ego kind.

            That's why...
                    the Race of Man runs wild
                                         resembling
                                   a massive battered Child.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09188-1980






                                SO WHAT?
                                ~~~~~~~~

    I am here... because I like to be here.
                I am here... because of ME.  I like it here.
    I am here... because I love myself.
                  And since I love myself... I can love You.

    And I do.  For All of You are my Friends.
        And you are not my Friends just because  you are listening.
               You are my Friends because within you...
                           I find the Parts that are missing in ME.

          You complete ME.
                 Without you... I am only ME.
                                With You... I am All of You.
                                With You... I am You and ME.


          When you listen to me...
               you will hear things...
                         you have never heard before.

                                      They are all True.
                                                 True to ME.

          And what you think about them...
                                  I do not care about.
                        But please be not insulted...
                                             by what you hear.
                                       For it is only ME saying it.

    Things are not True...
            because I say them.
                    Things are True...
                            because you find them to be True.
                                                   Sooner or Later.
                                           And if not...
                                                    SO WHAT?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09189-1980






                             A PERFECT BEING
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Life... your Life and mine...
                           is the Process...
                   whereby you and I raise each other...
                                                and ourselves...
                               to an ever becoming...
                                             State of Greatness.

               This Process...
                       is of an Eternal Duration.
                                  And it will never be finished.

         The State of Greatness...
                       to be reached by you and I...
               is entirely and completely up to you and I.
                                 And our Potential is Unlimited.

         How much Unlimited means...
                          I do not really know.

                For I have only an inkling of its meaning...
                                             and its importance.

                This inkling tells me...
                                     that I...
                          by my own efforts eventually...
                                                   will be...

                                                A PERFECT BEING.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09190-1980






                           THIS ACTION IS GOD
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              And People say...
                     that God in his Wisdom
                                       shared ALL
                                 there was to be shared.

         And the Shares...
                 that God passed along...
                           are counted by the Fools.
                                     But the Wise never bother.

         For he...
               who is worth his Share...
                                     knows
                       that Shares grow by using them
                                      and diminish by counting.

         And I say...
              that he who shares his Shares...
                           is the Wisest of Them All.

                               For he approaches God in Wisdom.

         He who approaches God in Wisdom
               is the only one who is counted by Wisdom itself.

                Wisdom itself...
                    can neither be counted or estimated.
                         For its Quantity...
                                 contains all Qualities.

                     Gathered together...
                                  in but ONE Action.

                         This Action... is God.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09191-1980






                        THE PATH BEHIND IS EQUAL
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         People ask... why do you write...
                        and I answer... why shouldn't I.
         And then they say...
                                   yes... but if you follow Jesus
                         you should not have to write.
                                  For Jesus never wrote a word.

               And then my dear Friends...
                                I come loose...
                                     and let them have it.

               For I am not following Jesus.
                                I cannot follow him.
                                         For he is Jesus.
                                             And I am Gerardus.

         I am not him.
              I cannot follow him.
                      For his Path is useless to me.
                                            Absolutely useless.

         Oh yes...
              my Goal is the same.  Sure.
                     But our Ways are different.
                                      His path is his.
                                           My Path is mine.
                                                      Solitary.

         And although I do not follow...
                             I go where he went.
              While as soon as I find my Goal...
                             I have covered his Footsteps.
              Yet none of his Footsteps show ahead.
                                  But the Path behind is equal.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09192-1980






                          YOU ARE THE REALITY
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Each Life is a Dream.
                   And all Dreams are Real.
              Each Life I dream...
                        makes me the Dreamer...
                                  a more perfect Dreamer.
                                                 By dreaming.

         For all the Lessons I encounter
                as the Dreamer in all my Dreams
                                        provide for me...
                               the experience needed...
                                        to awaken to REALITY.

                The REALITY of AWAKENING...
                                 to the Creator I am.

                        The Creator of Dreams...
                                          called Life.
                                     And 'ALL' that is in IT.

         All things that make up my Dreams
                            - my Lives in the Physical -
                 are of a Nature of Realness...
                       that is accepted as Real by my Senses.

         But all things are...
                 my own manifested Consciousness.
             And not anything in the Physical Reality...
                                              is really REAL.

                     Yet... ALL my Dreams are Real.

         And ALL things that appear in my Dreams are real.
                    But only within the Reality of my Dreams.

              The whole thing is quite confusing...
                                and why shouldn't it be?

        Finally coming down to the fine point of it all...
                    not ANYTHING is really REAL...
                                              but YOU.

                                        YOU ARE THE REALITY .

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09193-1980






                            FOR BOTH ARE BOTH
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Being a Friend...
                is being both You and the Friend.
                                      Without any Division...
                               without any Difference.

          Being a Friend...
                     is being Both.
                          By feeling Pleasure double...
                                          and Pain only half.

               Being a Friend also is...
                      not knowing whose Friend is whose.

               For Both are halves of one Whole.
                            And the Whole...
                                  does not know...
                                             who is who.

               There is no Difference...
                        nor Division between Friends.

                                           For Both are Both.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09194-1980






                               I REALLY AM
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

         I....
           this Tower of Strength...
                       have erected myself...
                                upon a Foundation of Weakness.

         And all the Smiles I project...
                 are born from a Pool of Questions.
                            Hiding the Faces full of Tears
                                          I pretend not to be.

         And all the Faces...
                 being all the me's I project
                                   never tell any man
                                          of the Child inside.

         For beyond this Tower of Light
                             is the Source of Darkness.
                   Displaying the Will to Live
                                    by hiding the Will to Die.

         And in this Show of pretended Wisdom...
                         hiding behind the Light I am not
                                 the Masks I wear...
                               do not really conceal...
                                            the Trueness I am.

             I....
                 this Tower of Strength...
                              topple toward Despair
                        in ignorance...
                                   of the REALITY...
                                              I really am.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09195-1980






                               CALLED YOU
                               ~~~~~~~~~~

               What is Life?
                         What is God?
                                  What is Consciousness?

                     And who is it...
                               that wants to know?

               Please remember...
                    that the answer is hidden
                                       beyond Infinity.
                               And never will be understood.

                       The answer is beyond reach.

               Which is Beautiful and Just.

                    For the not finding of the answer
                             is the Solution to the Problem.

          For Life...
                  God...
                      and Consciousness
                                are realities
                                      that are Nameless...
                                                  and the Same.

          These realities...
                  in Totality in Eternal Time...
                                    form the Creation...
                                                    called YOU.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09196-1980






                             KNOWING MYSELF
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         How Beautiful Life is...
                       I do not know.
                                For there is so little...
                                                      I know.

         But whatever it is...
                  I know about Life...
                           fills me with Awe and Inspiration.

         And every time...
                  I learn more about Life...
                        I become more and more aware...
                                               of its Beauty.

         Just imagine...
             what Life really will be like...
                          when I know how to practice...
                                                 what I know.

         And then...             imagine again...
                  what Life will be like...
                       when I practice what I know...
                                          without knowing it.

         Then I will be...
                    what I should be.

               A Being...
                    that cannot be any other way...
                                           but Itself.

                                     Knowing ALL...
                                             Knowing Myself.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09197-1980






                              I'M USED TO IT
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Task I have is difficult...
                for the possibility to succeed is very small.
                        And the difficulty encountered...
                                               is very great.

         Why don't you help me to achieve a small part of it?
                By being open-minded...
                        and by listening with your Heart.

         For to tell you...
                  the Truth I know...
                            and make it understood...
                  is a Task as great as the Duration of Time.

                  But worth doing for me...
                             for there is nothing else to do.

         But without your help...
                     I cannot achieve anything.

                     For You have to do the Understanding
                                     While I but utter words.

         So listen.
               Listen to me...
                     with patience of Heart.

                     For to know some of my Truth...
                                          is to your Benefit.

               And if you don't like it...
                                 pass it back to me.
                                              I'm used to it.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09198-1980







                                I PROVIDE
                                ~~~~~~~~~

               My Pen is the Link...
                         between the Minds I am.
               And when it writes...
                         I am the one who is reading.

          And whoever wants to speak...
                            appears on the Paper I provide.
          Up to now... many have spoken...
                                    and much has been said.

               Yet... in all the Ages of Living...
                        Words will never cover the lot.

               For it is the Feeling...
                              of the Hearts I am...
                        that unites and becomes...
                                    the Love behind my Pen.

          The Love behind my Pen...
                    expressing the Thoughts I receive...
               from the Hearts in Love that write...
                          in Silent Communion of Oneness...
                    flowing forth...
                              from the Link I am...
                                          through my Pen...
                                     on the Paper...
                                                 I provide.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09199-1980






                            I TRIED TO SHARE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         With the Smugness of Mind
              and with the Contentment of Soul
                    she enjoys the Pleasures of the Body...
                                                 in being Total.

         Living her Life
              by the Splendor of her Thoughts
                                 that form her Prison
                        with Walls of Tranquillity...
                                      and Windows without a Sky.

         While yet...
              in the most Lovely Serenity
                   she's happy in her Universe of Light...
                        owning the Peace of her Mind
                                to make her what she is...
                                              A Pearl of Heaven.

         A Pearl of Heaven... in love...
                     and yet not completely loving...
                she enjoys and endures her World of Lovers
                                that wander and are amazed by...
                           her Beauty in being...
                                      the God she is.

         And all this...
                while I know...
                       that in the Days yet to come...
                                    she will Bloom in Knowing...
                             the Love for the World
                                               I tried to share.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09200-1980






                            IT'S AWFUL SHORT
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        While you are reading this...
                   the first half of Eternity just passed by.
              And the second half...
                   will be spent in the Eternal Now.
                                   It's called... the Future.

        At this very moment then...
              the past and the Future...
                                  are kept apart...
                            by the Eternal Now...
                         in order for you to utilize...
                                   the Moment of the Present.

                           Please use it well.

         For if you do not live in the Present
             by spending your Time in the Past or Future
                                  you are missing...
                                           ALL THREE OF THEM.

         For the Past and the Future...
                   are Thoughts in the Eternal Now.

             And only should be thought about...
                    when you have no living to do...
                               in the Present Instant...
                                                  of Nowness.

         Think about it... before it is too late.
                   Now is the Time... to think about Nowness.

              So use the Time...
                       between the Past and the Future.

                            It's awful short.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09201-1980







                           KNOWER OF THE PAST
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I am a Student of the Future...
                           and a Knower of the Past
           While in this Body... that is living...
                               is invested... the ME to last.


           And within the Nature of my Being...
                                and the Life I represent
           Is the Secret of my Greatness...
                              formed by Time... I did ascend.


           While in the Eons of the Future
                          in which I study the One that's Me
           My Greatness will surmount more Greatness
                             for that's the Way I can but be.


           To finally find the God that's hidden
                         beyond a Greatness vaster than vast
           By being a Student of the Future...
                                    and a Knower of the Past.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               09202-1980







                                RIGHT NOW
                                ~~~~~~~~~

            In the Lives I have been living
                   I have seen Tears and many Smiles
            And all of them... in pure abundance
                                 lasted but for tiny Whiles.


            While the only thing of pure Duration
                      and guaranteed for Life to last
            Is the Smile that's found in living
                             in neither Future nor the Past.


            So live and smile in full Endeavour
                   with the Knowledge and Wisdom how
            To but enjoy your Smile forever
                          by being You... yes You...
                                                  RIGHT NOW.


                    -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              09203-1980





                       YOU LIVE IN IT... YOURSELF
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           The God that you created...
                            is not the God that created you.
                 What or Who then...
                                is your Creator?

                        And the answer is... YOU.

           Yes... YOU are your own Creator.

                        You are a God and Creator...
                                              in the Making.

                      You are a Becoming Greatness.

           For all you do... in this Life...
                               and in any other...
               adds to your Experience and Knowledge...
                           to eventually bloom into Godness.

        All your Lives...
             and all the Attitudes towards your lives and living
                      accumulates to make up...
                               the Maker of You... You are.

        You are your own Maker.
                   You are your own Creator.

                And your Soul...
                         the Individual Consciousness you are
                                   is the Creator...
                                         and Maintainer...
                                         of the Body you live in.

        Your Body ... is the Instrument...
                          you experience as your Creation.

                                      YOU LIVE IN IT... YOURSELF.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10204-1981






                           THE ONLY NECESSITY
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         When a Person...
              finally becomes of any use to himself...
                   he has discovered...
                        that he was only...
                                       half a Person.
                                          The Rational Half.

         And the half he does not know...
                              is the Intuitive Half.

             After knowing this...
                         he can slowly become ONE WHOLE.

                The Rational Half is Mind.
                         The Intuitive Half is Heart.

                   The First is Thinking.
                             The Second is Feeling.

                       Both together...
                                 form Awareness.

             By practice...
                any Person can learn to add
                              these two dimensions together.

                And can become...
                           Total Awareness or Godness.

                    To do this...
                              is The Only Necessity.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10205-1981







                            THE KEY TO LIVING
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Everyone we know...
                   is looking for the Key.
             The Key to Peacefulness
                       and the Awareness in Knowing
                                    the Christ Consciousness.

         Most of the People we know...
                   are looking for this Key
                                  outside of themselves.

                           Somehow there is more light there.

         The Key however...
                        is inside.
                                  And always was.

         So forget...
              about the outside clues.
                             Look for the inside ones.

         And then slowly...
              you will find the Peacefulness...
                                 of the Christ Consciousness.

              Which means...
                   to Love the World...
                         to Love Yourself.

                         And to know...
                                    what you are.

                                    This is...
                                           the Key to Living.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10206-1981







                       KNOWING GOD... KNOWING YOU
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

              To make something simple...
                                 difficult
                           is the way of the Ego.

              To make something difficult...
                                         simple
                                is the way of the Heart.

              To manage both the Ego...
                                     and the Heart
                                is the Task of the Soul.

         To know why all three are needed
                                and make you a Human Being
                          is Godness in Practice...
                                              or Divine Wisdom.

         The Ego is the Conscious Mind of Self.
             The Heart is the Intuitive Higher Self.
                              The Soul is the Director of Both.

             Godness is the Impetus of Thought...
                                           that knows how.

         Understanding is...
                  what you are all about.
                       When you understand... you are Balanced.

                 Then... neither Questions...
                                  nor Answers are needed.

                 To be Balanced means...
                      having found the Peace of Selfhood.

                    It means...
                          Knowing God... Knowing You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10207-1981









                        IT'S DIFFERENT THAN MINE
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         My Poems reflect what is.
                   But do not get caught by your Emotions.

               Your Emotions are not you.
                       Emotions are things you have.
                                     Like eggs for breakfast.

         To write without Emotions...
                             is impossible.
                    And to read or hear my Poems...
                             without becoming involved...
                                          is also impossible.

         Please understand...
             that all you feel...
                     sense or emote from and by...
                                 is but a State of Mind.
                                                   Your Mind.

         For you are the Creator...
                   of ALL that exists for you.

         So enjoy... feel... and 'be'...
                   the Emotions behind my Words.
                                But do not become them.

             What I write about...
                      is.... what is to me.

                            What is to You...
                                     I do not know.

             You are the Creator... and the Controller...
                                            of Your Universe.

                        It's different than Mine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10208-1981







                        YOU ARE GOD..... IN PLAY
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Super-Confidence...
                   is... what is needed.
                                  By All of Us.

               It's needed...
                         to tangle Life...
                   and learn to control ourselves.

         We have to learn this...
               while we are on Earth.
                              It's difficult.

                              For it means...
                                   to create a God...
                                         by training an animal.

        It takes Time.
               It takes Experience.
                       It takes Endurance.
                                 It takes Detachment.

               All these are learned...
                       in all the Lives we live on Earth.

                       The Trick is...
                              to become a Witness...
                                       to the SELF in the Body.

               The SELF is God.

                       God's Play... is OUR LIFE.

               God is Super-Confidence...
                              and you are God... in Play.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10209-1981







                          WITH THOUGHTS OF YOU
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

      My Love... is my Mirror.
             My Mirror... is my Love.

             And with you my Love...
                      with you my Mirror...
                                I like to share a Thought or two.

             Just for the Sake of Comfort...
                   and to help me find the Rambling I am.

      For all the Calmness... you are my Mirror...
             and the patient Reflection you are to me...
                                              gives me rest...
                                                   and Clearness.

      For within the Thoughts I am...
                 my Mind wanders... where no Mind ever goes.

             For in the Hours of Searching...
                         within the Scrambling I am...
                              I cannot find the Self I should be.

             All I see... is Loveliness...
                       with an Image that is your Smile.

       And your Smile...
             tells me to yield... to loving...
                       the Love I cannot have for knowing...
                                                that I am Strong.

      Yet I am but Weakness...
             for wandering in Dreams of Mind...
                             and Thoughts I entertain.

            Thoughts that are so lively within me...
                             to bring me down to Tears...
                                                 and Sadness.

               For being so alone... with Thoughts of You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10210-1981







                          OF BEAUTY AND SPLENDOR
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         In all the Universes... I have lived
                     I missed the Love of Splendor...
                                               within my Soul.

         And in all the Worlds... I was Flesh
                     I turned from Music... I thought strange.

         But in this Dust of Dust... in being me
                     upon this Earth...
                          so full of Sparkling Pearls
             I can no longer close my Being...
                                to the so tearing Love...
                                        of Pearls in Splendor.


         And with the Soul...
                   that enlightens me in being...
               I will embrace this very Sparkling Pearl.

         To the Enticement of the Universe of Gods
                                     and the very Life...
                                            that is within me.

         So that the Strangeness... that is but Thought
                     will surrender to the Discovery
                of the Music that is enhancing the Flesh I am.

                To deliver me to Pleasure...
                                       of being me...
                              in Loving Pearls...
                                       of Beauty and Splendor.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10211-1981







                            BETRAYED BY GAPS
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Beyond the very Words...
                   that are but Signs of Language...
                             I hide the deepest Feelings.

               While the Gaps between the Words...
                             betray me... time and time again.

         And whatever I do...
                    to negate the Feelings I am...
                            I cannot stop them from appearing.

         For in the Silence of the Soul I am
                       I cannot hide the Light I share...
             with the Universe that has made me...
                                 the Writer of the Sense I am.

             Shining the Light of 'All That Is'
                         upon the Page of Ages in being.

             And for the Time... I am a Writer now
                 I have been a Reader for Eons and Eons.

         Witnessing the Universe fashioning its Pupil
               into a Being willing to learn its Lessons...
                         in the Art of being...
                               the Feeling beyond Words...
                                             betrayed by Gaps.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10212-1981







                            AND HANDS SO FREE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        In the Silence of my Thoughts...
                           I read your Letter... again.

                    And I know...
                           that I have touched you...
                                                deeper...
                                          than you knew you were.

        And then slowly... my Thoughts move me...
                    to where we shared the last Moments...
                                                     of being us.

                    I remember the Hands we felt.
                         The Hands that moved so freely...
                                                for they were us.

        And in the Depth of our Being...
                 we in Agony felt the Beauty of our Soul in Pain.

                    The Pain...
                          we call Love.
                                Love that cannot be.

             We enjoyed it...
                   with the Pleasures of Agony...
                               for Separation was upon us.

        We loved each other...
                        for what we were... and are...
                                        and that is why...
                                             we are still loving.
             For we know so well...
                       the Sufferings of each other...
                                 by the Togetherness of Us.

                       In Pain of Loving...
                                  and Hands so Free.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10213-1981







                              SO DESPERATELY
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Do not be jealous...
                   for I love the World.

               And the Reflection of my loving the World
                        is focussed through the Mirror you are.

               While the Light surrounding your Being
                              is the Source of my Existence...
                     and the Cause of my loving the World.

         And all the Stars at Night whisper
                of all the hidden Powers of all the Gods...
                                I do not care about...
                                                for I have You.

                     The Lens by which I am...
                               the Lover of the World...
                                              in Loving You.

         And the Night you told me...
                     that I could not love you...
               I slowly cried...
                        for you lied to me.

                                 Because I already did.
                                                So Desperately.


                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                10214-1981







                             FREEDOM IS TRUTH
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            The most Beautiful Promise...
                     from the very Depth of Existence...
                                    is
                        that One will live forever.

                            And Living...
                                     is Loving.

                     And if Love is not there...
                            Life is a compromise with Death.

            Do not think about this lightly...
                            For it is... The Truth of Being.

                   Living is Loving.
                           Loving is Freedom.
                                      Freedom is Truth.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10215-1981







                               AND LOVE ME
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

         Why do I write Poems?
                     Because I like it...
                                    I feel like it.

               So by writing...
                         I do what I feel like.

                   To do what you feel like...
                                   is good for you.

         Actually I do not really write.
                            My Guides and Helpers do.
                                                  I only type.

               Beyond and above me...
                      are the People that teach me.

               They are the Inspiration.
                         I am the 'doer' of things.
                                            Like typing Poems.

         I put into Physical Reality...
                     the Thoughts and Ideas
                                 of many good feeling Spirits.

                 I do not really know them.

                          But they sure know me.

                                             AND LOVE ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10216-1981







                          COME BACK AND LOVE ME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         It is impossible to forget...
                     a Soul that vibrates...
                              with a Frequency that modulates...
                        your own Soul to Beauty...
                                           and Splendidness.

         For forever...
                   you will miss
                             - the Beautiful Music -
                        that was created
                                    by being in Harmony.

         And continually...
                   you will long for
                             - the Fulfillment of Being -
                        that was within the Melody
                                              of being together.

         And when such a Soul is met...
                   a River of Tears cannot wash away...
                                         the Pain of Separation.

               For a Sparkle of Togetherness
                               builds Rainbows of Beauty
                    against rumbling Skies...
                                         of Thunder.

                    Oh Soul and Face...
                               come back and Love ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10217-1981







                                 MY VIEW
                                 ~~~~~~~

               God is my Father
                         Nature is my Mother
               The Universe is my Way
                         Eternity is my Kingdom
               Immortality is my Life
                         The Mind is my House
               Truth is my Worship
                         Love is my Law

                              Form is my Manifestation
                                        Conscience is my Guide
                              Peace is my Shelter
                                        Experience is my School
                              Obstacle is my Lesson
                                        Difficulty is my Stimulant
                              Joy is my Hymn
                                        Pain is my Warning
                              Work is my Blessing
                                        Light is my Realization.

         Friend is my Companion
                   Adversity is my Instructor
         Neighbour is my Brother
                   Struggle is my Opportunity

             Future Time is my Promise
                       Equilibrium is my Attitude
                 Order is my Path
                           Beauty is my Ideal

                                And Perfection is my Destiny.

           By Dr. Tolentino.
                      (Philippines)

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10218-1981







                              LISTEN OFTEN
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Do not think...
                   for one Moment...
               that there is any Force... but Yourself...
                          that determines...
                                        for you...
                                   what you should do...
                                               and shouldn't do.

         YOU...
              Yes YOU alone...
                        are the Force...
                              that determines you.

         YOU are the CREATOR...
                        of YOUR LIFE.

                 And to become FREE...
                                  is your AIM.

         While Freedom...
                   and Guiltlessness...
                             is the Approach to Perfection.

               Your Opinion is your Path.
                         Your Opinion is the Law for YOU.
                                   Your Opinion...
                                            is the Voice Within.
                                               Listen Often.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10219-1981








                                 YOU ARE
                                 ~~~~~~~

         What Life is to you...
                        is what Life is to you.

         And what Life is to me...
                        is what Life is to me.

               And if Life to you is...
                                 smelling Flowers
                                        By all means smell them.

               Life...
                   Your Life...
                       is an entirely independent Creation...
                                                         by YOU.

         Your Life...
              is YOUR Creation...
                        created by YOUR Thinking.
                   And if YOU don't think much...
                                   your Life will be a scramble.

         Your Life...
              is the Expression and Wishes...
                                       in Thought
                           that YOU project...
                                 from the Creator's Mind...
                                                        YOU ARE.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              10220-1981








                         I HAVE TOUCHED HER SOUL
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        She is the Beauty of Marble in Movement
                                      - Sculptured in Soul -
                       and graciously she carries...
                                               her Form.

               And the Delicate Intricacies
                                   of her Feeling Sense
                       are enlightening my Mind...
                                              to Wisdom.

               Her Touch quickens my Heart
                   and her Voice vibrates with Tenderness of Ages.

                       Ages witnessed by Love
                                  and the Equilibrium of Being.

         Her Eyes are the misty Pearls of Heaven.

                   Reflecting...
                        Worthiness of Self...
                             to the World she creates.

                   - She is in Love... and knows it -

               For with the Silences...
                           between my Words...
                                   I have touched her Soul.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10221-1981








                            AND HEART UNITES
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I am the man...
                  who since Time began
                              lived and worked
                                     for the Race of Man.

                  To teach and guide...
                            and do his Share
                                      for the World of Man
                                               that is his Care.

           And in the Time...
                      that is yet to come
                when the Future seems so dim and glum
                                 he's the one to speak and tell.

                For he's the one...
                          who knows so well...
                               that Soul is Life...
                                    and Flesh but Shell...
                          that Heart is Heaven...
                                    and Mind is Hell.

                     For Mind divides...
                                    and Heart unites.


                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10222-1981







                      THE UNIVERSE AND THE DEWDROP
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         From the very Source of Existence
                                       I have come.

         From the very Beginning of Time
                                       I was.

                   And from the very Light of God
                                                 I am.

             And when the Greatness I am...
                                     - knows -
                            the very Source of Existence...
                             the very Beginning of Time...
                              by the very Light of God...

                                       I will live in Splendor.

         And until then...
              the Silent Search...
                   and the Divine Discovery...
                                   of the 'ME' I am...
                                 will keep me in Ecstacy.

               To finally lead me...
                              to "All That Is"...
                                   the Source and the Becoming.

                     Then I will have found...
                                the ONE I am... and always was.

                                      The Universe...
                                               and the Dewdrop.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10223-1981







                           WITHIN THE ME I AM
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         There is a Depth within me
                  that never will be filled
                                       by Someone
                                           that is but Surface.

         And although the Surface bends
                                    cries
                                       and folds itself
                                                 around me...
                                              I am still Empty.

         For no Surface ever will fill Depth
                      to complete the Promise of Being...
                                          to be ONE in Oneness.

               For Surfaces but straddle Depth
                     and never can sense the Deepness
                                       of the Emptiness Within.

               While Depth absorbs within itself
                          many Surfaces
                                that are but lost Within
                                     the Spaceness of the Deep.

               The Spaceness of the Deep
                           that shows no Shallowness
                                             for Surfaces
                                       to Self-Reflect in ever.

         There is thus a Gap in Dimensions
                   that only Time can fill with Space
                         and no Soul can fill with Willingness.

         And how lonely I thus am
                 until I find the Toucher of the Depth...
                                            within the me I am.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10224-1981







                   WITHIN THE BRILLIANCE OF OUR BEING
                   ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         And although I am Brilliant...
                       I could never be so...
                           if my Love would not reflect
                                   the very Light I am
                                 by being my Perfect Reflection
                                         in Brilliance.

               For through My Reflection
                                   do I know
                                       The ME I am.

               It has brought out...
                                from within ME
                                      the Very Light I am.


         My Love and I...
               Two Thoughts in the Mind of the Creator.

                                       The Creator we are.

                      By being each other's Mind
                                     within the Isness of Love.

               The Isness of Love...
                       that never measures Time.

                                   For it is Time itself.

                       By Sharing Love Forever...
                                within the Brilliance...
                                                 of our being.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10225-1981








                          IN BEING LIFE ITSELF
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I have loved Bodies
                        with Body.

                  I have loved Minds
                                with Mind.

               And in the Passions of Loving
                                        Bodies...
                                             Minds...
                                 and all that's in between
                           I have touched the Well of Pleasure
                        to the Depth of Disappearance very often.

               But I had never touched...
                              the Subtleness of Soul.

               And now that I have been
                          the Delicate and Elusive
                                     Fragrance of Life itself
                     I will leave to the World
                          the Poisons of the Passions...
                                  the Bodies and the Minds...
                                           and ALL
                                      that's in between.

         For I will but be touching...
                               SOUL with SOUL...
                                            in being LIFE itself.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10226-1981







                          IGNORANCE IS DARKNESS
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         How can a Buddha be...
              and how can a Jesus become 'The Christ'...
                                    without a Gerardus growing?

               For the One cannot be...
                              without the Other.

               And that is why
                      in Time to come
                              I will be...
                                    The Buddha...
                                          The Christ...
                                               and 'all'...
                                          They represent to ME.

         For 'The Light' within Me
                             has awakened
                                    my Soul to Godness.

                     In all the Splendor...
                                  of the Selfhood I am.

               And to you...
                    maybe new to all this Godness
                         your newness might make you skeptical.

         By all means...
              be what you are.
                      Be Skeptical.
                             Be Undecided.
                                    But don't be Afraid.

         To be Afraid...
                 is walking on a Path in Ignorance.

                                         Ignorance is Darkness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               10227-1981





    IN THE EVENING OF THE RACE OF MAN IN DARKNESS
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I have come to your Prison
                        to unlock the Gate.
                 And tear down the Walls
                             that you have built...
                                        by the Thoughts you are.

         And although your Prison is safe and easy
                    I will have to bring you out and expose you.
              Expose you to the Life you are...
                                  within your Walls
                           of such a limited Confinement.

         For in the Eternity that you are but a Second
                   the Time has come to be that Second in Total.
               And there is no Force that can stop me.
                          For it is your Force that has told me
                    to liberate the Beauty that is within.
                              Within the you...
                                     you do not know.

         And the unlocking of the Gate of your Prison
                             is the Opening of the Mind you are.
              To Beautify your Soul in Waiting...
                             for the Light of the God...
                      you always were...
                                but did not know.

         So listen to the Sounds that are my Words.
                 For they are spoken by the Force that is yours.
                        And dwells in the Depth...
                                  of your Godly Being.
         For it is this Force that has told me...
                           to awaken the Beauty within.
               For it is ready to receive...
                            the Splendor of the Gods...
                    residing within the Mind... you do not know.

         And with closed eyes I guide you
              through the Pathways of the Mind you are
                            in Search for the Honey of the Gods
                                   that dwell within you.
                                And you but know as Strangers.

         And while Eternities became the Past
                      you slept among the Pimps of Darkness
                               enticing you to the Life you are.

                  Leading you to the Thoughts of Peace.

         While Peace itself was missing its Peacefulness...
                                          of being You at Peace.

         That is why I have come...
                    to bring the Cosmic Honey.
            Not to entice you to the Taste of Sweetness...
                             of the Darkness within...
                     but to bring out the Colours of Life...
                                          you are in Brilliance.

                        And you have never known.
               But yet are the Very Splendor of Yourself.

         So let me speak of Pathways...
                    hidden within the very Mind you are.
              And let me speak of the Gods...
                                 that you but know as Strangers.

              But know you...
                      as One of Them in Godness...
                                         and in Brilliance.

         So...
            in the Evening of the Race of Man in Darkness...
                                              I have come to be.

                    To bring some Light to guide you.

            And although the Time of Learning is but short
                      some Sounds will find the Home of Hearing.

                         To be understood for what they are.
                                   Truth itself.

           In undiluted Form...
                       and inconceivable Beauty.
                For they are spoken by the Gods themselves.

                    Speaking through but me... their Instrument.

           And yet the Light and Knowledge I have to share...
                                is the same...
                   as the Truth that is within the Gods you are.

               It is but that the Gods you are...
                                        are fast asleep.

                             But ready to awaken...
                                           by the Light
                                     that is within the me I am.

           And not to blind you...
                      is the Task I have to bear.
                               For the Light I try to share...
                      is difficult for you...
                                    to accept or to acknowledge.

           For you are shaded by the Ages of Darkness
                                        within the Mind you are.

                          By being Man the Physical too long.

         So on the Evening of the Race of Man in Darkness...
                   just open up your Heart...
                            and listen with your Soul...
                                            so ready to receive.

         And although I speak of Gods...
                      I can but show you the God I am.

               And although I speak of Light...
                         I can but show you the Light that's Me.

         But even...
              even if I could show you
                               the Abundance
                         and the Multitude of Gods
                                         that are my Peers.

              You would not see them...
                             because of Darkness.

                      The Darkness...
                            in which you grope for Light.
                                     The Light...
                                               You are Yourself.

         For in the Eons and Eons of being Man
                         you cannot find Yourself for Gods.

             The Gods...
                  that are the Concoctions of your Mind...
                                          and all their Heavens.

               While the True God...
                         - the God You are Within -
                                     is the God you do not know.

         For the Gods I speak of...
                             and the Light...
                   the Light you can't but see for Darkness...
                                  are the very Beings...
                                                     YOU ARE.

         For 'All That Is' is Consciousness.
                                The Consciousness of Man.

                    The Consciousness of the Creator.
                                                  The Man...
                                              Man does not know.

         And when you are listening...
                        to the Words I speak...
                                        remember.
                              It is not really I who speak.

                      But the very Gods you are...
                                       and do not know.

         For within the One you are
                        lives the Greatness of your Soul
                                                     in Silence.

                                Waiting.

         Waiting until you cease your Scheming...
                                    and cease the Noise you are.

            For by all the Thinking and the Talking...
                you have lost the 'You' in 'You'
                       that lives within your very Soul.
                                                The God you are.

         But yet.
               There is still Time.
                         For Time is but your Thinking.

               So cease your Mind.
                          Your Mind of Earth.
                    And listen to your Mind of Self.
                                           It's waiting...
                                               and always ready.

         For the 'You' in 'You'...
                   is the Soul you are.

                   The God to be...
                           by listening to the Sound
                                                 I utter.

                   Through the Instrument...
                                          that's YOU.


                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11228-1981









                         TO FIND THE ME IN TOTAL
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Yes... all the Beauty...
                   of all the Flowers...
                           of all the Fields
                                  in all the Worlds
                   cannot possibly be equal
                           to the Beauty I feel
                                    when I am in your Presence.

         For my Soul is lifted
              to a Level of Elation
                      my Mind has never known.

               And because of your Loveliness...
                         I become enchanted to the Delight
                    of the Feelings you project to be Yourself.

         And then I know...
                that I know it.

                      I am in Love again.
                                    And suffering.

         Why couldn't I just be
                        - what I am -
                              just by myself?

                                    In Peace within...
                                            by simply being Me.

         But then I know.

              Being Me... is being Total.

                   Which means to share the Soul I am
                             with the Loveliness of Lovers.
                       In whom I recognize myself...
                                       to find the Me in Total.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11229-1981









                          WHILE I WAS NOT THERE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Oh yes... many a night we are alone now.
         The Children have grown tall and beautiful.

               And somehow the opposite polarity
                    is more attractive than their Parents.

         We understand... and yet we often wonder.
                              Is this then what Life is all about?

    Is this then... what we will meet in the future
              to sit here... and neither be with the Children
         and neither be without them for very long.

         While the Children seem to know and proclaim to know
                    what Life is all about... and seem to live it.

    What has happened to the time... I knew so well?
                                        Where is it gone?

      Where are the days when the Children were hurt and cried.

                  Where is the soothing thought...
                         that made them feel... the me I was?

    What then has changed?
             What happened to the Pair we were?
                            And why isn't it anymore...
                                          just the way I liked it?

         Am I then growing old?
              Am I then holding hands with Time itself?

                   Am I then thinking... that I can hold...
                                                what is not there?

    And why didn't Life tell me...
                       that it would leave?

         And why do I but so sadly remember...
                            the Times of Happiness...
                                              that were lived...
                                            while I was not there?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11230-1981







                         ACCEPTANCE IS BUT GRIEF
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To stick to Rules...
                       is the Joy of Fools.

               And the Habit-Mind but meets a Grind.

                    While Religions and Traditions...
                                             and the Habit-Lot
                       create for Man a Dead-End-Plot.

         And never by being...
                        a following-goof
               will Man find ever...
                           of his Godness proof.

         But to become Divine and a Perfect Whole
                         is to accept the World with Loving Soul.

              And see the Children that need the Rules
                          as younger yous and not as Fools.

         For Men and Women of every Race
                            come here to learn of Time and Space.

         And to finally find the Total Thought
                  and be a God... is by Pain but bought.

         The Pain of being the Individual You
                        in Search and Pursuit of the Cosmic Clue.

                     The Clue to Know
                           that Belief is but Belief.

                And that 'KNOWING' is GOD...
                            while Acceptance is but Grief.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11231-1981







                             THE HOW AND WHY
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Multitudes of Man I see...
                        there is no Way to Tell.

               There is no Way to Show or Teach...
                                   the Truth I know so well.

         For written in this Heart of Mine
                   in simple Words...
                             yes Line for Line
                                   is the KNOWLEDGE
                       so Few do Know
                              that this whole Earth
                                            is but for Show.

                    And to perceive beyond this Clay
                          will vanish Pain and Man's Dismay.

         For on the Planes where I do dwell
              there is no Earth... there is no Hell.

                   There is but ME...
                              the God I am...
                                        and purely do excel.

         While the Multitudes...
                        but live and live...
                                 to but re-live...
                              another Life...
                           another Try.

                                 And Few do know...
                                            the How and Why.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11232-1981







                             A WORLD OF GLASS
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Thoughts that are Me
                   tingle from my Deepest Mirror
                                        and reflect
                                 my Image and my Selfness.

               And in the Depth...
                         behind the Misty Eyes...
                                   I see the Beauty...
                                          of the Truth that is.

               Where have I seen that Face before?
                         Where have I felt those Feelings?

                                   Please tell me...
                                              who I see in you?

                             Please tell me...
                                 who am I... that's asking?

         And my Deepest Mirror then
                 slowly forms the Reflection of my Being
            while the Tenderness of Love that is...
                 smiles to me and makes my Reflection Realness.

         The Reflection from the Looking Glass...
                           that is my Deepest Mirror
                                            is the Being
                                                I know so well.

                   It is the Godness of the Self I am.

          The One I could not find...
                          for looking... into a World of Glass.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11233-1981







                         FROM THE YOU... YOU ARE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Brilliance... I see within myself...
                   is of a Greatness...
                                - equal -
                         to the Realization of it.

             For the Realization of 'what' I am...
                                        and 'how' great...
                             is born from...
                     The Awareness of my Brilliance.

         This means...
               that whatever I 'know' I am...
                                          I AM.

                For at all times...
                            I am my Awareness
                                    and the Realization of it.

         And you my Love...
                   could not possibly reflect
                                       - My Brilliance -
                                   if it was not...
                            within the Spectrum of Your Being.

                   In full Colour...
                       in the Fulness of my Reality.

         So.   If my Brilliance is within You...
                                          You are Me and More.

             And it is this Moreness than me...
                            - I want to experience -
                                   from the You... YOU ARE.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11234-1981







                     WITHIN THE SPLENDOR OF MY BEING
                     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Among the Pictures of my Mind...
                                     is the Scene
                                         of
                               The Meeting of the Gods.

               And when They meet...
                                They Tremble.

                     For All of Them see...
                                     The Beauty of the Other.

         And All of Them are most aware...
                                         of
                             The Immensity of Themselves.

               During the Meeting of the Gods...
                                       Worlds of Beauty
                                 within Universes of Splendor
                                  are discussed and created.

                 And I...
                     I am ALL of These...
                        within the Splendor of my Being.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11235-1981







                            A BEING BEAUTIFUL
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         With a Zest for Life...
                      like Life itself
                               she moves in Smiles of Being.

         Hiding her Questions...
                  beneath the Rim of Showing
                                 and in perfect Balance
                             with the Playful Extravagance
                                 of her Splendid Self.

         Caring for the Life that's hers...
                       she makes her Life by caring.

                  For by her Self-Alone...
                                    in being two
                           she creates the Sphere for Three.

         An Endeavour...
                   greater than the Duty of Self.

                And only possible by the Impetus of Love.

                    Constituting Beauty in Beingness.

             So Attractive and Self-Sufficient...
                                       that she is Splendor.

         While in the Deepness of her Soul...
                     she knows
                         that her Aloneness...
                                  is the Essence of Godness.

                  Making her...
                           to them that see...
                                - A Being Beautiful -

               Lovable to All...
                        and touching the Allness...
                                               within Me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11236-1981







                              TOTALLY ALONE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To know...
               that you are on The Path
                             makes the Journey easy.

               To not know...
                     but think you know
                          makes the Path a selfmade Road...
                                     by the Guidance of Others.

                     Your Path however...
                             cannot be shown by Others.

         And how does One know...
                   to be on the Right Path?
                                       Your Path.

                           One Knows...
                                One knows that One Knows.

         To be on a Path...
                   a self-made Road...
                             by the Guidance of others...
                                 is but Illusioned Progression.

            For sooner or later...
                   you will find the Guidance of others
                                  misleading and disappointing.

         YOUR PATH...
              is by the Direction of Self.
                                       Independent.
                                            Individual.
                                                 Totally Alone.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11237-1981







                            WITHOUT ITS BEAT
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         When I tore out my Heart
                          to find my Soul
                                   I lost my Mind.

         And I... Mindless...
                         was alone...
                               to tackle Self.

                    From the Bottom up...
                               and from Upness down.

         And smilingly...
                   the Thundering World
                                  knew by Ignorance
                                          the 'hows' and 'whys'.

               While I...
                     the Mindless could not see...
                                           for knowing.

         Relieved from Burdens...
               but loaded with Pain in Freedom
                         I listened to the Fighting Me...
                                   - A Soul projecting Silence -

               And nothing...
                   not even the Book of Secrets
                                    contained the Knowledge
                          to find my Mind...
                                     to steer my Soul...
                             without its Beat.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11238-1981







                           FROM GLORY TO GLORY
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         People ask me...
              now that you know 'what' you are...
                         how does the World look to you?
                              And how do you see other People?

         And I answer...
               well... the World...
                   and all the things I used to care about
                          I do not care about anymore.

                                    They are of no Importance.

               And when I look at People...
                               I say to myself...
                        what is it you are trying to do.

                                What does it really amount to?

         And the answer is that it amounts to nothing...
                                           Absolutely nothing.

               The point is... they don't know that.

                         Eventually though...
                                 they will know what I know.

         Which is...
               that YOU... the Real YOU...
                              is the only ONE that counts.

              The Real YOU... the Greatness in Awareness...
                     that you amount to... and are.

              The Real YOU... that lives Life after Life...
                  and knows that the World is a School.

                From which you eventually will promote...
                          to become a Teacher.

            A Teacher of Man...
                      to bring them... from Glory to Glory.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11239-1981







                       BY SHARING THE GOD YOU ARE
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Greatest Gift...
                           my Love...
                              is
                 to feel Yourself in Others.

         And the Words we shared...
                              my Love...
                        made me feel...
                              the Me in You.
                        While You...
                              were within me completely.

         Yet...
             all the Words we spoke
                  were but the Tokens of our Thoughts.

             But the Feelings we shared...
                               were 'Our Very Selves' within.

             United in the Sharing of Beauty...
                                     of our very Soul itself.

         Thank you...
                for letting me be...
                           the very One... I am.

                           A Man in Pleasure...
                                  by sharing the God you are.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11240-1981







                        A HAPPY ENDING IN ETERNITY
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The State of Mind you create...
                                  is Your Reality.

                       It could be Beautiful...
                                  it could be ugly as Hell.

                          Whatever it is...
                                   it is Your Creation.

         In a similar Fashion...
                        are you the Creator...
                                       of Your Life.

               Your Life...
                     is the Creation of Your Soul...
                                        and You are your Soul.

         Many People...
              are the Instrument of a somewhat younger Soul.

                      Their Life is a shaky affair.

                                      They suffer a lot.

         By the Suffering of the Body...
               and the Experiences the Soul encounters...
                                              the Soul learns.

               Slowly but surely... Life after Life...
                             the Soul learns to become Mature.

         All in all.....
               the Story of the Human Soul...
                               has a Happy Ending in Eternity.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11241-1981







                        THE FEELINGS YOU CREATED
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         LIFE my Love...
               is not whether you can get along
                                       with other People.

                  But whether you can get along...
                                       with yourself.

               And to make this happen...
                                      my Love...
                              you first of all forgive.

               Forgive all Others...
                     for 'whatever' you think
                                    they did wrong...
                                          that caused you Pain.

         And then my Beloved...
                        You Forgive Yourself.

               And when you feel...
                           the Crying within you...
                                             You are Free.

         Free to be You.

                  The You...
                       You always were.

                              But were hiding behind...
                                       the Feelings you created.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11242-1981







                                 IN LOVE
                                 ~~~~~~~

         Now that I am...
               what I am...
                          the Love for the World of Man
                                             is more and more.
               And Life becomes but Loving.

                     And when I am with you...
                                     my Closeness
                         the very Love for ALL
                                flows through the You I share.

         Never in the Memories of Living
                                  have I felt
                                       such Peacefulness
                       within the Silent Love
                                      that lives
                       between the You and Me
                                      In Being Us.

               Let the Focus of Our Loving...
                       be the Centre of the World of Man
                                                      in Love.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11243-1981







                            FROM TEN TO NINE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I come at Nine
                   and leave at Ten
               And in between
                         we have our 'when'.

         While none of us
                      knows yet to say
               Let's take the Time
                         and have our WAY.

                             Yet in the Silence
                                           of our Soul
                                 We are not 'two'
                                         but 'one' and Whole.

                             But in the Meeting
                                       of two Gods
                                 Both of Them
                                           just feel at odds.

         For to make True
                   our longing Wish
               Our very Patience
                           is our Bliss.

               So in this Hour of being us
                             we build and build but Stimulus.

         To fully grow our Love Divine
                      To make our waiting 'when'...
                                            from Ten to Nine.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11244-1981







                             THE GOD IN MAN
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         LOVE...
              is tinged with the Pain of Pleasure.

                   While the very Pain
                               we try to avoid
                                            is equal
                                         to the Godness
                                    we miss within Ourselves.

         And within the Loving we share
                       is the Colour of the Suffering we are.

                        While our Love
                              and the Lack of it
                                      grows the God
                              by lacking less through Loving.

         And the Colour within our Loving
                                    is equal
                          to the Sadness of being Man
                     searching for the Wholeness of his Soul.

             Never to be found
                   within the Pain of Loving.

                           But within the Divineness...
                                     of Loving more and more.

         For the Wholeness of Soul
                              we do seek
                   is found beyond the Love of Man
                                in being Gods in Loving
                                              the God in Man.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11245-1981







                              I KNOW SO WELL
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               For the so Special Way...
                                    I love you...
                                            I but suffer.

         For the Unsureness...
                         I endure
                    dangles
                         on your Love
                                that's hidden
                         beyond the Face that shows.

                         Beyond the Hands that touch.

                                  Beyond the Soul so Careful.

         And never...
              oh never please...
                        just let me be...
                                  what I am...
                                          for Show.

                                  For suffering...
                                              I know so well.


                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                11246-1981







                              I BEAR WITHIN
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Yes... I have come to show...
                           I have come to teach...
                     that Loving...
                           is the opposite...
                                       of Suffering.
         While the Love...
                 I feel for you
                       is the Love for the World
                                            oozing itself
                                         from the Heart I am.

         Feeling the Tears...
                 from the Eyes of Children...
                             I call my Brother Man.

           While you...
                 the very you
                          you are
                              are but the Recipient
                                               of the Love
                                        I dare to show.

         In Words...
                 in Shadows of my Thoughts
                                     and Feelings
                                               I bear within.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11247-1981







                                A TEARING
                                ~~~~~~~~~

         And when...
               I have moved you to Tears...
                           you are but sharing mine.

               The Tears...
                    that come from the Heart of Sadness.
                             But are born...
                                   from the Womb of Pleasure.

               By the Touch of Love
                              you care to be
                                       within the me
                                                   I am
                                               in moving you.

         While in the Sameness of our Souls...
                  we do not free
                          the Oneness
                                   so very needed.

                                And we know is there...
                                                   a tearing.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               11248-1981






                               I SO DESIRE
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

         With the Ease of Gods...
                           I Love You.

                  And with the Cunningness of Devils...
                                                    I scheme.

         Scheme to be your Lover
                          and yet be free.

                          To be the One I am
                                       in Freedom.
                                Without the Choice of Loving.
                                   Without the Pain I am.

         And as sure as I love your Beauty...
                                  within the Me I am
                         I suffer Sadness...
                                   for the You that I am not.

                 While what I am
                               and am not
                          tears at the Freedom
                                    I search to find.

         In Choicelessness.
                        Yet Loving You...
                                  Yet leaving You be.
                                                  In Freedom.

                       The very Freedom...
                                      I so desire.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12249-1981







                            NOT KNOWN AS YET
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Within the Me I am...
                     within the Life I know
                                     I am but Tears.

             Tears for the Brilliance I am...
                          and Tears for the Me that's missing.

                   While through the Love I know
                                     I find my Path to Living.

             By knowing what I am in You
                         By knowing You in Me so deeply.

             The Understanding and Sameness
                                        I see in You
                                  is the Acceptance of Myself.

                   By Tears of knowing Love.

                              By Tears of knowing Life.

             To be lived
                   in the Sharing
                              of One Another
                        in the Silence of being Us.

                   With the Pleasure of feeling
                                       Each Other
                             in the Peacefulness of Stillness.

             With Tears that smile.

                             With Tears that hunger
                                                for Tears
                                             not known as yet.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12250-1981






                            CALLED... WISDOM
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         YOU...
             who has known Love so little...
                                  must then be Wisdom.

                                  To still yet be...
                                             the Way You are.

             While in the Deepness of your Being...
                           you knew...
                              the Way You were...
                                          but could not give.

                           For Giving needs Acceptance.

             And to accept what's given...
                        needs the Depth of the Giver.

         But YOU...
              who has known Love so little
                                     - will bloom -
                              when your Gift
                                      is received
                              to the Measure
                                      of the Soul that gives.

         While the Pleasure...
                       of Giving and Receiving
                                 is the same and equal
                        to Knowing Self in Others
                                            called... Wisdom.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12251-1981







                          WITH HANDS THAT LOVE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To sit on the Floor so Cozily
              resting my Hands in your Lap...
                   while being touched by Loving Hands...
                                                     is Being.

         And nothing in the World
                   can be more Pleasant or Better.

              For to feel at Peace...
                        to feel the Unity of Two...
                                            is Godness.
                                      And this you give to me.

                        The Feeling of just Being...
                                            Being God...
                                                     in Being.

         While when your Hands...
                   so lovingly touch my Face
              your Caresses... project my Godness
                                         into Divine Pleasure.

                   By being touched...
                                with Hands that Love.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12252-1981







                               IT'S HEAVEN
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

               To be in Love...
                     and therefore Headless
                                    is Beautiful...
                                             and Crazy.

               While to be Crazy
                         is the most satisfying
                                   State of Mind to be in.

                     For Craziness is Heaven...
                             and Heaven is Craziness.

               While being Headless...
                                     means...
                              to feel with the Heart.

                     And that is the Way to Be.

                              For Feeling...
                                      beats...
                                         Thinking anytime.

               And to Feel...
                         is TO BE.

                               While to Think...
                                             is to Scheme.

               So lose your Head...
                         and be a Feeling Heart.

                                          And Crazy.

                                              It's Heaven.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12253-1981







                           TO THE GOD YOU ARE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Oh yes my Love...
                to Realize what you are...
                                 and 'that' you are...
                                          a Being Beautiful...
                                 actualizes You as such.

                For you are...
                     Splendid in Uniqueness
                          Magnificent in Beauty
                               and Marvelous in Divinity.

                     And YOU...
                          yes YOU alone
                               are the Maker of YOU.

           By the Thoughts you entertain...
                     and by the Realization of your Greatness.

                  For the Realization of 'what' you are
                             - determines -
                        your Greatness in Being.

           While your Opinion...
                        yes your Opinion alone...
                                       is the one that counts.

                And none other...
                          is worth one iota...
                                      to the God you are.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12254-1981







                             WITH BLUENESS ME
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             In the Background...
                          of being Silent
                   Is the Music...
                               of Pleasant You.

             With the Sounds and Sights...
                                    of Love and Living
                         Teasing Mind...
                               of Stillness Blue.

                   Reminding Sense and Inner Feeling
                            of the Hands that move and do.

                        Of the Lovely Soft Caresses
                                  I will feel when time is due.

             But to wait and think...
                       is too damn tearing
                                on the Mind...
                                         that dares the Daring.

                 So I kill...
                      my Thoughts so Free...
                                  and be alone...
                                         with Blueness Me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12255-1981







                        IN ADORATION OF YOUR BEING
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           To find the Lady...
                  to find the Woman...
                         to find the Mother...
                                       of the Universe...
                                              is my Endeavour.

           And because of my Seeking...
                       and all my Searching...
                                 I have seen her Face.

                                Watching her very Child.

                          Bewildered in his Search...
                                    confused by his so Trying.

               So please...
                      dear Goddess...
                              make your Face but smile.

               So that I can cease my Search...
                         by the Charm of your Lips
                              that speak to the Universe
                         of which I am a Child...
                                   in Adoration of your Being.
                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12256-1981







                              YOU ARE TO ME
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I do not want the Lady
                    I do not want the Woman
                            I do not want the Mother
                                             but I want YOU.

                    For YOU are All of Them
                               united in One Being.

         Wondering what to do
                   and wondering what to leave out.

                   For the Puzzle you are...
                                       is puzzling.

                         To do or don't...
                                  to leave or love
                                                   or
                                             just but smile.

         But whatever it is my Love...
                                  it is alright.

                     For I do love You...
                               and understand...
                                         the Puzzle you are.

               To Yourself...
                     and to all the Feelings...
                                        YOU are to ME.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12257-1981







                             AS GODS BUT KNOW
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Completeness to be found
                         in the Beauty of Souls
                                 I have found in You.

                         Vanishing the Man I was...
                                             to become a God.

          For by the Sharing of your Beauty
                      the God in hiding became the Love I am.

                       Projecting Love to You...
                                           in Freedom.

             Freedom to Love...
                     Freedom to Leave
                               the Me I am.

          For I will be...
               but Me in Godness...
                       and completed in Completeness.

                 With the Pureness... of the Love of Gods.

                      So be in Freedom...
                                     the You
                                            to Be.

                      In loving...
                            or in leaving...
                                     the God I am.

          And find Yourself in Freedom...
                    sustained by the Pureness of Love...
                                            as Gods but know.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12258-1981







                           BECAUSE YOU ARE YOU
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             The Love and Closeness...
                                 I do know...
                        receives my Love with Coolness.

             Like a Rose without its Colour.
                        Like a Day without its Light.

                               Like a Man without his Godness.

            And yet I keep on Loving.

                        For She is Me inside
                                  and does not know.

                        Why... oh why...
                                  my Closeness?

                        And what have I done wrong...
                                         by Loving You...
                                             to be unanswered?

            Yet...
                never Love Me...
                          just to please.

                                 Never Love Me...
                                          because You are You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12259-1981







                                LOVING YOU
                                ~~~~~~~~~~

             But who then am I?
                        I... who have known Love so little.

             Who then am I...
                       to tell you...
                             that I Love you?

             While the more I admit
                            that I Love you
                  the less completed I am in Selfness.

                                       The less I am a God.

             And that
                   is the Sadness within Me.

                   To be in Love with You...
                                      and Love You
                              while knowing Love so little.

             But yet...
                 it is what I need to be...
                               to be the Me I am.

                                        A Lover...
                                                Loving You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12260-1981







                            THAT MAKES ME GOD
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           When One is but Distraction...
                                        'SEX'
                                           my Dear...
                                           is the Distraction

           While 'sex' is the attempting Fulfillment
                                             of being God
                                             but for a moment.

         But what can One do...
                  when One is but distracted...
                              by the Distraction One is?

                                         A Sexual Being.

                                   Uncompleted within Oneself.

         Searching for...
                   what One is not.

                           To really never find
                                   but for a Second
                                         in Trance of Godness.

         Oh why am I...
                  this so Longing Distraction...
                                      for the Touch of You
                            that makes Me God
                                      but for a Second?

                 Oh why am I...
                       so longing for the Touch...
                                            that makes Me God?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12261-1981







                              IN BEING LOVE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To live in Choicelessness
               to live without the Love I need
               to live without the Love I need to give...
                                                   is Godness.

            To live in Choicelessness...
                       would be living without Pain
                       would be living without Suffering.

               And to be 'that' way...
                                is to be completed.

                       Completed to a Totality
                                      that is LOVE...
                                             LOVE itself.

            And I would be IT.

                             A GOD...
                             sufficient unto Itself...
                                                in Being LOVE.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12262-1981







                                NOT LESS
                                ~~~~~~~~

               The Rose...
                     the Rose betrayed my Meaning.

                                 Its Colours turning pale.

                     For in my Hand...
                           I stood there.

                                There was too much Detail.

               But yet...
                     she thought it Thoughtful.

                                    To bring a Rose...
                                                  so pale.

                     And slyly she admitted...
                                      it is the First.

                             But yet...
                                  to no avail.

               I felt Pain and Terror...
                         to know her Life that past.

               While awkwardly and clumsy
                         I had shown my Love at last.

                         And in this Man...
                                 this Feeling Mess...
                         to know all this...
                                   I love her more...

                                                 Not Less.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12263-1981







                          TO FIND THE TOTAL ME
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            I am this Hunk of Energy.
                         But Sex she finds Taboo.

                     I am this Bulk of Power.
                                         And Sex...
                                              alright...
                                                   but Who?

            For if the Love I love...
                                 is Coolness
                             towards the Total Me.

                     Where is the Darling Darling...
                                    the Woman I should see?

                           To be the Earth to Me.

            Am I then God already?

                  Or just a bloody Saint?

                            While the Love I love
                                          is Coolness
                                    and Sex to her I ain't.

            Where do I lay for Comfort...
                       where do I turn to plea...
                            where is the Earth so needed...
                       to find the Total Me?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12264-1981







                       WITHIN THE MULTITUDE SHE IS
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          What she is not...
                         I know not.
                         And what she is...
                                         I know.

                         I know she is a Lady.
                               I know she is a Woman.
                         And I know she is a Mother of Man.

                     And all 'three' of them in ONE.

                     Being the most Beautiful Trio
                                           that is Single.
                                        And I have ever known.

          A Splendid Person...
                         and Beautiful and Warm.

                                          A God in Human Form.

                         But what she is not...
                                       I know not.

                            And 'that' is what I want to know.

          For she is...
              or is not...
                  a Lover... of this man...
                       so ignorant of her Totality in Being...
                            within the Multitude she is.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12265-1981







                          TO THE BEAUTY I DO SEE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             Bless you Love
                       in your Endeavour...
                                       to be
                                   Your Way to be.

             Bless you... in the YOU so trying...
                                        of the YOU...
                                               I see in Me.

             Bless you Love...
                       for being Beautiful.
                 And bless you...
                           for all the things I see.

                 For in all the things
                           that you do total...
                     and are the Maker and Possessor of
                             I see your Beauty
                                    and Warmth in Loving...
                     the World you are and see...
                                              including Me.

             And if you were...
                       but 'one' bit different...
                 I could not possibly be... the Me
                                             in Loving
                         all the Things you Total...
                                    to the Beauty I do see.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12266-1981







                          IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I love...
                our being together...
                      within the Unity of our Souls.

           I love...
                our being together...
                      with the Sharing of our Minds.

           But I desire...
                      The Embracing Coupling...
                             of the Parts that are the Earth.

               For the Total of our Totality
                            can only be completed
                      by the Unification
                               of our Total Beingness as Man.

                           In being the Gods we are.

           By being Each Other...
                  to Each Other completely.

               By being Soul... Mind... and Body
                          in the Unifying Trinity of Oneness.

               For the Unity of Souls...
                    and the Sharing of Minds
                                         can never...
                                  make us Total as Man.

                           Or make us feel...
                                  the Universe we are.

               The Universe...
                        or God in Total...
                               as the Creator of Love...
                                   In Heaven... and on Earth.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12267-1981







                          BECAUSE WE ARE BUT MAN
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         In the Closeness that is...
              by the Sameness of the Souls we are...
                                       I cannot move for being.

               For I am Rest in Peacefulness.

                         And completed in Divineness
                                               of being Me
                                        by knowing You.

               In an Understanding...
                   and Feeling... of what You feel for Me
                                            of Me... and in Me.

         Yet...
               I am Motion.

                    Motion of Mind in Terror.
                              Motion of Feeling in Pain.

         For the Closeness we are in Soulness
                 is translated into Distance of Time and Space.
                             Because we are but Man.

         And while our Souls unite in Oneness
                 feeling the Miles of Space as Godness
                                           we are but Distance.

                 Removed by Time and Terror
                         and by the Pain of being Us.

                 Souls in Oneness...
                         feeling Godness.

                         Lovers in Aloneness...
                                       feeling Pain.

                                  Because we are but Man.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                        12268-1981







                              AND I IN YOU
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

         If You love Me...
                   You are lost where You are.

               While if You would be here...
                               You would be there too often.

                     So stay...
                          and suffer the Pain I am.

         For being You...
                   is being Me...
                             while being neither.

                 Searching for the Peace of Mind...
                                               I am for You.

                 Lost within the Thoughts You are...
                                                of being Me.

         And the Thoughts in Words we are...
                                        tell Me...
                that to say anything is nothing...
                           while to say nothing is All.

                                            But yet I speak.

                For this 'Nothing'
                            that is 'All'
                                     is Silence... is Death.

                And equal to being Me...
                      without the Life You are...
                                               in Me.

                                            And I in You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12269-1981







                         OR SLOWLY... SLOWLY DIE
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         A fleeting Kiss...
                   too light in touch
                             is all we shared between.

                A Hand we held...
                       A Glance in Dance...
                              A Loving Pure and Preen.

         But the Effect....

                   The things we knew...
                             are Memory too Clear.

                For the 'knowing' of the One in Two...
                                   gave us the Godness Sphere.

         A Love in Substance...
                        so Pure Divine...
                              to never match an Eye.

                For it was feeling Self in Self...
                                         of neither You nor I.

         It was the Sense of Soul to Soul...
                            formed by the Eons past.

                To smile in Inner Beingness...
                               for Ages yet to last.

                While Time and Space
                              will pass on by...
                      to make us hunger...
                                for this Love...
                                      or slowly... slowly Die.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12270-1981







                      THROUGH LISTENING WITH HEART
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          My Poems...
              are my Children...
                        all Beautiful and Mine.

          But they are not my Mind in Words...
                            but my Heart in Feelings.

               For from the Heart I am
                    flows the Stream of Feelings...
                                   expressing the Inner Being.

                            The Feelings that are the Me I am.

               In Depth of Love...
                    The Goodness in Giving...
                              The Soul I am in Solitude.

          While the Words that are Mine
                    are but the Medium I use
                          to show the Feelings of the Heart...
                              and the Sincerity of Soul.

          So Listen...
              Listen with Your Heart.

                        For to Minds I cannot speak...
                                           neither in Words...
                                       nor in Feelings.

          Yes Listen with Your Heart.
                            For the Heart is YOU.

                The Feeler of Feelings...
                            the Life You are.
                                         Eternal.

                By Feelings that have become YOU...
                                 through listening with Heart.
                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12271-1981







                         TO LEARN THE LIMITS OF
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes...
               the Children.
                        How I do love them.

               I love them with Feelings
                    I can't express in Words.

               For they are Tenderness in Loving Sense
                               and Love... oh yes... so Tender.

         Oh... how I love the Children.
                       For they are me and much more.

               They are... the Future Parents of Ourselves.

                    The Future Souls that teach us
                                               of Godness
                                           in Time yet to come.

         And....
              the Wisdom I see in their Eyes...
                   put me to shame...
                      and rush me back to learning.

               For the Souls that are hidden...
                    behind the Smiles they are in Wisdom...
                         tell me that they know Me.

               They cannot make Me understand...
                 because of the Ignorance I am and feel within.

         Oh... how I love the Children
                   and their Souls that know and dwell
               upon Planes beyond this Earth...
                                   of which I try...
                                        to learn the Limits of.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12272-1981







                        BECAUSE OF YOUR NEARNESS
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I miss and need...
                   - the Peace I am -
                               in the Nearness of You.

         For then...
                the Sphere we are...
                              feeds me
                              the Tranquility so sadly needed
                              to survive
                              the Inner Storm I am...
                                                  alone.

         So please receive me
                        and let me be
                                 the Storm at rest.

                 Within the Peacefulness we are
                                              because of You.

         Yes... please receive me
              and let me enjoy the Pleasure
                          from the Source of Serenity...
                                                     You are.

         Listening to a Storm in Stillness.

                Listening to the Words and Feelings...
                                   of the Thoughts and Heart
                         of the One so needing You.

                To be...
                     - the Peace I am -
                                because of Your Nearness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12273-1981







                         OF ME AND MY ALONENESS
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Silence...
                   between Me and my Aloneness...
                                             is deafening.

          For the Sound of Stillness
                 is torn by Terror gone insane
                       killing Me with the Thoughts I am alone.

          So my Love...
              by the Source of Peace...
                        You are to Me... by being You.

                  And soothe my Mind...
                               with Music of your Pleasantness.

          For your Voice...
              your Vibration of Selfness...
                        your Movements of Gracefulness
                   bring Serenity to the Soul I am in Terror...
                         and tranquilize the Self I am.

          But too rare...
              too very seldom
                   am I at Rest enough to call
                               and be the One I should be.

                        Admitting my Helplessness...
                                           in needing You.

          To be the Music...
               playing my Soul to Peace.

                        It should be... without You.
                                             In being Me alone.

               Without the Terror...
                           without the Pain...
                                   of Me and my Aloneness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                12274-1981







                             I DID NOT KNOW
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         How Beautiful You are...
                   how much I love You...
                            I cannot ever tell or show.

               For the Feelings my Dear...
                    the Feelings You are within Me...
                                              are Speechless.

         Neither Words... not Tears...
               are sufficient to show...
                     the Feelings I am in Loving You.

         While all the Words...
                   and all my Poems...
                             are but Smiles on Surface...
                                  of the Self I am...
                                                 in Deepness.

         For You...
              You've touched in Me... the Depth of Being.
              You've touched in Me... the God in Man.
              You've touched in Me... the Life I am...
                                      and did not know I was.

         Please be and stay...
                   the Way You Are in Living.

         Please be and stay...
                   the Way You Are in Loving.

                   Be and Stay...
                         the Beauty of the Life in Me...
                                              I did not know.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12275-1981







                          SO MARVELOUS TO FEEL
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes...
              my Love...
                  come to me and embrace me.

              Come to me and share your Energies...
                               and the Vivaciousness you are.

              Come and share the Energies of Loving Fire.

              Come and share...
                         the Energies of being You...
                                               so splendidly.

         Yes...
            shower me...
                with the Marvelous Feelings
                                  of the You I need
                            to find my Life worth living.

         And I will share with you...
                               the Calmness
                       of the me I am in loving you.

               The Calmness of the Self at Rest
                    by being near... to share Ourselves
                                         in Unison of Loving.

         The Loving... that neither You nor I
                                  have ever known in Sharing.

             A Sharing of Bubbling Rest in Loving...
                               of Vivaciousness and Calmness.

                          So Marvelous to Feel.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               12276-1980





                           LOVING CONSCIOUSLY
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Within our Loving Consciously...
                  within the Love we know...
                                        that is Us...
                                               by knowing Us...
                                   I am at Rest in Peace.

         For I know
                that You know Me
                         by knowing You
                                 through loving Me.

         While the Honesty we are...
                               moves within Us...
                         and is Ourselves in Freedom...
                                    by our so Conscious Loving.

         Unequalled in the Life we knew.

                Unequalled in the Love we are.

                              To Each Other...
                                        for Each Other...
                                                   Consciously.

         In Peace of Knowing Us
                to be the Self in Loving
                                we are and share.

                In the Serenity of our Closeness
                                        in being Lovers.

                                            Loving Consciously.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13277-1981







                             THE DREAM I AM
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         By knowing the Suffering I am...
                              I know my Loving.

               While the Suffering I endure...
                                      is knowing not...
                                                 her Pain.

               Oh how...
                      how can I but know her Pain.
                                So that I know her Loving.

         How can I but lessen...
                        and get to know
                 the Pain and Suffering we endure
                           and make our Loving bloom
                        to Fullness in Perfect Pleasure...
                                                 without Pain.

         I can but dream...
                   the Silent Dream...
                                  in unawareness...
                                              of her dreaming.

                             The Dream I am.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13278-1981







                            DISTURB YOUR PLAN
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

               Yes... I know.
                           For I know me.
                                       Thus knowing You.

         And what You want...
                  is really there.

                               But You still look...
                                         but don't know where.

         For your Mind...
                   that's but dividing...
                               is not the Source...
                                             for your abiding.

               But to Learn in Time
                        to hear your heart...
                                    is the Secret...
                                               and Truest Art.

         For Minds are Tools...
                        and have no Clue.

               And but misguide...
                              the God in You.

               So Search and Seek your Heart's Advice...
                   It knows your Taste... It knows your Spice.

               For Hearts are God...
                          and Minds but Man.

                                  So let no Mind...
                                            disturb your Plan.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13279-1981







                              BECAUSE OF IT
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes... Oh yes
                         my Love.

               Come and sit on the Floor.

                    Come and sit where you always sit
                            and feel the Peacefulness of Being.

         Oh yes my Love...
                    come and sit right close to me
                                    and feel the Feelings I am.

               And then slowly...
                       take my Hand
                             and kiss it.

               Kiss it with the Feelings...
                                      you do feel.

               Kiss it with the Sphere...
                                 of Peace you feel...
                                            because of us.

         For the Sense of Living...
              and the Nature of Being
                                     my Love
                          - is to be the Peace Within -

              The Peace within the Self...
                                       you are...
                                            through me.

         And slowly then...
                    lean back...
                    and feel the Universe of Love
                                within the Beauty you are.

                                                 Because of it.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13280-1981







                      BUT EXPRESSED SO DIFFERENTLY
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes... my Love...
                 - about Love and Lust -
                             the Two Opposites Forever.

               Yet Love and Lust are One.
                         But expressed in different Dualities.

         To Love...
               is seeing Lovingly.
                        By making You 'The Love'...
                                  and I the Instrument...
                                                    of Loving.

         To Lust...
               is seeing an Object...
                         to satisfy Desires...
                                   is using the Object...
                                            as the Instrument.

         And also...
               seeing a Person Lovingly...
                         is making that Person Beauty.

                   While seeing Beauty lustfully...
                               is making Beauty but an Object.

         And like You are...
                        LOVE for the Children
               so am I in Sameness and Nature for You.

                                 But expressed so differently.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13281-1981







                         IN THE DARKNESS OF MIND
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Yes my Love...
               to be Centered in the Heart...
                      is to be Centered in God's Dimension.

                                            Centered in Living.

               While being Centered in the Mind...
                                       is but Existence.

         Existence by Scheming...
                           and Divisions.

                           Existence by Figuring...
                                              and Calculations.

         To become Centered in the Heart
              is attained by Loving...
                   by Loving and Loving more.

                        With a Loving Attitude...
                                            towards ALL.

                              And a Loving Attitude is Feeling.

               Feeling Feelings.
                        Which no Mind can do.

         And the LOVE you are...
                             my Love...
                   just make it more and more.

                           You will find yourself...
                                            in God's Dimension.

              The Dimension...
                    so unknown to the World of Man...
                                   in the Darkness of Mind.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13282-1981







                             AND THE CREATOR
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         YOU... my Love
              the Individual Consciousness you are
                           are living
                   within the Universal Mind
                                         called God.

         But in Actuality...
                        God is LIVING within YOU.

               To understand this...
                         to comprehend this...
                    and doing something about it...
                                              is YOUR Task.

                                    The Task of...
                                            Living Your Life.

               And Life...
                     is a - do it yourself job -
                                      for You are the Doer.

         The Doer in the Aloneness...
               of the Stupendous Greatness...
                                    of the Universe.

                               The Universe that is God.

                                           Living Within You.

              Living within the Individual Consciousness...
                                You Are.

                      Containing... 'All That Is'.

                    For You Are God.

                                    And The Creator.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13283-1981







                         NOR SENSE... NOR SEASON
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           I have been writing... and writing
                                    and I am tired.

               Yet my Tiredness...
                          does not make me sleep or rest.

               For in the Deepness of my Being
                    so very... very Deep...
                           are the Feelings of Care...
                                        the Feelings of Love.

               While you but sleep...
                           in Peacefulness...
                                      knowing nothing hereof.

           What can I do...
                   but write and write...
                            of Feelings and Feelings...
                                              I cannot fight.

               For Love is Love...
                   and needs no Reason...
                            and neither Time...
                                 nor Sense... nor Season.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                13284-1981







                              FOR ONE IS GOD
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          That's what it is...
                         my Love...
                              - Helplessness -
                         Yes... Helplessness is Love.

          For loving Someone
                         is feeling Helpless
                                           because of Loving.

                   While Hate is the other Pole.

          For when Hate is there...
                        there is always something one can do.

          But Love...
              Love is Total Helplessness.
                          And this is the Pain of Love.

                                 The more Love...
                                       the more Pain.

          So by the Pain one is...
                   one knows one's Love.

                            Thus knowing the Lack of Godness.

               For being Man means...
                              to need Love...
                              as well as need to give Love.

               While being Love...
                        is neither needing Love
                               nor needing to give Love.

                                              For One is God.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13285-1981







                        FOR BEING MAN IN DARKNESS
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To give to Man
                    a Tear of Brilliance
                                     of the Source I am.

               And to give to Man
                        a Glimpse of Godness
                                        of the Gods they are.

                        Where do I turn for help?
                      Where do I look for Guidance?

         And how do I find the Way...
                               to show them
                         the very Selves they are...
                                   within the Brilliance
                                            of their Godness?

         I can but write and write
                        in Words and Words
                                     invisible
                                 to the Eye of Man.

                                              My Brother...
                                              My Brother God.

              For Man IS God.

                    But blind...
                               for being Man in Darkness.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13286-1981







                         IS THEN THE LONGING ALL
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         And I but cry...
                   because of Happiness.

               For the Tears welling up...
                         from the Corners of my Eyes...
                                        are Smiles of Loving.

         While yet my Happiness
                   is mingled with Pain.

                             For the Love I am
                                  for you
                           is so Alone in Loving.

         And why... oh why...
                    do I so love alone?
                Where is Love's other Half...
                          where is the Half that's loving me?

                In my Crying Happiness
                            I am less than nothing...
                                           by being but Half.

               I am a Flute... without the Openings.

                      I am the Snow... without the Whiteness.

                            I am a God... without Godness.

                          For I am a Man without Masculinity.

         Is that then...
                 why I cry?

                          Is that then...
                              why I cry the Smiles of Loving?

                                 Is then the Longing all?

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13287-1981







                              IN KNOWING ME
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         "I feel that I am...
                   what I should be for you...
                                       at the Moment"

             Yes... these Words my Love
                                 are the Betrayal...
                                            of your Feelings.

         Hiding the Real You...
                       behind a Veil
                woven by Thoughts and Feelings
                                  that are You so Splendidly.

                The You and the Love within.

                       The Love within...
                                  You do not know...
                                           but feel is there.

         And so do I.

                  For I have seen you walk.
                            I have seen you move.

             And I have seen you pause...
                       between the Movements
                                       of your Feelings.

             And I have felt your Touch
                                 with the Love
                                          that tells me.

                    Yes my Love...
                               You Are In Love.

         You are in Love...
              but cannot tell for knowing
                                    all the Love You Are.

              In Hiding behind the Feelings
                                        you create
                                               in knowing me.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13288-1981






                        WITH LETTERS OF LOVE....
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        In my Poems my Love... I have emptied my Heart.

             And the Gaps between my Words...
                            are the Tears of my Crying.

             Composing the Vibrations of my Feelings...
                      singing and speaking from the Self I am.

             Expressing the Wishes and Dreams...
                                        I dream in loving you.

        I know that I have touched you...
                        deeper than the Depth...
                               of the Woman you knew you were.

              So profound...
                  that whatever might happen my Love
                       you never... ever... will forget
                  the Music of the Soul
                              that reached for the God within.

               Showing you the Beauty you are...
                            and the Harmony between two Souls.

         And the Honesty of my Endeavour...
              from the Soul within me...
                       is found within the Colour of my Style.

                   Simple... yet Subtle...
                              Touching... yet Tearing.

                   For the Man I am my Love...
                       is a Man in Love... loving you.

              Evolved to express the Love he is...
                               from the Godness he is...
                                          yet being but a Man.

         So please my Love...
                        help the Soul I am... so trying...
              in being the Heart you are...
                        so deeply touched within...
                                           by a Soul...
                                      with Letters of Love....

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13289-1981







                              MAN AND WOMAN
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         The Soul I am...
                   is searching for its Completeness.

               For the Being I am...
                              is but Half.

                                   Lacking Godness.
                                            Lacking You.

         And to find the Half...
                         that's missing
               I need the Smiles of Pleasantness
                    shared within the Music of Closeness
                         through the Loving I feel
                                   in the Warmth of Soul
                         of the Woman I know
                                    and knows me
                                          in Lacking Godness.

         While what is lacking within me
                        is the Need to Share
                                       - what I am -
                                with the Lacking Half I seek.

               To complete Each Other
                     into the Ecstasies of Beingness
                             of Godness Completed in Harmony.

               Within the Universe we are...
                    and create by being the Shares...
                            we need to find
                                       in sharing...
                                               MAN AND WOMAN.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13290-1981







                            JUST LOST CONTROL
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         She changes Love...
                      in Torturing Pain.

                 For her Tinge in Coolness...
                                     has gone Insane.

            She has no Time for Love to be...
                      in being the Sharpest Knife...
                 cutting and cutting...
                                 my very Life.

         She is no Mother...
                 neither Woman... nor Girl...
                           for she rejects the finest Pearl.

                 A Pearl in Poetry...
                           to the World unknown.

                           How could she be Human...
                                              or even Clone?

         For who could be...
                 but just a Friend
                           to the Poet's Poet...
                                     in full Ascent?

            Well... I'll be damned...
                           for I know so well.

                                  She but pretends...
                                         and lies like Hell.

            For in the Deepness
                        of her very Soul
                               the God that is...
                                          just lost Control.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13291-1981







                              A GOD ASLEEP
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~

         With the Wisdom of Ages
                   hidden behind Smiling Eyes...
                                            SHE IS.

                   Ignorant of her true Worthiness.
                              Knowing not her Value in Being.

         Sunshine reflecting from her Face...
                                        tells me...
                  that she is Beautiful...
                         in Inner Beingness and Soul.

                                             I stop and talk.

         Yes... I have known her before.

                         Some many million Moons ago...
                                         when we were Lovers.

                 Knowing Love of Bodies...
                                    Love of Minds
                           and the Love of Souls in Deepness.

         However...
              now... in being but Wise in Girlhood...
                                              I surprise her.

               In touching her Inner Self...
                                   by Words of Godness
                   unknown to her Conscious Mind.

               She knows them by Heart...
                       but by Mind... she rejects them.

         Slowly though...
             she will remember...
                  in the Weeks and Years to come...
                                  the Very Self she is.

                                                A God Asleep.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               13292-1981







                          I HAVE TO FINISH HERE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         I am in this World...
                          so strangely.

                     For I am...
                          and am not...
                                  really on it.

                                     And certainly not of it.

         And yet there...
                 where I really belong...
                           I don't find myself.

                                     For I am here
                                          upon a World
                                            that is not mine.

         Where is it then...
                      that I belong?

               So often I feel
                          this World but to be
                                   a Place where I go...
                                                   and dream.

               Dream that I am dreaming
                          of Worlds and Universes
                                             where I am from.

               And dream...
                    that it is there...
                                I really belong.

                       And am in full Awareness...
                                              of Dreams...
                                         I have to finish here.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                  13293-1981






                             WHAT LOVE REALLY IS
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Tell me then...
                       what is Love?

                 The Love I feel for Women...
                               the Love I feel for Men.

           LOVE... my Child...
                 Love is the Quality... one feels...
                                                 called Godness.

             So difficult to be found within the other Gender.

              Some of it is there but most of it is missing.

           While in the Search for Love within Partners
                 and within the Love we do find...
                      we more and more wonder...
                                         where it went
                                 or whether it was there at all.

           For Godness... we do not find...
                     to Satisfaction within One Another.

                 For the Love to be found is Total Godness.

                         Which is within the Self...
                                     so searching outside of it.

                 This is the Love...
                         that will only be encountered...
                                                  by loving God.

                 Living in Total within the Soul...
                                          the God Within.

           And the God Within...
                     is the Self within ALL Others...
                                 and ALL Others within the Self.

           While the more and more we love...
                                   the God within ALL...
                        the more and more we discover...
                                            WHAT LOVE REALLY IS.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 13294-1981







                                WHICH IS LOVE
                                ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           In loving One's Self...
                     One loves the World...
                               and the World of Man.

                 For the Love for ALL...
                                is the Love of Self.

                                               For One is ALL.

           And the Love of One's Self
                         is the Summation
                                of the Feelings One is.

                 Developed by the Attitude adopted...
                                 by living Lives as Man...
                              and the Experiences encountered.

           Each Human Being...
                     is a Soul in Flesh.

                                 A Soul in Hiding.

                     And ready to return...
                                 when finished Loving...
                                                  All That Is.

           All the Living and Loving
                  is culminated within the Wisdom of the Soul.

                  And is equal to Godness...
                        in Individuality and Selfness...
                                                     in Being.

                    Constituting Knowing Oneness Within.

                                                Which is LOVE.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 13295-1981







                               AND GOD ITSELF
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Oh yes... my Friends...
                            to get to know...
                       what we do not know as yet...
                                               is possible.

                 You have to agonize the Inner Mind.

                      You have to contact the Mental Being...
                                                       the Soul.

                      And if it is good for you...
                                    to know
                             what you don't know as yet...
                                    your Soul will let you know.

           Your Soul knows more than you do.

                 For it is an Aspect of the ALL Knower...
                                             The Universal Mind.

           To agonize the Inner Mind...
                 is the awakening of the Self
                                to the Wisdom of the Soul.

           All of us have to be awakened...
                  for we are fast asleep in the World of Matter.

                         We have to dehypnotize ourselves
                               to the Inner Reality
                                               of Our True Self.

                               This is the Task of Man.

           Once we are awakened...
                 we become the Beauty
                      of the Universe of Consciousness.

                                          The Universal Mind.

                                Which is OUR Mind.

                                              And God Itself.

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                                 13296-1981







                             BY WHAT I AM NOT YET
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           The Space-Being I am
                             is confused.

                         For the Space Within...
                                          is rambling
                                     the Raider enclosing it.

                 Yet there is nothing to fight...
                                          but Nothingness.

                       The empty Nothingness
                                         longing...
                                for what is not there as yet.

           What is it... I fight...
                       that is not there?

                               Is it the Me
                                         I am not?
                               Is it the Me
                                         I will yet be?

                 Whatever it is...
                          it is untouchable by Hands or Mind.
                              But it is there by Feeling.

           Subtle in Substance of Feeling.

                     Solid in Substance of Ignorance.

                 It is...
                      being a Space-Being...
                            full of Empty Space Within...
                                                 and seeking.

                  Seeking...
                    and to be filled... by what I am not yet.

                        -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                 13297-1981







                              WITHIN ONE WHOLE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            In this Galaxy we know as Milky
                            the Race of Man is Young and Cute
            And in the Growing we encounter
                         we fumble struggling in Self-Dispute
            While Man to Man in the Plane of Separation
                       All in All are really Oneness-Absolute
            Which cannot be found in Weapons
                            but in the Harmony of Self-Salute.

            But to learn of Life by Living-Lessons
                              is a Process of a Billion Moons
            To be experienced in bitter Dosage
                             by the Taste of Self-Made Spoons
            For as of yet at this very Present
                               too many Man are still Baboons
            But steady climbing and a Soaring
                          to Heights-Unknown in God's Cocoons.

            And with the Multitude of Beings
                                  in our Galaxy the Milky Way
            We ALL in ALL are Cosmic-Sameness
                             and Souls encaptured in but Clay.

                  While Each of All... in Fragment-Soul
                        is ONE in TOTAL...
                                   within ONE WHOLE.

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                                 13298-1981







                               OF 'ALL THAT IS'
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            To be aware of what Humanness entails...
                                         is to be One of Them.

                     While all the Rest...
                                    is but MAN.

                To Be Human is to Live it.
                                         And Love it.

            To be Human is to Understand and Know...
                     Your Destiny
                               Your Goal
                     Your Multi-Dimensionality
                                         Your Unlimitedness
                          Your Soulness within God
                     Your Totality...
                               as a Cosmic Being.

            To understand this
                 in full awareness of knowing
                                         is to be Human.

                 You realize then
                      that the Soul you are
                           is the Force that Lives...
                                         Steers and Directs
                                   your Physical Form.

            And eventually... the Total You
                     will be united with the Entity
                                         you are an Aspect of.

                     Within all the Splendor...
                                        of ALL THAT IS.

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                                 13299-1981







                               BY NOT THINKING
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

             What Man really is...
                        He does not know.

                 What Man really is...
                                is hidden deep within.

                 And since he does not know his Inner Self
                           he is held back...
                                  to what he but is.

                                             A Struggling Man.

                 Man's Ignorance...
                       and his Conditioned Mind...
                                   is holding him back.

             To let go...
                  of his Conditioned Mind he fears.

                                    He fears it like Death.

                While Death...
                     is the Impossible Concept.

                                          For Death is Not.

                               There is only Life.
                                     There is only Godness.

             For Man to let go of his Fears
                     will take many and many Years of Courage.

                The Instillment of Fear...
                          is Ages and Ages old.
                                        And Hell itself.

                The Hell...
                    Man created himself.

                          By being Conditioned...
                                     to the Limit he is.

                                              By not thinking.

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                                 13300-1981




                         NO EARTH WILL EVER KNOW
                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         At one time...
                between Naughtiness and Daring...
                                       I touched her Breast.
                        Feeling the Pulse of Life.

                And then I knew...
                              that she was...
                        the Queen of the Universe.

         Quickly then her Thoughts told me
                          that the Daring was too much
                     for the Naughtiness was lost in Daring.

                Slowly then...
                     the Feelings of True Love...
                                          diverted me
                                    to the Pure Love we are.

                       Without Daring...
                            so apparently redundant.

         For Love...
              True Love...
                   transcends the Naughtiness in Daring
                             far beyond this Plane of Earth.

              Where Bodies do not dwell.
                             And only Love exists.

                   By being Pure and Beautiful...
                              and of the Essence of Soul
                       with all its Godness and Love.

                                    No Earth will ever know.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14301-1981







                               THE POET IS
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

         A Poet is a Person...
                   who is Multi-People.

                   For all his Poems...
                           are different Aspects...
                                      of Separate Beings.

                   And no Poet will ever know...
                              all the People the Poet is.

              For some live in Heaven
                       some live on Earth
                                   And some live in Hell.

         A Poet...
              is neither Male... nor Female.

                        But a Soul...
                             in Communion with God.

              Listening to the Feelings of Godness...
                                    to be expressed in Words.

                     Words of Hell...
                           Words of Earth...
                                 And words of Heaven.

         But in Heaven...
                   a Poet is so very seldom.

              For a Poet is but a Human Being...
                             living in too many Places...
                   and most of the time...
                             too full of Words...
                   that have lost the Feelings of Godness.

                         And therefore...
                               never reach the Paper...
                                                 the Poet is.

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                               14302-1981






                             OR LEAVE ALONE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes... my Love.
                   All your Life...
                        you have been loving Poetry.

               As a Child...
                    As a Girl...
                         As a Lady...
                              And as a Mother.

               For the Feelings hiding behind the Words
                    create within you
                         the Sense of Beauty you are...
                              feeling the Words as Feelings.

          And then...
                  my Love...
              at the Apex of your Becoming Love itself...
                   this somewhat awkward Poet enters your Life.

                     Releasing the Poetry of Poets
                               touching the Depth of Being
                           within the You...
                                      who knows.

         The You...
               who knows...
                     the Beauty...
                           of the Feelings...
                                        You Are...
                                              dressed in Words.

         This Poet... for You...
                            to either choose to Love...
                                                or Leave Alone.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14303-1981






                                LOVING YOU
                                ~~~~~~~~~~

           To be in Love with You...
                              and Love You
                         is a Gift from Heaven.

               Perplexing in Beauty...
                    Silencing in Greatness...
                         And lifting Me to Ecstacy.

           But yet...
               Words are but Words.

                    And Words are totally insufficient
                          to express...
                               the Feelings You create...
                                                   within me.

               Feelings that burst with Delight
                         for being my Love and Light...
                                           in the Heart I am.

           To Me...
               You are a God.

                   Enlightening me...
                             to Loving Unconditionally.

                                    Without Reason...
                                               without Sense.

           For I am lost...
                   and no more.

               For being You in Me...
                              completely.

                 Vanishing the Me
                          within the Love I am... LOVING YOU.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14304-1981






                             FOR I LOVE YOU
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Sometimes... my Love...
                   when I am writing...
                             I pretend to be your Shadow.

               And from the Shade I am...
                      I admire the Light you are...
                                  from the Darkness I am.

               And in my Dream...
                              I glow
                                  for you are Life to me.
                         Creating the Shadow...
                                          I but am.

         But yet I say...
                   never love me...
                             because I love you.
             Only love me...
                  because YOU LOVE ME.

                               For You Are Free.

             Free to Love
                  Free to Leave.
                       To be You in Freedom.

                                Freedom of Loving
                                         or Leaving Me.

                                          For I love You.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                14305-1981






                          YOUR PEARL OF LOVING
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Oh yes... I love You.
              I love you as much...
                   as that you allow me to love You.

              For I cannot love you anymmore
                   as that you can receive in loving.

                                             But it is enough.

         For but knowing you
                   and knowing what you are
                                   is enlightening...
                                               to the me I am.

                   Loving... what you accept.
                            In Honesty... so Lovingly.

         While yet...
              loving you
                  is like loving a Whirlwind.

               Never being sure...
                         how and why...
                   I am going to be touched...
                        by the Reflections you project
                                   from the Love I am for you.

         But Oh...
               this Loving Whirlwind
                    takes me to Heights Unknown.

               To the Planes of Delight in Being...
                       caught-up within it.

                                Trying to find...
                                         Your Pearl of Loving.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14306-1981






                          THE MIGHTY YOU WITHIN
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Hey You...
              Yes You... learning Man.

                       Never pray to a God...
                                      outside of You.

               But pray...
                    and address your Prayer...
                                 to the God within.

                                       The Soul that is You.

         For this is Your Source.
                   This is the Cause of Your Being.

                                          This is your Life.

               Recognize the YOU within YOU...
                                 the Soul You Are.

                     This is the Source...
                                  that cares.
                                       The God Within.

         While ALL Gods outside of You
               are like a Mountain to an Ant.
                                     Crushing You...
                                          as easily as Doom.

         But the Force Within
                        knows You...
                            and cares for You.

                For THAT is Your Creator.

                                    The Mighty You Within.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14307-1981






                        THAT SENSED HER FRAGRANCE
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         In the Life I have lived...
                        there was but one Flower...
                                             I remember.

               She was Blond...
                         and so Vivacious.

                               Blue-Green Eyes...
                                     and Poetry in Movement.

               She never really loved me.

                              But... oh did I love her.

                                  So Secretly...
                                       and Hurtful.

         What else could I but do...
                      but try to forget...
                            and try to forget forever.
                                       But really never did.

         Oh yes...
               in the Life I have lived
                         there was but one Flower.

                    So Sweet she was.
                             So Colourful...
                                      and so Lovely.

                                  Never to forget.
                             Never to really die within.


         She was Life itself.

                   To never die within the Heart...
                                  that sensed her Fragrance.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                               14308-1981






                             BY THE POEM I AM
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~